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    His head ricochets off the plexiglass so hard, his helmet visor cracks and he crumples to the ice, unmoving…

    The crowd gasps as Shane heaves and the medic that was directly in front of him quickly moves aside as he vomits onto the rink. Ilya’s blood runs cold as he watches.

    It turns to ice when Shane starts convulsing.

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    The hit from Marlow was more than a concussion and a collarbone fracture. Ilya now has to learn how he can best support Shane, right under David and Yuna’s noses.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    He knew what that meant. Knew the tip of the scales past their delicate balance, from 'passive' to 'active'. He had never in his life felt this before, not this clearly, not so defined in his very being. Ilya had thought he had understood, before, what his mother had done and what had led her to it. He knew now, staring out through the glow of the house to the dark garden, that he had not.
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    Ilya begins to experience active suicidal ideation for the first time. When he crashes Shane helps, he always does, but Ilya is hiding behind lies, and Shane cannot save him from what he cannot see. And Ilya won't ever let him see this, not as long as he can help it.

    !This fic contains description of suicidal thoughts/ideation including suicidal planning and graphic descriptions of the aftermath of suicide!

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    25 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is in a horrible accident right before the playoffs start and Shane Hollander reacts in a normal and rational fashion.

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    25 Mar 2026

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    Something was wrong. A wave of protectiveness swept up within him before he stamped on it hard, unleashing a powerful strike at the goal on the assist automatically. He didn’t even bother to look to see if it went in, his eyes reorienting themself to where Hollander was shrugging off a medic. 

    It was his Dom side, he knew. Latching onto someone it thought was his and wanting to save them from the world. But Hollander wasn’t his. He was a fun hook up, and interesting company once you got to know him a bit, but not his

    Ilya hasn't seen Hollander since Vegas, and the first time they meet on the ice, months later, Hollander's playing is awful. Ilya's a Dom, a high level one, but as far as he knows Hollander's a Null, no designation. Doesn't need headspace. Doesn't Scene. Doesn't Drop.

    But Hollander is Dropping. Has Dropped. And no one else seems to notice. So Ilya steps in without really thinking things through.

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    I know no hockey. I have seen the TV series, read The Long Game, and this is something that came out.

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    18 Mar 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 46

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    It’s Shane and Ilya’s first game.

    Everyone thought they knew what to expect.

    They were wrong!

    This continues Shane and Ilya's story as they recover from their experience in Regina. Always growing stronger together.

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    17 Mar 2026