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  1. Public Bookmark 39

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    All his life Shinji has done what he’s told. Play the same instrument his mother played. Attend music conservatory to carry on his family legacy. So, when he meets a cute boy that seems to like him just for him, Shinji doesn’t quite know what to do with himself. Acceptance has always been bought—not given freely. He just needs to figure out what Kaworu’s price is.

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    03 Jan 2026

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    If someone told Minamoto a month ago that he would become friends with the owner of that psychotic voice, he would have scoffed. And yet...

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    09 Dec 2025

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    …while all around there is not a single living soul, not a bird, not a fly, and it is beyond comprehension who the waves are roaring for, who listens to them at nights here, what they want, and, finally, who they would roar for when I was gone. [A speculative rebuild of the hearts and minds of Shinji Ikari and Asuka Langley Soryu, following the events of End of Evangelion. Kawoshin, Asurei.]

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    29 Aug 2025

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    Even though this story remains unfinished even a decade later, the ending that we did get still feels satisfying. I would have loved to read more about these 4 living post-apocalypse, not just surviving but living truly, but this is good. Shinji becoming alive immediately upon getting Kaworu back is so real and true

  4. Public Bookmark 31

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    “He can’t look up and find this is all an illusion, all something his mind twisted up for him to keep him sane. If there’s no one in front of him, no one touching him, no one soothing him, he won’t be able to take it.

    Kaworu is dead. Shinji killed him. He watched that silver stardust hair mat with blood and filth, head sitting alone on the ruined floor while Unit 01 still cradled his body. He screamed and cried and agonized, tearing his hair out with the grief, the guilt.

    This isn’t real. It can’t be.”

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    An alternate ending for The End of Evangelion.

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    21 Aug 2025

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    “When you asked if we could be friends... I wish I had said yes.”

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    17 Aug 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    I read this fic years ago, maybe when I was 16 or 17. In the back of my mind, Asuka eating the carrot and Rei carrying her in an AT field has never left me. I don’t think it ever will, and I crave more post-impact stories like this.

    I despise rebuild’s retelling of Asuka. I think this is truly Asuka; this is canon to me.