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Post-lawsuit, Buck is tired of the silence and the cold shoulders so he decides to go for a drive after shift one day. An accident fixes everything.
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31 May 2026
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I hate accidents except when we went from friends to—wait, what happened? by browneyedgirl6 for deluweil
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
15 Feb 2022
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The nurse looked to him, then over to the woman with brown hair and worried eyes.
“What’s her name?”
Evan looked over to the woman, noting that she was beautiful, something about his inner child stirring.
“I um—I don’t know.”
Taking notes, the nurse then turned his attention to the fluffy haired man. The guy had deep brown eyes like chocolate, hints of green scattered within them; Evan couldn’t look away from them. Something about the man tugged at his heartstrings, though he couldn’t decipher why.
“I uh—I don’t know who any of you are, to be honest.”
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Buck gets amnesia just before Valentine's day, forgetting who everyone is. It's only temporary, but everyday feels like an eternity to Eddie, who had just gotten Buck for real. Buck doesn't even know who he is now.
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30 May 2026
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After the lawsuit, it takes time, but things are finally returning to normal. Everyone was treating Buck the way they used to, and he was staying out of trouble. He even took up crochet! When he's invited to a night out with his friends, his bad luck streak from the Year of Hell isn't done with him yet. Fight or Flight, it's his choice.
"A part of Buck felt a sting at being the last one asked, but an even bigger, still worried part of him was just glad to be included. He glanced at his best friend who was already looking at him and tried to smile convincingly, but he wasn’t sure it worked."
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24 May 2026
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Buck spirals after his (almost) brother-in-law, his family, punches him.
Eddie deals with the fall-out.
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Missing Scene between Chim punching Buck and the scene on the balcony
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17 May 2026
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Buck gets hit by a car and the 118 responds. Eddie, thinking of what happened to Shannon, has a panic attack when he sees Buck laying on the road.
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13 May 2026
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Buck scoots down and snuggles into the pillows, his lips still stretched in a tiny smile that makes Eddie’s heart flip for a whole different reason. “No, I’m okay. Thank you. But, uhm –”
“What is it?”
“Would you maybe sit with me for a little longer?”
Eddie makes a gentle sound in the back of his throat and immediately lowers his body into the chair he and Chim dragged into the bedroom a few days ago. “You don’t even have to ask, Buck. I’ll be here. You can go to sleep.”
“Thanks, Eds,” Buck says again, his voice breathy as his lashes flutter softly before he promptly falls asleep.
Sleep has been a rare occasion for Buck lately, the withdrawals making him sick and achy and despite the bone-deep exhaustion also restless and oftentimes too anxious to sleep. So, whenever he manages to get a few hours, Eddie and the others watch over him in sheer relief.
Or a 9x15 coda in which Eddie worries, watches over Buck, and stays the night.
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09 May 2026
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The chair scraped against the stone as he stood.
"Everyone hates you! And you know something –"
As he said the words, a bellow that echoed off the walls, Cassian took a step forward, towards her, as if he was unable to resist pulling in her direction, when they fought like this.
But she didn't meet him halfway, as she had in the past.
No, instead, when his body moved, Nesta flinched.
Flinched so violently that she yielded two steps back, her body stumbling over the chair behind her, the silverware rattling with the force of it.
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For Nessian Week 2025: Free Day
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- Part 5 of Nessian Week 2025
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08 May 2026
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Buck pointed at the letter on the bedside table. He explained, "I got evicted. I've got five days to move out. I couldn't keep up with the rent payments with no income."
When Eddie turned up at the loft to find Buck had been evicted, all of his protective instincts kicked in and he did everything he could to shelter the man he secretly loved. They had no idea just how much their lives were about to change.
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06 May 2026
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searching for planes in the sea(and that's irony) by BooyahFordhamYacht
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
12 Jan 2022
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Buck is not okay after the tsunami. Eddie is figuring out just how much everyone already knows about him and Buck. Everyone, it seems, except for him and Buck.
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Eddie gasps out another breath of relief and hugs Christopher tighter, trying to dig himself out of the pit in his stomach, the one he’d been falling deeper and deeper into for the brief moment where he’d thought Christopher was gone.
For a moment, his heart soars, because his son is alive and Buck is alive, and they’re both right here, and they’re both okay, and he can see Chim and Bobby and Hen gathering around Buck. His heart soars.
And then Buck collapses, and Eddie’s heart slams right back into the dirt.
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06 May 2026
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Buck's a liability.
Or: Eddie takes Buck home after the Tsunami.
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06 May 2026
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He was tired. So tired. Tired of the fight...tired of trying. Always trying. Trying to fix things. Always trying and never fixing shit. Never making a difference no matter how hard he tried. His struggles to escape slowed as he gazed up to see the light of the moon drifting further and further away.
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05 May 2026
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Trinity leaves Dennis alone at the bar to go back home with Garcia.
Disaster strikes.
But Dennis isn't alone, not after that, he has his lovers and his friends to keep watch over him.Generalized, internal victim blaming
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30 Apr 2026
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“Yeah, but what is it?” Hen asked, glancing at the tablet.
Bobby is silent and Eddie can take a wild guess that he’s seen the video already. He looks nearly on the verge of tears but he’s clearly trying to hold it together for all of them.
“Cap?” Chimney asked, brows pushed together.
“It’s footage of Buck,” Bobby said slowly. “From the tsunami.”
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It's years later when they all finally find out what Buck went through to keep Christopher safe, and none of them were prepared.
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29 Apr 2026
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Trinity Santos has a completely fucked up day and has a justified breakdown over it. Robby and Abbot take care of her.
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28 Apr 2026
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Not long after Dennis begins a relationship with his attendings, someone finds out and decides to use it to his advantage for some petty revenge and blackmail. As the situation quickly develops, it becomes a race to save Whitaker from himself and from his aggressor. What will Dennis do to protect Jack and Robby? How will they react when they learn the truth? Can their new relationship survive the horrific things Dennis is put through? How do you survive something so awful and move forward?
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28 Apr 2026
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Buck side stepped Eddie and slowly corralled him back to the open door, throwing his frame around a little, “Tell them I’m sorry I missed it. I’m just gonna sleep it off.”
Eddie eyed him curiously, blinking as they ended up at the door, “Alright, I guess. If you’re still feeling sick, me and Chris can come over after, just hang out.”
If Buck could feel any more sick with himself, he would. He felt the bile rise up in his throat before he quickly swallowed it down, letting it sit inside his stomach while it inevitably burned him alive. Buck forced a half smile onto his face and nodded, ushering Eddie out the door.
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- Part 1 of all the love we hold
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28 Apr 2026
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why does good love never hit me quite the same? (the push, the strain, the pull, the pain?) by autisticmf
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04 Apr 2026
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When Bobby gets the call, he's expecting Buck to have nicked his hand on something, being forced to go to the ER because he's on blood thinners. But when he sees what really happened?
He's starting to regret not being there sooner.
aka, post lawsuit fic where Buck reverts to his old self destructive ways to cope
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28 Apr 2026
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If there is one thing Buck will always do, it is help people. Doesn't matter what sort of danger it puts him in, or who the person is, he will jump in feet first and get the job done. When he's alone in a parking lot late one evening, of course he's going to run towards the woman yelling that her father is having a heart attack. Why wouldn't he?
When he doesn't show up for his shift the next morning, Eddie and the rest of the 118 immediately know something is very, very wrong. But this time, there's not much they can do about it. There's no ladders to climb, no debris to move. Buck just isn't where he's supposed to be.
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19 Apr 2026
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Buck left a voicemail before everything went wrong.
Eddie listened to it hundreds of times—until it wasn’t a message anymore, but a lifeline.
The fire should’ve taken him. It didn’t.
What did was worse: the silence afterward, the not-knowing, the almosts, the “I love you” that came too late.
Weeks pass. Buck is gone. Presumed dead.
But Eddie can still hear his voice.
And Eddie’s always been good at following voices through the dark.Bookmarked by illyria13
19 Apr 2026
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He was going to watch her find the two seconds of nothingness.
And he was going to want it. He was going to need it.
He was tired of fighting. He was so unbelievably tired of being strong, of being good, of taking the punishment and hoping that someone, someday, would decide he was worthy of forgiveness, of love.
Bobby didn't want him back at the 118. Eddie wouldn't look at him. His parents had never loved him.
I wish I could say I feel nothing, Buck thought, a tear finally slipping through his fingers and dropping onto his jeans. But I feel everything.
He sat in the darkness of the loft, listening to the shower run, waiting for the ticking clock to strike zero.
He was going to relapse tonight. He had already made the choice. Now, it was just a matter of waiting for the moment to arrive.
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Buck has been sober for six years, during the lawsuit, Buck relapses.
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[You don't need to watch Euphoria to read this, based in the 911 universe, will have enough context about Rue to understand.]
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- Part 6 of Lawsuit Fics
- Part 4 of Crossover Fics
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16 Apr 2026