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wanna see how deep the bullet lies? by killuafreecss (ssweetestcon)
Fandoms: Hunter X Hunter
23 Jun 2025
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And agony — it became your normal but there were times it became too impossible to numb yourself to. You swallow down the curse, hex, violence and hunger for destruction (watching the world burn is what will solve this, surely) as you recall.
It's been years and years and years, after almost losing Gon due to the Chimera Ant Arc... So why can't he bring himself to fully fly from the ashes like a phoenix?
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Killua’s voice was a whisper. “I’m not like other people, Gon. I try so hard to be. But I miss things. I don’t understand faces. I say the wrong things. I freeze. I overreact. I don’t know how to be around people unless I study them. And even then…”
He buried his head in his arms.
“Even then I get it wrong.”
Gon looked at him for a long time.
Then, softly:
“Killua, I don’t want you to be like other people.”
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Killua has always struggled with understanding social cues and fitting into his family's rigid expectations. Growing up under the oppressive weight of his family's rejection, he never learned to be the person they wanted him to be. But when he meets Gon, something changes.
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i did it all cause it feel good (i wouldn't do it all if it feel bad) by killuafreecss (ssweetestcon)
Fandoms: Hunter X Hunter
01 Mar 2025
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He could dig into your flesh, pierce the barrier and you know it because he’s gotten stronger and more capable — but he doesn’t. He doesn’t hurt you when he could, and you wouldn’t even spare the pain a second glance.
What's better than kissing your best friend in the kitchen of his mother figure's cottage after training?
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- Part 4 of fluffbruary 2025 :3
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It had become an implicit agreement between the three of them, somehow, that things were business as usual. Aomine doubted Kuroko even remembered kissing them, but he and Kagami did, and there was an underlying, mutual promise to just—not make it weird. Aomine thought about it when he jerked off sometimes, the feel and shape of Kuroko’s mouth against his, the way his entire body had been overaware that Kagami was watching them—was seeing, with his own two eyes, how relevant he still was to them. How essential. How essential they were to each other.
Kuroko celebrates his birthday in LA with Kagami and Aomine. But when a kiss at midnight blurs the line between rivals and teammates, Kagami and Aomine struggle to reconcile with their growing feelings for each other—and what that means for their feelings for Kuroko.
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A Murphy's Mercy by Glasssneaker for sidvishess
Fandoms: Kuroko no Basuke | Kuroko's Basketball
12 Mar 2024
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Life is stressful, so Kagami surprises Kuroko with an adventure.
They fell back into silence and embrace where Kagami started to feel the sweetness of being somewhat lifted from reality, a place where you couldn’t tell exactly what was physical, what was emotional, what was thought and what was said, because it all blended together in bliss.
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what lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why by anagramforbaby
Fandoms: Gachiakuta (Manga), Gachiakuta (Anime)
20 Apr 2026
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Years? No wonder Zan-Zan’s buff as hell now! Jabber’s mind reels from the implications… Zanka must be lying. What in the Abyss would compel him to join this raggedy-ass band of losers? How could he ever replace the thrill of fighting strong enemies with mindless trash beasts? Something's not adding up.
And another thing: it’s allegedly been years, and Zanka still has that fuck-ass mullet? Jabber’s eyes crinkle, and Zanka bristles. “What?”
“On God we gon’ get you a better barber, man,” Jabber wheezes with a laugh.Or: Jabber wakes up in Cleaner HQ missing 3 years of memory. Zanka refuses to fill him in on it.
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- Part 1 of janka amnesia au
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breaking denials, taking steps by summercreole1021
Fandoms: 地獄楽 | Hell's Paradise: Jigokuraku (Manga), 地獄楽 | Hell's Paradise: Jigokuraku (Anime)
22 May 2023
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this taste was desire and they will slowly eat it
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He'd been expecting opposition from Suna's council when he finally asked for Temari's hand in marriage.
He hadn't been expecting his own elders to try and stop him.
They are old, stubborn and very much stuck in their ways, but if they have one disadvantage, it is precisely that Shikamaru is young. Intelligent and level-headed as he might be, he is still so very young - and as every young man before him in the history of the universe, the one thing capable of making him lose his goddam mind is love.
Unstoppable force, you've just met inmovable object.
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- Part 1 of The yearning timeline
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“Believe what you want, idiot. But let me ask you this: who would you truly want to spend your last day on Earth with? When the sky is turning black and there are columns of fire approaching from every corner, whose hand do you see yourself reaching for?”
It's been months since Naruto and the others ventured out to the moon, and thus it's been months since Naruto and Hinata started dating. Everything is smooth-sailing, until he's assigned to a mission with Sasuke after two years of not seeing him. Sasuke has always been number one in his life, and it is only now that Naruto is forced to reflect on that.
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With three years of distance between them can Gon and Killua finally come together without tearing themselves apart?
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- Part 1 of Killugon Post-Canon