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  1. Rec 2

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    The spell was shattered with brutal finality and Eridan was standing in the middle of his respiteblock, fully aware that this was a dream that never could be. He had an image to upload. He had responsibilities. She didn't fit anywhere in that and she never would. He wanted to scream, he wanted to forget her, and he wanted to do something terrible to everyone he had ever met just so that they too would feel this agony.

    He hated this. Hated himself. Hated the world.

     

    Or: Eridan grapples with gender dysphoria in a way that is neither effective nor healthy

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    15 Nov 2025

  2. Rec 2

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    Playtesting is critical for a successful release.

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    10 Oct 2025

  3. Rec 98

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    “I used to think I couldn’t be trusted. With people. With—anything I might lose.”

    Abby doesn’t interrupt. Jinu keeps staring straight ahead, eyes on something far away.

    “I thought if I let anyone close again, I’d ruin them too.”

    Abby doesn’t joke. Doesn’t smirk. He just shifts, lets their knees touch. He looks at him and says, “I’m still here.”

    Not a promise. Just truth.

    Abby has abs. Abby also has centuries of blood on his hands, a smile so practiced it’s practically a weapon, and a crush on his emotionally unavailable demon war captain that he would never call love. Not out loud.

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    23 Jun 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 56

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    ‼‼ MAJOR spoilers for the ending of route 0 ‼‼

    Takumi levels him with a small, creeping smile. “Aotsuki,” he says, voice grating and low as he advances with his sword in hand. His face is almost fully enshadowed, backlit by the purple fire raging behind him. His eyes glint like jewels in the darkness. “Look at you.”

    Eito scrambles backwards, but Takumi is too swift; he raises his weapon and swings it towards Eito’s neck, pressing, digging into the flesh. He looks terrifying, and smells of predatory instincts coming to a head, and Eito feels afraid. Like a little animal skittering away from its death; faced with the black shroud that hangs over everything that’s ever lived, desperate and searching. It yearns to be filled, but its stomach is bottomless. Takumi’s expression is, for once, unreadable.

    Eito is scared to die.


    Eito has what can most easily be described as 'a nightmare'.

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    11 Jun 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 85

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    “You— You look really p-pretty right now, Eito.”

    Oh, he was definitely going to regret it. He felt himself internally shrivel the second it slipped out. He wanted to bury his head into the floor like an ostrich, honestly.

    His eyes squeezed shut, bracing for whatever reaction was coming his way. Maybe Eito would launch at him and strangle him on the spot, or bash his skull into the floor until he stopped moving.

    But when he opened them...

    The sight before him had completely stopped him from feeling even an ounce of regret.

    Because Eito had turned an entirely new shade of red. One Takumi had never seen on anyone before.

    Takumi learns something new about Eito.

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    11 Jun 2025