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Buck realised his feelings ran much deeper than friendship a long time ago. He just always had poor timing when it came to working up the courage to tell him. Five times he’s tried to tell Eddie - in the past couple of months. It just never really works out. But these emotions need out. So when Maddie suggests he dig out his dusty guitar from their parent’s attic, he doesn’t think that’s such a bad idea. Until the 118 end up in the same bar he’s performing.
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Living in a foster home with an abusive man, not great. Living in a foster home with an abusive man and having to hide superpowers, also not great. Peter Parker has never had an easy life, and it only gets worse. Yay! But an opportunity arises that may change his life, maybe it’ll get harder, or maybe it’ll get easier.
Classic Stark Industries intern trope, with a field trip, and the avengers family.
Bookmarked by Melschee8056
18 Mar 2026
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Last read: chapter 5
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Tony sat with the team and started yapping about what he knew about Peter Parker. He knew Natasha would probably find out his social security number by the end of the day but he didn’t care. For the first time in a while, he was genuinely excited.‘When is he going to be here?’ Pietro asked.
’Monday, hopefully.’
‘Will we get to meet him?’
‘I don't want to scare him off or overwhelm him.’
They moved on and started talking about how Pietro and Wanda beat Clint in Mario Kart.
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peter and the no-good, absolutely horrible, terrible week (it was really only one day) by kai1009
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Spider-Man - All Media Types, Iron Man (Movies)
25 Feb 2026
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classic field trip to si lmao
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The next words he caught were, “Exclusive field trip to Stark Industries.”
Shit.
Peter stared in disbelief at the slip of paper in front of him. And it was at that moment he knew that he was fucked.
In bold writing at the top of the slip was:
ACADEMIC DECATHLON TRIP TO STARK INDUSTRIES
He was going on a field trip to his own goddamn house.
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13 Mar 2026
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Make Them See by BookDrag0n
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV), NCIS: Los Angeles, Hawaii Five-0 (2010)
06 Mar 2026
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Post-Lawsuit, Buck is back at the station and handling the frosty environment as well as he can. When he chooses to not save himself during a building collapse, the team is faced with everything they didn't want to confront.
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The universe is tired of screaming for Buck, so she takes drastic measures and makes everyone work for it.
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After a lifetime of psychological manipulation at the hands of her therapist parents, Lucy Chen seeks solace and purpose in the police academy. Finally free, she falls for Dean, unaware he's about to become her worst nightmare. Trapped in an abusive relationship, with her own parents complicit in her torment, Lucy arrives on the force as a rookie, broken and obedient. Her only goal is to survive. But when she's partnered with the perceptive Tim, her carefully constructed walls begin to crumble. Will Tim be the lifeline Lucy desperately needs, or will the darkness of her past consume her completely?
I do not own any of these characters except for dean and any other ocs I add in, Lucy's backstory is also very different in this.
Warnings: abuse, sexual assault, manipulation, scars, suicidal thoughts, eating disorders, possessiveness, depression, anxiety. Warnings will be displayed on each chapter.
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- Part 1 of Lucy + Tim <3
Bookmarked by Melschee8056
27 Dec 2025
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Last read: chapter 12
Summary: lucy was emotionally, psychologically and sexualy (her step father) abused but bother parents as a child and enters a relationship thats abusive on all four fronts, she has a severe eating disorder and has come into work multiple times with bruises and such but only tim noticed. Dean(the now abusive ex) has almost killed her multiple times including having waterboarded her which led her to have secondary drowning. She's a few weeks into her rookie year and has been stabbed by her step dad for leaving Dean (her abusive ex). The entire mid-wilshire police department has been trying to figure out what happened whilst lucy was under deep sedation and have questioned Dean but now that shes awake tim and grey are on there way to get a statement from her. Also tim and Jackson are her emergency contact numbersLast few paragraphs:
Tim nodded, already heading toward the door, feeling the urgent need to move, to see her, to confirm the truth of the nurse’s words.
Angela stepped forward, grabbing his shoulder once more, this time in shared excitement. “Go. Get the truth. I’ll keep Dean warm. He’s enjoying being smug right now—let’s see how he likes it when we walk back in here with a name and a warrant signed based on Lucy’s testimony.”
“We’ll be fast,” Tim promised.
He didn't wait for Grey to join him; he was already out the door and running toward the shop, the hopeful realization settling over him: Lucy was alive. She was awake. He was going to hear her voice again, and this time, he wouldn't tell her to stop rambling. He'd just listen. -
The Foster kid (You can count on me like one, two, three) by Whumpismymiddlename
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
09 Feb 2026
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What if?
The one where Aaron Hotchner fosters a child from the government’s education grant program named Spencer Reid.
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- Part 6 of The Multiverse Of Spencer Reid
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25 Nov 2025
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Last read: chapter 10
Summary: spencer gets put into hotches custody as hes going through a gifted kids program. The government told hotch spencer was 12, hes not he 9. He very rarely speaks sleeps and eats. Spencers education is threatened (if he didnt pass his exams to get a doctorate with flying colours he'd be kicked out of the programme) and is now in hospital due to sever burn out.Last few paragraphs:
Rossi put a steady hand on his shoulder. “You didn’t know. You thought he was older. If anyone is at gault here its the damn program for lying about his age. For making him do so much work so quickly just so can continue to go to school. You're doing your best Aaron and that's all that kid could ask for.”Hotch shook his head. “My best wasn’t enough.”
They stood in silence, watching the boy behind the glass.
Small. Still. And so heartbreakingly tired.
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Being six is a pain. Spencer is well aware of that fact. He is too young to be taken seriously, but is old enough to know when things aren't quite right.
At least Spencer has one place of solace, a crawl space under the house where he can hide whenever everything else feels too much for him.
When the BAU are in town, can they help him? And is Spencer ever going to know true safety?Bookmarked by Melschee8056
20 Nov 2025
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Last read: chaper 41
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She still felt guilty when she saw the scars across his face and the way he still struggled walking for any length of time, but she was proud of the boy he had become. Spencer was kind, intelligent, funny and caring. He worked hard at everything and valued other people as much as he valued himself, if not more. He was the exact opposite of his father, and she couldn’t be happier about that.That evening, the pair of them laid in her bed cuddled in a pile of blankets, books piled around them. Diana’s voice drifted through the room making Sandy smile as she crocheted in the corner. Eventually, after an hour of reading, mother and son fell asleep. Sandy pulled out her phone and sent a photo to Alex.
‘All is good here, your baby is happy.’
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When Aaron Hotchner receives a phone call at midnight from a lawyer he crossed paths with in the past, he wasn't expecting to end up temporary guardian of a seven year old, especially not a seven year old with reported behavioural issues. But the more time he spends with Spencer, the more he wonders if what Spencer's father said about him was wrong.
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19 Nov 2025
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Last read: chapter 13
Summary: Spencer gets sent to stay with hotch while his dad is on a work trip, Spencer is trying follow rules, but Hotch doesn't know what rules Spencer is playing by. Derek and Penelope babysit Spencer and have some concerns. Penelope is determined to get to the truth. Garcia and Hotch chat about Spencer's past, Spencer visits the BAU and is recognised... Katie explains her reaction to seeing Spencer, then talks with Spencer. JJ comes round with some space books for Spencer to look at and Hotch finds some things in the attic that he thinks Spencer will enjoy looking at. Spencer meets with Katie again, this time with a therapist listening in. Hotch tells Spencer that he can get medical help, see the dentist and the optician. He doesn't expect to end up in the hospital that afternoon! Hotch is waiting for Spencer to return from surgery. Spencer wakes up and is more coherent. Disturbing revelations are made about his past. Spencer starts calling hotch dad. Spencer is disharged from the hospital and is given a new toy to play with while he's recovering.Last paragraphs:
“No. One of the books JJ got was about a boy called Ben having a birthday party. He was given presents and after the party he wrote thank you cards to everyone. So I thought that was the right thing to do.”
Penelope gave him a hug, “It’s definitely a nice thing to do. And I’m sure everyone else will be delighted with their cards. And if not I’ll switch their coffee to decaf!”
Spencer laughed, having spent time with Rossi, he was now nothing short of a coffee connoisseur and knew what a crime that would be. -
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"Eddie takes a step backwards taking one hand off of the doorframe, Buck goes to step through, trying to get away as soon as possible. Until Eddie steps in front of him, blocking the path with his body.
“This isn’t over” Eddies voice is sharp. He doesn’t ask, he tells Buck this is not over. He nods and walk away. Coward, he tell himself."
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Evan Buckley spent his childhood injuring himself in hopes to capture his mothers attention. When even those efforts stop working, Buck finds a new way to gain his mothers sympathy. Buck falls down a dark path battling Bulimia/Anorexia, years of his life given to the sickness.He leaves home after high school, travels the country + Peru and lands in Los Angeles. Buck steps foot in station 118, in search of a job; he finds so much more
Or - Buck is suffering, and Eddies the only person who notices.
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- Part 2 of Eating disorder Buck
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18 Nov 2025
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Last read:chapter 23
Summary: buck has been suffering with severe bulimia for 10 years, he enters the 118 after traveling and falls in love with Eddie straight away. After eating with the team Eddie catches him purging, finds out hes living in his car and basically makes buck move in. They kiss, Eddie spirals with internal homophia. Buck shows him its okay, later eddie makes buck pancakes, buck freaks out as its one of his fear foods and tells Eddie about it and says a safe food of his. Promises to helps then picks up chris from school. Chris and buck meet and hit it off, they all make pizza buck manages 2 slices. Later that night buck throws up and chris hears him, tells Eddie and Eddie gets the truth, they say i love you for the first time after all of 3 days. Buck eats pancakes is left alone for 3 hours, almost spirals then Eddie asks if he wants to come to the station and eat with them all. He agrees.Last paragraph read:
Buck ends the call after Eddie says goodbye back to him, the reality of what he just agreed to soaking in.
The last time he had dinner at the station, it ended with him face first in the toilet and Eddie caging him in the bathroom looking to interrogate him.
But so much has changed since then, Buck has someone now – he has Eddie.
What could go wrong? -
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Ravi: i take back everything, i’m no longer glad to be here
Ravi: buck’s sighs have been taken out of the chat
Chim: If you sigh one more time I’m going to smack you
Buck: can't a man be dramatic in peace
Bobby: Please no threats of physical violence in the work group chat. Gather for roll call. Thank you. – Bobby Nash
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01 Oct 2025
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Last read: chapter 10
Summary: everyone's meddling with buck and eddies love life, including the kids.Last paragraph:
Buck: gasp
Buck: MADDIE NO
Ravi: how did i know your blood was somehow the cause of this
Buck: i do NOT claim her rn 😒
Buck: she's not even a buckley anymore so there's THAT
Hen: I know what I must doChat: The Shunned
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Chim: Hello dear 😒
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“Eddie… I have a question.”
Eddie’s brows knit together, his voice soft with concern. “What is it, Buck?”
Buck finally looked up, eyes glassy, lips trembling. “Do you think I should… cover up my birthmark? Maybe just… buy some concealer. Hide it.”
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25 Sep 2025
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BREAKING NEWS: Is Los Angeles Rams’ wide receiver Evan “Buck” Buckley shooting his shot with superstar singer Eddie Diaz?
During his latest podcast appearance on The Line of Scrimmage, Buckley revealed that he attended Eddie’s sold-out concert at SoFi Stadium earlier this month. When asked if he got a chance to meet the singer, Buck confessed with a grin:
“I tried to, but I didn’t get the chance. I actually made him a friendship bracelet—yeah, like the fans do—but I guess it didn’t make it to him. So, Eddie, if you’re listening, bracelet’s still here.”
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Bookmarked by Melschee8056
18 Sep 2025
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Last read: chapter 7
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Sources close to Buck’s team say the athlete is “focused on the season,” but declined to comment on his personal life. Meanwhile, Eddie’s label has remained silent—though insiders say a new track titled “Golden” may be dropping soon, and yes, it’s rumored to be about Buck.
Fan reactions range from “I KNEW IT” to “This is the crossover event of the year”, and others “This is clearly PR”. One tweet simply read: “Football + Firefly guitars = my heart can’t take this.”
Whether this is a slow-burn romance or just two icons sharing a moment, one thing’s for sure: the city’s never looked brighter.
Stay tuned, because if this is just the first verse, we can’t wait for the chorus. -
tired even for a phoenix by blue_llama (kensington_and_cleo)
Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
03 Oct 2025
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Abandoned in Privet Drive the summer after fourth year, Harry discovers a new ability. This, plus his accidental expulsion from Hogwarts, will lead to changes once he returns to school.
A resorting fic.
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28 Aug 2025
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Last read:chapter 11
Summary: harry had been left at the dursleys all summer with no contact and luckily had a bloody good lawyer to represent him in the trial after the dementors. He learned he could control lightning coming from his hands, and had a random burst of unknown magic that no longer wanted to be dormant after mulciber attacked him. The unknown magic blew up mulcibers wand in his hand making him almost lose it. He's sorted into slytherin and is slowly becoming friends with Theodore, blaise, and daphne. He's real smart and is trying to figure out what's going on with the lightning and supposed dormant magic. He also hasn't started DA.Last paragraph:
Harry grabbed his bag and hurried to the Great Hall, hoping to snag a quick lunch. He still had History of Magic as his last class that day, but judging by the double period he’d already endured earlier in the week, Binns wasn’t about to become any more riveting - even in their O.W.L. year.
And since the ghost had stopped taking attendance sometime around their first year, Harry didn’t feel particularly guilty about skipping. He’d rather spend the afternoon back in the quiet sanctuary of the Room of Requirement.
He didn’t need History of Magic. He needed answers. And thankfully, the Room was still waiting. -
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While Buck isn't allowed to speak to anyone because of the lawsuit, he suffers a personal tragedy that leaves him with children to care for. He doesn't tell anyone since they are not supposed to be talking.
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Bookmarked by Melschee8056
17 Aug 2025
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Last read:chapter 11
Summary: but was adopted into the Gallagher family at age 11 and his adoptive brother and sister in law passed away now their newborn twin girls and a 1 year old liam have been left in his custody. He's hoping to get the rest of liams siblings in his custody to as to not separate them. Buck meets lip and ian and promises to try his hardest to get all siblings back under the same roof. He also meets the twin girls and finds that their mum never got the chance to hold them or name them. Buck found the names chosen for the girls -sorcha and maeve- aswell as got custody of all kids. He bought a 5 bedroom 5 bathroom house and added two more of each for lip and ian. Everyone from the 118 have been suspended for therapy, educative classes, and classes on exceptable behaviour in the workplace. No one is being considered bucks friends until they apologise and he had written maddie off. Buck got the experience of shopping with kids and had instant regret. Liam keeps coming into his room and calling buck dad which is adorable. They went to disneyland and the kids actually acted their age rather than mini adults. They started school and went back to work but buck has been on b shift and training ravi. He should start back on a shift in the next chapter and he's nervous.
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“No, I just wanted to check on you. You got really quiet after dinner.” Lip explained.
“Alright, well you should get some sleep since you have school tomorrow. Goodnight. I love you.” Buck said.
“I love you too.” Lip responded, shocking Buck since that was the first time Lip had said it back to him. He watched as Lip slipped out of the room then decided he should try to get some sleep even though he was now feeling wide awake. -
buck's reddit addiction (its not a problem, he promises) by EmoLionsRawr
Fandom 9-1-1 (TV)
01 Aug 2025
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Exactly what it says on the tin, buck has an unhealthy obsession with reddit and we're just here for the ride
REDDIT ACCOUNTS(will update as added):
buck- creamcheesebagal
grace ryder- amazingspace
maddie- mb1984, burnburn1984
karen- rocketsciencenerd
josh- redridinggay
TK- TeekKeek91
carlos- pewpewcar
Chimney- Stuckupa
Sophia- Howdiaz
Eddie-Eedybeeby
may- Maydayparade
bobby- Ohcaptainmycaptain
athena- Sargeantweewoo
judd- juddlinglife
hen- workmom79
steve mcgarrett- Motionintheoceansealstyle
danny williams - Hononono
Linda bates- Notthebees
adrianna diaz- Dramallama
albert han - Hansolololoall other accounts are random
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Bookmarked by Melschee8056
25 Jul 2025
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Last read the 12th one (buck and eddie have known eachother for 2 years but been together for a year and a half. Maddies a biphobic bitch) bucks planning to cut off his bio family after finding out about Daniel through a reddit post on maddies burner account. Maddies a full on psycho stalker.
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Spencer allowed himself two slow inhales and two slower exhales before he focused his mind again. He turned to the team, and what he saw on their faces made his stomach twist.
They knew.
They didn’t know everything, but they knew enough. Enough to rearrange how they saw him, how they understood the puzzle of Spencer Reid.
OR- After wrapping a case in Vegas, the BAU team go with Spencer to visit his mom. Through the visit, they learn more about Reid than he ever wanted them to, and painfully grow to understand how he became the man he is today.
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24 Jul 2025
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Last read:chapter 5
Summary: the BAU go with reid to visit his mum and see how quickly he can throw on a mask them learn some new things about him and his dad. William was physically and emotionally abusive (going as far as to use a belt on him) and Diana branded him with a unique burn in order to identify him when she has an episode and believes him to be and imposter. Hotch is feeling a little more connected whilst finding out more of reids childhood and seeing the similarities between them.Last paragraphs: At the time, Hotch hadn’t understood the weight of that quiet exchange. But now, as he witnessed Spencer’s practiced deflection whilst knowing more of the bigger picture, Hotch suddenly feels that he may just be the world's worst profiler. How many times had Spencer played this game? How many times had he masked his true emotions with a brilliant, fabricated excuse? How often had Hotch missed it?
“I’m sorry, Sir, I must’ve gotten distracted…”
“Sorry, I was just re-reading War and Peace …”
“Oops, I must’ve gotten lost in my library again…”
Had those all been flashbacks, moments where Spencer slipped into the past without anyone noticing?
Most of all, Hotch couldn't help but wonder what Spencer could possibly be trying to win, if no one else knew they'd been dealt into the game. -
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It started with a phone call.
Then a guy at a gas station.
Then Carl on the couch, bleeding and eating cereal like he lived there.Evan Buckley has built a new life — firefighter, teammate, friend — but he didn't build it on clean ground. And when ghosts from the South Side start showing up one by one, the cracks start showing too. The 118 doesn't know what's coming. Buck isn't sure he does either.
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Ten times Evan Buckley's past slipped through the cracks, and one time he let it.Bookmarked by Melschee8056
08 Jul 2025
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Last read: chapter 11
Summary: buck is an unofficial ghallagar and the team have been slowly meeting a new buck through meeting these new family members. They realise fully how little they know him when they're called out to a riot at a bar and bucks right in the middle of it getting handcuffs put on him for punching a police officer (he didn't realise it was an officer till after), after being put on the side of the road he starts smoking with mickey who was also cuffed with him and talking like this was all second nature. Bobby calls Athena to help get buck out of it and she does just that.Last few paragraphs:
But Buck was already gone, head low, sliding into the front seat like he wanted to disappear.
Across the street, the 118 stood motionless.
Chim finally said, “He didn’t even argue.”
Hen winced. “He looked like a kicked puppy.”
Eddie, staring after the cruiser: “That’s the quietest I’ve ever seen him.”
“That’s the part that worries me.” Bobby said, also staring after the quickly disappearing cruiser. -
Momma Stiles to the Fucking Rescue you Bunch of FailWolfs by Estra4
Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV)
22 Oct 2025
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Stiles needed a break from Scott and his Allison hat (get it because he has his head so far up her ass... you know what, never mind, I know I’m funny).
After the absolute shit show that was the warehouses everything, Stiles was ready to sleep. Unfortunately, that sleep was being impeded by the infestation that was the Hale Pack. From would be runaways sneaking into his house at all hours to trauma bond, to a not so dead Creeperwolf, an angst ridden previous lizard person, and newly borne banshee in the body of pre-existing queen bee, not to mention the newly christened curly haired pup and the raging eyebrowed Alpha; it was a wonder Stiles would ever get a break for the rest of summer.
Though an Alpha pack turning up at the same time as wolf twins was purely a coincident – Stiles is sure, and the less said about human sacrifices the safer for his sanity.
Stiles is starting to think he jinked himself when he said nothing ever happened in this town. Too fucking much was happening and Stiles would like a refund, thank you, because clearly his stereotypical small town was broken.- Language:
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05 Jul 2025
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Last read:chapter 5
Summary:stiles has a power that he is choosing to ignore and is looking after the pack as though he is their mother, especially isaac (he has a soft spot for him). Stiles is majorly pissed of with Scott, derek is officially adopting isaac, Allison is a prick. Based after the argents kidnapped and tortured them.
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He adjusted Isaac in his arms then made his way to the stairs. “Now come on, the others are waiting for us upstairs. Once Jackson gets back, I’ll set up the runes to key the others into the preexisting wards.” Derek followed behind him. “You know you are going to have to tell us about that.” “I am aware of that; however I am electing to ignore any implications of my powers, and I thank you to also take on a similar mindset.” Derek held his hands up in the universal sign of surrender. “No mentioning your supposed mythical magical powers, got it.” Stiles turned to him when they reached the landing, the others waiting. He nodded at him, sniffing. “Good.” -
In The Blink Of A Crinkling Eye (Everything Has Changed) by Halfbloodprincess003
Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
03 Apr 2026
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After a summer spent at the Dursleys with little to no contact with the Wizarding World, Harry is exhausted. He's been attacked by Dementors, his cousin got hurt and just to add insult to injury, Harry is stuck with an angry Vernon Dursley for the rest of the summer. Oh, and he needs to be resorted, because while he doesn't love the drama, the drama loves him.
The Sorting Hat finally gets his way and a newly sorted Slytherin Harry Potter must now navigate new allies, old friendships and new enemies, all while surviving the O.W.L. year, the second most important year of wizarding education.
Maybe getting expelled wouldn't have been so bad after all.
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22 Jun 2025
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Last read: chapter 31
Summary: harry and dudley got attacked by mementos, harry used the patronus charm to save them. Got temporarily expelled from hogwarts and the abuse from the dursleys got worse. Due to him being expelled he had to get resorted by the hat and is put in slytherin so he's now sharing a room with draco theo and blaise. He's being civil with the slytherins since theo and draco found out that pucey raped him and he's starting study group for dada. The weasley twins are the best but are highly concerned for harry given they know he uses a glamour to cover how thin, scarred and tired he is. harry denies the slytherins access to the secret defence against the arts club for everyone's comfort but agreed to help them separately so they are still learning the necessary spells. Harry started the lessons, warning everyone the possible consequences of umbridge catching him. Harry ignored hermiones protest of him not having told her and Ron as well as being offended that malfoy and nott (possibly zibini) knew before them. Once the on housed left the ROR the slythering entered for there lessons which harry was more than happy to give no matter how exhausted he was. Falling asleep after having finished his transfiguration homework, the wards he puts up usually where all but forgotten which leads to the boys being woken by Harry's nightmares of pucey and Vernon (not that they know anything about the dursleys) and draco comforts him inevitably falling asleep in Harry's bed. The next day he avoided draco to the best of his abilities after having woken up next to him though it didn't last long. Draco took harry to the ROR and told him he had no desire to be a death eater, recommended harry see a mind healer and told harry if he ever has a nightmare as bad as the night before then to wake him up or that if he just needs Someone to talk to then he's there. Harry called draco a princess twice: once as an insult and once as a joke.Harry teaches Malfoy about Muggles. They compete. Then it's Gryffindor against Slytherin, and Harry should really learn how to punch. Harry deals with the consequences of punching Pucey. He has a talk with Snape, and the Slytherin trio helps him. Harry is basically drowning in exhaustion between detentions, da meetings, glamours, nightmares,homework and teaching the slytherins but draco, theo, and zabini are helping him and hagrid it back. (He's also doing everything possible to avoid panic attacks due to pucey). Harry and the Slytherin gang go Christmas shopping. Harry is useless at wrapping paper and has a very, very awkward conversation under the mistletoe. Potter has a fit, Draco worries and Severus Snape is suspicious. Harry blames himself. Everyone sees harry without his glamour and get concerned but what makes them more concerned is when harry basically tells them his life shouldn't be protected at the cost of someone else's and that he isn't worth thatTwo conversations are overheard by teenagers. Harry is worried. Remus and Sirius are worried. Everyone is worried. Sirius and remus suspect something about harry and pucey after a bogart appeared in grimauled place and show the boy as his worst fear, he also finds out that sirius' worst fear is harry dead. When he got back to hogwarts theo, blaise and draco gave him a christmas present which was a hat, gloves and a scarf, whilst harry gave them each a drawing of the trio for christmas. Severus is teaching harry occlumency causing Harry's nightmares to come back full swing so he stopped sleeping making him too tired to push Snape out of his mind so he found out about pucey. Harry might be planning to off himself.Last few paragraphs:
“You’re so weak, sweetheart, just how I like it.”
Pucey was right.
And when Harry raised his head, meeting Snape’s horrified and disgusted face—more emotion than he’d ever seen in the usually blank-faced Professor—he knew what he had to do. He knew he wouldn’t—he couldn’t keep going like this.
Snape knew his worst secret. The secret he wanted to keep with his life.
He was done.
He scrambled up to his feet, not giving Snape any time to stop him, and ran out of the room.
He had some letters to write.