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"Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.
And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.
You don’t deserve his last name."
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content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime
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04 Jan 2026
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How Will I Know (If He Really Loves Me) by dabforpalermo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Dec 2025
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Ilya Rozanov is a natural caretaker. Shane Hollander is a natural clutz who keeps getting into situations where he needs taking care of.
Or: 5 times Ilya took care of Shane, and 1 time the favour was returned.
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- Part 4 of Hollanov
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- English
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28 Dec 2025
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pushing it down & praying by lavender (punchinginadream)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Dec 2025
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“I get kind of–” Shane makes a little whining noise in the back of his throat, tips his head toward the ceiling for a moment before looking back at Ilya. “I hate those fucking press conferences. I hate them, Roz, and sometimes it just feels like too much and I can’t–” One hand goes up to run through his hair, already a little mussed, and Shane gives it a slight tug, making a frustrated noise that Ilya hasn’t heard before.
And Ilya decides that’s enough.
- or, a post-game press conference makes shane hit his breaking point. ilya goes after him.
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23 Dec 2025
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The reassuring quiet of boring days by mareastralis
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
20 Nov 2025
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Ilya calls Shane "boring". It's a joke, it has been for years. One night, alone in bed while his husband is out partying, Shane wonders if it could be more than that.
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- Part 2 of Hollander-Rozanov (they hyphenated)
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- English
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15 Dec 2025
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something different bloomed by only_the_golden
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
12 Dec 2025
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Shane was diagnosed with autism as a kid, and kept it a secret once he decided he wanted to play hockey as a career. He decides it's finally time to tell Ilya.
Set in Chapter 17 of Heated Rivalry.
Title from 'You're on Your Own, Kid' by Taylor Swift
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- Part 2 of Autistic Shane Hollander One-Shots
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14 Dec 2025