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Not Everything Is Gonna Be The Way You Think It Ought To Be by imherecauseimnotallthere98
Fandoms: Supernatural
22 Oct 2021
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“It was actually what happened last week that made me wonder about this,” Castiel started. “You responded to me so much, I’ve never seen you let go like that, it was beautiful and- anyway, I was worried about asking for more because I didn’t want to make you feel dysphoric, but I was wondering... if... you might... want to try...”
“Having sex that way?” Dean finished.
After their recent success with trying oral sex, Castiel and Dean decide to explore the possibility of Dean bottoming. Things don't quite go the way they want.
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- Part 2 of And I Shall Believe
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“Actually, I have some ideas about tonight. There’s... something I want. Something we haven’t done.”
“Alright,” Dean said, grinning. “What is it?”
“I want to take care of you.”
In which trans!Dean is worried that Castiel doesn't really want him the way he is, and learns just how wrong he is.
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- Part 1 of And I Shall Believe
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Years ago, Dean Winchester found an engagement ring hidden in his boyfriend's pocket and panicked. The dumbest decision he ever made was walking away from Cas because he was afraid. For the last five years now, he has been a regular in Benny's bar, entertaining the drunk patrons with his own original songs to distract himself from his pain and regret. But there is one song that he won't perform, one that he wrote especially for Castiel and cannot bring himself to share with anyone else. That is, until Cas shows up at the bar one night while Dean is playing, and Dean seizes his one opportunity to show Cas how he really feels
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Dean opened the door, barreling inside only two feet before the sight in front of him stopped him like he’d hit a wall.
Cas laid out in the middle of their bed, sweaty and flush. There was absolutely no smell of sex in the room, and no sign of anyone else in there. But the smell was coming from this room, so that must mean-
“Dean?” Castiel asked, sounding so small and so tired. “Alpha, I think I’m in heat.”
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“Look, um,” Dean starts. “I’m the one who caused this, uh...” He gestures between them. What exactly had he caused? An argument? A problem? “... this tension between us. I’m the one who made you feel like you had to leave. So, if I spent a few nights alone, that’s my fault, okay? If you need to blame someone, blame me.”
Castiel sighs, finally meeting Dean’s eyes. But he doesn’t look reassured, he looks annoyed.
“You always do this.”
Dean frowns. That is not where he was expecting this to go. “Do what?”
“Hold yourself more accountable than others. Something happens, and you decide you have to deal with it and the consequences alone.”
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- Part 4 of Sex-Repulsed Dean
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An exploration into how Dean deals with (or doesn't deal with) his repulsion to sex. This series goes into his relationship with Castiel, and what happens when Castiel finds out Dean has been lying to him about his sexual desire.
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An exploration into how Castiel and trans man Dean Winchester navigate their relatively new sexual relationship
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Bio-warfare has rendered the world’s population infertile and struggling against the onslaught of walking dead. Those that survived are split into two separate factions - the Elite scientists at Sanctuary, and the untamed “Mongrels” squatting in the Slums.
In the midst of the chaos, a new breed of superhumans were cloned and bred. Their purpose - to protect Sanctuary against the zombie apocalypse and wipe out the unruly rebels in the Slums. They called the movement Project Angel, and it was led by the enigmatic soldier Castiel - “father” of all Angels.
The Slum launched their efforts to push the Angels away from their borders. They were led by a certain Dean Winchester - rogue enforcer who once served Sanctuary. With Castiel finally captured and imprisoned in the Slums, Dean struggles to rebuild his city and rally his people for the fight against Sanctuary - as well as his growing attraction to the Angel with blue eyes.
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04 Oct 2025
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I'll Carve My Love Into Your Bones by Featherpie (Izupie)
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
11 Jun 2025
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It's late at night, but Dean can't sleep thinking about the sigils that Cas carved into his freaking rib bones not even a few hours ago. He doesn't expect to bump into the angel himself when he goes out for some air, but now he's here they should probably talk about it. Cas doesn't seem happy.
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- Part 1 of Tumblr ficlets collection
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11 Jun 2025
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Dean can’t help it. Castiel’s laugh is infectious, washing over him and sweeping him up in its tide. His throat and stomach ache with the feel of it, unfamiliar muscles worked past their endurance. He hasn’t laughed like this in weeks, maybe years.
Cas doesn’t stop laughing, and Dean relishes it. It’s such a good sound, deep and throaty. It rumbles over him the same way that Baby’s engine purrs, to where he can almost feel it in his gut. Dean’s giddy, the kind of happy that hunters don’t get to feel, and if it weren’t for the ceiling, he thinks he might float away. Cas’ eyes crinkle when he laughs, and his smile goes wide and gummy. He’s so brilliant, so alive—
But you’re dead, Dean thinks helplessly. But you’re dead.
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Castiel Novak is one of the best hunters Dean Winchester has ever worked with. He's witty, whip-smart, and has enough knowledge about the supernatural to rival an encyclopedia. He's got humor dry enough to put the Sahara to shame and he's pretty easy on the eyes as well. All in all, he's the best partner Dean could have hoped for.
Too bad he's dead.
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15 Apr 2025
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Sam does not understand, fundamentally, why he is always the one getting shafted, cosmically speaking.
He’s considered it pretty carefully. He’s not exactly sure if you can get reincarnated, but every day he gets a little more certain, because clearly he did something terrible in a past life to deserve this. I mean, sure, there’s all the murdering he’s done in this life, and the lying, and he’s done more than his fair share of coveting, he guesses. But even with all the killing, he can’t have done anything bad enough to warrant this. It’s gotta have been the guy before him, fucking up his life from beyond the grave.
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- Part 2 of tumblr supernatural fics
Bookmarked by imherecauseimnotallthere98
13 Apr 2025
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The tumblr rediscovery of John Winchester's journal and Dean's homophobic 17th birthday digging up lesbian nuns is making me eat glass so here is a fic about the Nun's pov of things
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12 Apr 2025