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  1. Public Bookmark 51

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    Ilya's supposed to tell Shane when he's getting bad again. He's promised, over and over, to ask for help. To reach out. To let Shane take care of him for once.

    Ilya genuinely means it when he makes this promise. He has no intention of breaking it.

    The issue is this: Ilya doesn't always realize things are getting bad. Actually, he almost never notices until someone else does.

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    In the midst of a depressive episode, Ilya wonders if Shane truly understands what he's signing up for.

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    06 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 66

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    Ilya knew sadness could kill, and it could do it quietly like it took his mother.

    So he stayed charming, desirable, and useful. He never asked for reassurance, didn’t get needy.
    He would never admit he needed Shane. Right?

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    05 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 20

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    “I think a big reason they don’t like me… is because I look like her,” Ilya said, struggling to get the words out.

    “Who?”

    “My father. And brother.”

    Shane got closer and gently put an arm around him while listening, waiting for him to continue.

    “I look– too much like a ghost.” Ilya murmured. “They resent me. I know my father did. I know my brother hates me.”

    He wore her face. She had left, and he wondered if his father had wished he had left too.

    Ilya felt a knot on his throat. “They didn’t like looking at me.”

     

    Or, Before his mother died, Ilya loved looking exactly like her. Afterward, it got a lot more complicated.

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    05 Feb 2026

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    - Marlow Has Added Jane to the Conversation -

    Marlow: Please don't tell Roz

    Jane: O.O

     

    - Hayden Has Added Lily to the Conversation -

    Lily: What the fuck is this?

    Hayden: Oh-

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    05 Feb 2026

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    Maybe together they could figure out a way to make sure Ilya was never afraid of David again. He really didn’t want to be afraid of David.

    “Is… silly.” Ilya said. “Maybe not silly, but now that we are here and not there, I see it was silly. I broke the wine, and I thought - maybe everyone will be angry. And…” Clearing his throat, Ilya pushed past his discomfort to spit out the next part. “Well, angry back in Russia is not the same as angry here, I think.”

    “What was angry like back in Russia?”

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    Ilya drops a bottle of wine, and it's fine. Really, it's fine. If only someone could tell Ilya's brain that.

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    04 Feb 2026