TuttleAsHimself
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Your Blood, Your Bones, Your Voice & Your Ghost by TuttleAsHimself
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Feb 2026
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It's the first Ottawa vs Montreal game since Shane signed on with the Centaurs. Tensions are boiling over and it's ramping up to be an intense and brutal game.
The Centaurs have a teammate to protect on the ice. Ilya has a husband to worry about. And Shane has something to prove to the old team that dropped him like he was nothing.
When a hit is taken too far, no one can predict just how wrong things can go.
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My Happiness Hurts Like A Split Through The Lip by TuttleAsHimself
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Jan 2026
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In pro sports, getting injured is just a given. Especially when the playing field isn’t a field at all, but a slick shelf of ice on which twelve men strap blades to their feet and slap a solid disc of vulcanised rubber around with big-ass sticks.
So yes, Shane is hurt. Not bad, but kind of bad. Like...in the usual kind of hockey way. It's nothing to panic about but it would be nice if Ilya texted him back with a little more concern about it. Right?
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Shane gets hurt and then overthinks about everything. Ilya is a menace.
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Ilya’s second favourite thing in the world was getting under Shane Hollander’s skin.
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An introspective look at Ilya's feelings about loving and being loved by Shane.
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It's been a long day. A good day for the most part...all things considered. But that's kind of the problem. Because once Shane's parents leave after coming for dinner, he finally lets himself consider all the things that have happened, and will happen, and might happen for him and Ilya.
The panic attack he didn't quite have at his parents dining room table hits him like a ton of bricks, and poor Ilya is the unfortunate bystander.
[Takes place later in the evening, the day Shane and Ilya get caught].
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David Hollander just needs his old phone charger, and instead gets an unexpected peak into his son's private life. A tendency toward internal panic is maybe something of a family trait...
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Why David (my sweet baby angel) left so quickly after catching Shane and Ilya at the cottage.
[Title from "Father & Son" by Yusuf Cat Stevens]
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Shane looked up at him. “I’m fine, Ilya. Just tired.”
“Okay. It’s fine if you’re not okay, though. We can handle that.”
He doubted that Ilya, Anya, Harris, Coach Wiebe, his parents, The Irina Foundation, Rose, or even the gas station attendant down the road from their house could handle the idea of Shane looking at the black hole in his mind. It would swallow him. Everything would get out of control again.
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Graphic depictions of self harm and discussions of trauma and dissociation. Deals with hazing and the ways the institution of hockey hurts anyone who doesn't fit the white, conservative mold.
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26 Feb 2026
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Everything in Shane’s life changes at once. His team turns on him. The C is gone. His relationship goes public by accident. The losses keep piling up.
He holds it together until he doesn’t.
When Shane finally breaks, Ilya is there to catch him and remind him that he is allowed to grieve, allowed to be weak, and never has to be strong alone.
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26 Feb 2026
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The Aftermath by noodlerdoodler
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Feb 2026
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The day before his discharge, the door to his room swung open and clicked softly closed. No doubt it would be his mom with more questions for the nurses about his outpatient care or news about the private occupational therapist she hired. Shane wasn’t interested in talking about either, especially to his mom, who had put on an obnoxious mask of false optimism.
“You like baseball?”
Shane’s eyes snapped open so fast, the room started spinning in a blur. When his vision focused, Ilya stood at the end of his bed, wearing a beanie and a Boston Bruin sweatshirt. From here, Shane could smell the ugly stink of nicotine. He must have been smoking in the parking lot. The scent was so reassuringly familiar, he forgot to chastise Ilya for it. Lethargically, Shane noticed the creased lines of his forehead and penetrating worry in his blue eyes.
Body sagging heavily to the right, Shane dragged himself up and rested against his pillows. Moving hurt, as if the strenuous effort it took wasn’t humiliating enough. Reaching for the remote, Shane switched the TV off with a trembling hand. In that moment, he wished Ilya never came.
“You are shaking.” Rozanov observed acutely.
“It’s involuntary.” He said.
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25 Feb 2026
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David Hollander never made it to the cottage, leaving Ilya and Shane to enjoy the summer exactly as they’d imagined, but fate has a crude way of ensuring that what is meant to happen will happen, no matter what.
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24 Feb 2026
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From the Net by Climbergirlio
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Mar 2026
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A Wyatt Hayes POV of Shane’s first year with the Ottawa Centaurs feat. the Centaurs realizing the rivalry is still real, Shane’s no PDA rule, workplace ‘professionalism’, an unreasonable amount of Tim Horton’s discussion, and Montreal getting their ass kicked as they deserve.
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24 Feb 2026