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    So far he’s known Ellie at fourteen and Ellie at fifteen, and the gaps in his knowledge of her are so vast they seem to fill every spare inch of conscience he has. There’s so much unaccounted for time, times where people did things to her he couldn’t protect her from, times where people hurt her or bullied her or made her feel small, undeserving, useless, unloved.

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    Ellie grows up, a little. It sort of breaks Joel’s heart, a lot.

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    29 May 2025

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    He thinks about those kids, but mostly he thinks about Ellie: what kind of kid was she? What did she look like at two or five or seven? What was her first word? When did she lose her first tooth? Did anyone ever hug her, or rub her back when she was sleepy, or feed her little pieces of ice when she was sick?

    this made me cry

    How, he thinks, did he ever live without this? Without her?

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    Riley gets bit in the mall, but Ellie doesn't.

    Joel takes her anyway.

    There’s no grand purpose for her existence, nothing to make her worth saving.

    Joel loves her anyway.

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    08 May 2025

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    insanely perfect. Poetry. the best tlou fic i’ve ever read, i think.

    🧦 🎃 ⚾️ 🍁 🌅 🌾 🌻

    “Is that—what being socks means to you?”

    yeah. YEAH. i cried real tears.

    “The part of Nebraska I loved best isn’t even there anymore.”

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    They’ve got a sliver of light left this evening, long enough that Ellie can make some progress on whatever she chooses to read first. Though he’d never admit it to her and is barely able to admit it to himself, Joel’s hoping that after the sky’s too dark to read any further, she’ll recount the story out loud.

    Joel catches an eye of the book cover when she slides it out of her backpack. It’s not the red hardback novel, it’s not the blue one, and he doesn’t see mountains, so it must be the fourth book: the one she’s keeping secret from him.

    Ellie gets a new book, then loses it, and finds it again. Meanwhile, Joel grows closer to Ellie, then loses her, and then finds her again.

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    12 May 2025

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    beautiful and devastating and i appreciated the hopeful ending uhhhhh i’m still in tears tho

    “At least she’s alive to ignore him.”

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    “I thought it would be nice if you came over for dinner at ours sometime. It’s me, and my husband, and our two boys. I’m sure you’ve seen them around school?”

    Now that she mentions it, she does recognize the name. The Erikson boys are nice enough, one older than her, one younger. Both humongous. Just like their mother, who is towering over Ellie as they speak.

    “That’s…nice,” Ellie says, uncomfortable. “But, um. Why?”

    Mrs. Erikson smiles. “Because, dear. I thought it would be good for us all to get to know each other. Seeing as Tommy Miller came and talked to us about the possibility of you coming to live with us.”

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    A series of misunderstandings has Ellie doubting her place in the Miller family. The remaining Millers do their best to show her where she belongs.

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    07 May 2025

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    beautiful and perfect. i could see everything so clearly. and tommy’s lovely in this 😭

    He wishes he had the words to convince her that he regrets the years not spent with her and not the other way around. Spends too much time thinking about what he would do if he woke up ten or twelve years in the past - how he’d find her.

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    When Joel is out on patrol with Jesse again, he finds that he’s starting to enjoy the boy’s company, because at least he isn’t scared of Joel looking at him.

    “Jesse,” he grunts one morning, swatting a tree branch in the warm air.

    The boy stops in the middle of his useless anecdote about something or other. “Yeah?”

    “Are people scared of me?”

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    The fic where Joel is the Jackson equivalent of an urban legend, and he's not quite sure how to feel about it.

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    29 Apr 2025

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    “Need somethin’?”

    PLEASEEEE E😭🥺🫶🏻🥺🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻