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For a long time, he thought it was Shannon. His love for her had ruined him for all women.
Now he’s not so sure. All thanks to Father Brian and fucking juice.
The juice, it turns out, is gay porn. Which brings him back to the beginning. Porn doesn’t really do it for Eddie. Until now.
Until Buck, and his goddamn secret OnlyFans.
Or: Eddie's parents sue for custody (fuck the Diaz parents) & Buck starts an OnlyFans to pay for a lawyer. Eddie befriends Father Brian, who encourages him try some gay porn and, well. Then Buck and Eddie make a series of utterly unhinged choices about it. freak4freak tempered with intense character study ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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23 May 2026
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Eddie touches Buck a lot.
It’s a thing they do, has been for years, and it’s not a big deal. Eddie’s an affectionate guy. Side hugs and arm grabs and that move where Eddie steers him through doorways with a hand on his lower back.
All of which Buck has never spent any real time considering because it’s just Eddie, it’s just how he is. Eddie touches people and Buck just happens to be the person standing next to him most of the time, so it’s aimed at him most of the time. Proximity and frequency, that’s all. A coincidence.
They’re close. They always have been. So what?
All that being said, there is one thing Eddie doesn’t do.
Eddie doesn’t kiss Buck.
Or — didn’t. Past tense, until about thirty seconds ago, when Eddie leaned across their table at the diner they’re currently eating at and pressed his mouth to Buck’s cheek like the kiss was just another item on a list of things he was doing that afternoon.
Or,
The totally natural and platonic long-term friendship escalation of kissing your best friend on multiple parts of his body without explanation.Bookmarked by effulgent_73
14 May 2026
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He feels like shit when he's hungry, and he plays better when he's empty. The cold air doesn't touch him as much. The floodlights turn silvery-soft.
And he likes eating. Keeps his hands busy, mouth busy, mind busy. Something to chew through, putty in the ears.
Go until he can't anymore. Cycle it back out. Be ready.--
OR: Buck's had on-again, off-again bulimia since he was 14.
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Title from Psychic Friend's "We Do Not Belong".
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Buck had lost-- he was sure of this now. His resolve only lasted a few weeks before his exterior began to crack; he was never a very good actor. He couldn’t keep up the greetings and the asking questions and the easy stroll. He let his shoulders creep up to his ears, let his foot tap incessantly. He did what his Captain told him, but stopped asking for anything more. Stopped following the conversation in the back of the engine on the way to the call; he just stared out the window, thinking about the case to come, preparing for it. When he woke every morning, there was no big recovery milestone to strive for, no big fight for the soul of his career to win. Not even the happy swell of being back on shift -- something so easy to dismiss, that had dominated so much of his life, that he had taken for granted-- that had catalyzed him each morning of his first week back.
An old habit of his had returned. A bad habit.~~
or: after the lawsuit, buck confronts what it was he wanted all along. he looks and looks and longs for it; the team looks right through him. buck breaks-- right down the middle.
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24 Feb 2026