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“Yongbokkie told me you’ve been sleeping together?”
Later, Hyunjin will be amazed at how immediately his brain registers the words. There’s no delay, no puzzled look over to Seungmin while his mind is trying to catch up. The understanding waltzes into him, sudden and complete.
“It was just something to take the edge off,” Hyunjin croaks, not even sure where the lie comes from, and his own words make his stomach turn with how wrong they are. He’s like an actor playing a part he was clearly miscast for. He wants to be sick. He wants to run.
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Not being with Felix takes a toll on Hyunjin.
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- Part 7 of Soft Like Sin
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It all falls into place then. He knew, of course, he knew, saw Felix’s face appear in the studio once he realized what was happening to him. It had been faint then, somehow. A truth so barely acknowledged that it lived only in the back of Hyunjin’s mind, a secret, wrapped in layers of paper so no one would ever take a glance at it, not even him, even though he knew it sat there, uncovered but solid. Real.
It’s different now that the secret had been dragged into the light, the paper torn to shreds, and there’s barely any surprise, his mind only catching up to what his body already knew, but his heart squeezes with the realization, surging through the pure, sweet taste of loving someone so deeply, only to sour when the thought hits him, that the flower growing in his chest and the petals making their way up his throat can only mean one thing:
He’s in love with Felix, but Felix doesn’t love him back.
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Hyunjin stays. Eventually, when it’s less than an hour to Seungmin’s arrival, they climb out of bed and shower, and Felix opens all the windows to air the apartment out. They both can’t help blushing as they clean what they can, removing all traces of how they spent their hours, and then the giggles come, and Felix loves every second of it.
Loves the way Hyunjin looks at him now, the intimate gaze of a lover, of someone who knows you inside and out, and where that knowledge is not met with shame.
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Hyunjin and Felix finally give in to what's pulling them together. And they're happy. Until they're not.
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- Part 6 of Soft Like Sin
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Jisung doesn’t fuck up their stage but it’s a close call. The others praise him for being extra energetic but Jisung is just plain panicking.
Because “not here” doesn’t mean “not ever” and Jisung’s not really sure what to do with that information.
By the end of the show he’s determined to bring it up to Minho, to talk about it once they’re alone.
In the van on the way home though he’s already convinced himself that it was just a joke, or that Minho meant something else, and that he’s reading way too much into it.
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Jisung realizes he has feelings for Minho. Minho is already there. And that might not be the only thing Jisung learns about himself.
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“Hyunjinnah,” Felix calls him just before he leaves the room, biting his lip. “My friends want to go out again tonight, they want to try the new club just around the corner from last night’s.”
Silence falls between them again. It’s a weird thing, a curious thing, as if Felix has been speaking in code and waiting for Hyunjin to decipher the meaning.
“Tonight?” Hyunjin asks stupidly to buy time. His heart thumping in his throat.
Felix nods. “Yeah if—, if you and your friends want.”
Still, the question is too big, a second hidden in the first like a Trojan horse. Felix waits for an answer, body tense and eyes big.
Hyunjin nods, heart in his throat. “Yeah, sure. I’ll ask them.”
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After weeks apart, Felix and Hyunjin find themselves alone at the dorms.
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- Part 5 of Soft Like Sin
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Restraint by germanjj, headabovethewater, PeachyPerfect (headabovethewater)
Fandom Call Me By Your Name (2017) RPF, Call Me By Your Name - All Media Types, Larry Stylinson - Fandom, One Direction (Band)
13 Feb 2022
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Buried Under Clear Glass (Finished Series) by germanjj
Fandom Call Me By Your Name (2017), Call Me By Your Name (2017) RPF, Call Me By Your Name - All Media Types
17 May 2020
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When he looks back, it seems pretty obvious. But as it happens, it's kind of sneaking up on them. This whole ... friendship. Or whatever this is.
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“They’re… chaos,” Remus said firmly. “And chaos is—”
“Rock and roll.”
He looked at Sirius sharply, and for once, matched his grin. “Yeah.”
“Maybe that’s my excuse then,” Sirius said. “I cause a bit of chaos now, and maybe one day, it’ll turn into rock and roll.”After losing his mother at age eleven, Remus has spent the better part of the last four years bouncing from school to school or else running around London and pretending as though he wasn't the kind of well-bred boy his father brought him up to be. Now, with his chances all run out, Remus is sent to Hawkings Independent School as a last-ditch effort to clean up his act. There he meets the very people who will set up the rest of his life, and is forced to confront the pieces of himself he'd long thought had been lost.
(genuinely not apologising for the slow-burn in this fic anymore. You've been warned <3)
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- Part 1 of The Cadence Opus
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24 Aug 2025
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Seungmin had always loved. Baseball first, back when he was just strong enough to hold a bat. Then music, at nine, when his mum signed him up for piano lessons he didn’t want but never quite let go of. A boy from primary school —sweaty palms, a laugh too loud, a stolen kiss on the cheek in the gym showers.
Bang Chan, when Seungmin was seventeen, and every day after that.
Or: glimpses of Seungmin’s life and all the times he wasn’t loved back, and maybe—just maybe—the one time he was.
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20 Apr 2025
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Jisung presses closer, slings an arm around Jeongin’s shoulders. He puts on a voice, the one they all do when they talk to him: sweet, and gentle, like he’s still young. “Don’t you love me, maknae-yah –” kissing Jeongin’s cheek, his chin, the corners of his eyes. “Don’t you love me, Ayen-ah?”
Well. That’s kind of the problem. Jisung’s lips land a little too close to his and he pulls back like he’s been burned.
“Changbin-hyung,” he says, “does – does he look good on his knees?”
Jeongin is an adult who is perfectly capable of having sex. His hyungs, much to his chagrin, would beg to differ.
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Bookmarked by germanjj
24 Dec 2024
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“Sucking dick,” Hyunjin says, a flash of his usual brattiness appearing alongside the sensual lilt to his mouth.
Felix isn’t deterred. “Fucking someone.”
“Being fucked,” says Minho lazily.
Or: Stray Kids somehow get onto the topic of what they miss most about being able to go out and hook up. Dirty talk (and feelings) ensue.
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10 Oct 2024
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What could they do about it? They were idols, coworkers, dormmates, friends, and Minho had already accepted that was the best he would get. Closeness from an arms length. Affection, but just a dip of the toe in the shallow end of the absolute pool of love he feels for Jeongin. Jeongin can never know the true depth of it. Minho would drown. He would drown the world and drag Jeongin down with him.
Bookmarked by germanjj
07 Jan 2024