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Victoria slams to a halt in the middle of the floor, feeling like she’s been sucker-punched in the stomach by a brick wall with hands. She can only stare, because holy shit. Because that is Cassie McKay, and she’s here at Blue Moon, at the lesbian bar, the bar where lesbians go, holding a can of Diet Coke and leaning casually against the wall as she smiles down at a pretty, dark-haired girl who looks twenty-four at most.
Holy. Fucking. Shit.
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20 Jan 2026
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“I didn’t keep most of the memories. Other people’s memories. I get flashes of big things, births, deaths. Except about you.”
Carol feels the confusion slip onto her face. Nervousness creeps up her spine again. “Me?”
“I know everything that anybody has ever thought about you, Carol. Every memory. Every feeling. Helen. Your ex-girlfriends. Your dentist. It’s like I have a Carol encyclopedia in my head.”
Carol had thought that she was done experiencing fresh horrors. What a nightmare it is to realize that she is not. “Oh, god.” She says.
“Oh, god,” Zosia agrees.
After they manage to break Zosia free of the hive, Zosia and Carol try to navigate the field of landmines that is their relationship.
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10 Jan 2026
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Carol Sturka, a novelist and English professor, struggles with grief and isolation after the death of her wife. Upon her return to work, Carol discovers she is now forced to share her classroom with Zosia Rybak, an ESL instructor. Initially resentful, Carol learns that Zosia admires her writing and specifically requested to work with her. Time heals, and even though Carol's wounds are deep, she learns that there's something still left for her to pursue.
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02 Jan 2026
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McKay just got her. Trusted her more than Victoria trusted herself.
She wanted nothing more for it to mean that McKay was a good mentor, and Victoria had problems with authority because of her mother, and it was nothing inappropriate like having a crush on her boss. There was no possible way.
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24 Dec 2025
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When Natalie wakes up in jail, she expects a court date, a hangover, and a hellish amount of regret—not Lottie Matthews, fresh out of the mental hospital, posting her bail.
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11 Dec 2025
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Of course, Natalie had always thought Lottie was pretty. More on an intellectual level. Shit, it was just a fact. But the way her dark curls framed her jaw and neck… Well, the sight had suddenly grown interesting. Interesting and previously unnoticed. And now, like the memory of their encounter in the washroom, it was stirring something in Natalie she hadn’t realized was there.
// OR: The one where Nat and Lottie catch feelings in the wilderness, and it's everyone's problem. (But mostly theirs.)
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- Part 1 of play god and destroy the world
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25 Oct 2025
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The cacophony of loss that’s been shrieking in her head for three thousand days alone quiets as the world around her screams in its place, and as she’s flung through the dust and the fury and the cartwheeling debris of pursuit vehicles that never stood a chance against the storm, she closes her eyes and stops fighting.
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31 Aug 2025
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Twisted Like Knotted Antlers by maraudersmqry
Fandoms: Yellowjackets (TV), Hannibal (TV)
28 Jun 2025
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Dr. Charlotte Matthews had been assigned as Natalie Scatorccio’s psychiatrist—brought in to treat the FBI’s most volatile consultant, to soothe the fractures in her mind left by too many crime scenes.
But Natalie doesn’t trust her. She loathes her. Despises the way Charlotte speaks in riddles and calm smiles, as if murder were a language only they could share. She dreams of silencing her—stripping the composure from her face, watching the blood bloom beneath her hands.
What happens when a psychiatrist with undiagnosed schizophrenia—who insists the antlered goddess haunting her visions is real—meets a consultant with a disordered sense of empathy and a history of violence buried in denial?
Well, the tale of the Antler Queens emerges, of course.
OR Yellowjackets as Hannibal au
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04 Aug 2025
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"Are you here because you want to be?" Lottie asks, fingers dancing up Natalie's sides. "Or is it because Travis ignored your calls again?”
It starts because Shauna needs to make sure no one finds out about what happened out there. It continues because… well, Natalie’s trying to figure that out.
Or, Natalie visits Lottie throughout the years after rescue.
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29 Jun 2025
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“Sure, I'll do it,” Nat agrees. Against her better judgement, maybe, but fuck it—she’s never been one for smart decisions, and she won't start now. “I'll be your arm candy, rage bait, whatever. Just don’t go falling in love with me or anything.”
The corner of Lottie’s mouth curls upwards, showing her crooked tooth. “I’ll do my best.”
She holds out her right hand, waiting. Nat reaches out and takes it, and there: an agreement struck by words, bound by skin. Down the hall, across sun-drenched tiling, the shadows of tree branches stretch out like antlers below them.
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25 Feb 2025
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Lottie hears from her high school crush at the same time that she's running out of excuses to put off introducing her DEFINITELY REAL GIRLFRIEND to her friends... she winds up explaining the disaster to Natalie, and, to Lottie's shock and horror, instead of oohing and aahing and going on her way, Natalie offers to pretend to be the girlfriend that she's been faking.
Not ideal, but she's not exactly in a place to say no...
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the natalie lore is like lottie matthews BASICS anyone who calls themself your friend has to know about natalievan
she’s your white whalelottie
she is not my white whaleTai
That literary reference was so hot.jax
OKAY ANYWAY
BACK TO LOTTIE’S LOVE LIFEsome christmas lottienat fake dating hs one-sided (or is it???) situationship i could keep listing tropes but i won't. lottienat hallmark movie. commas are the enemy.
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- Part 1 of annual lottienat holiday fake dating au
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21 Dec 2024
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Lottie narrows her eyes for a moment, in the middle of the waiting, and then, completely deadpan: “I need you to be my girlfriend.”
Admittedly: this isn’t the craziest thing Lottie has uttered in her presence - but it’s damn near close to what’s in first place.
Nat learns more about Lottie Matthews in one summer than she has in every other year that's preceded.
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25 Nov 2024
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Several months after their rescue from the Wilderness, Natalie still struggles with feeling human again. In an effort to reconnect with someone who understands, she goes looking for her fellow surviving Yellowjackets. In true teen-prophet fashion, Lottie sees her coming.
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- Part 1 of Life's Long Night is Ended
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23 Nov 2024
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“Natalie, what the hell was that all about?!” Jackie’s voice comes out shrill as she opens the screen door. She stops and stares at Lottie, freezing at the familiar red eyes. “Why the fuck is there a vampire here?”
“That’s…” Nat glances over her shoulder to stare at Lottie. The brunette towers over her, but she looks about as scary as a Doberman puppy. “That’s Lottie.”
“Perfect,” Jackie replies with an extra edge of faux-sweetness to her tone. “Why the fuck is there a Lottie here?”
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07 Nov 2024
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(Don't Take) These Beautiful Things that I've Got by WhiteravenGreywolf
Fandoms: Star Wars: Ahsoka (TV), Star Wars - All Media Types
20 Jul 2024
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When storming a remnant Empire facility, Sabine finds CE-2208, an eight year old girl that looks almost exactly like her. Almost. The other half of her, she can easily guess they come from Shin. They have no other choice now but to learn how to be parent to this little girl, made all the hardest by unexpressed feelings.
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04 Jul 2024
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Setback by WhiteravenGreywolf
Fandoms: Star Wars: Ahsoka (TV), Star Wars - All Media Types
22 Jun 2024
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A few months after her burnout, Shin needs to find a new job. When no restaurant will hire her, she finds the Wren Stronghold. Sabine quit all of her dreams to take over her parents' bar after their death. She needs her new cook to help her save the bar, if only they could agree on anything...
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22 Jun 2024
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Miracle Force Baby by WhiteravenGreywolf
Fandoms: Star Wars: Ahsoka (TV), Star Wars - All Media Types
14 Jun 2024
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**SPOILER for Acolyte episode 3**
Sabine has been feeling under the weather for a few weeks, but when it gets bad enough that she can't go on a mission, Hera insists on taking her to the med bay. Sabine claims it's nothing, just a bit of morning sickness and weird cravings. At worst, just some alien parasite, right?
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15 Jun 2024
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In this short Life that only lasts an hour, how much - how little - is within our power by WhiteravenGreywolf
Fandoms: Star Wars: Ahsoka (TV), Star Wars - All Media Types
04 Jun 2024
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Shin came to this expensive resort in the Alps to prepare for her next snowboard competition, a year after a terrible accident. Then, she starts a feud with her neighbor over her musical tastes. Sabine, said neighbor, came to the resort to write songs for her new album, but it's hard to focus on anything but her anger toward her asshole neighbor.
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- Part 1 of Snowboard/Singer AU
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22 May 2024
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Hunter's Moon by WhiteravenGreywolf
Fandoms: Star Wars: Ahsoka (TV), Star Wars - All Media Types
27 Apr 2024
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Growing up in a clan of werewolf hunters, Sabine knows her facts from fiction. She knows the full moon lasts three days, not one. She knows the toll the transformation has on a person's body and soul. She never expected the toll it would take on her too, to support her lover through it all. But for Shin, she will do it without a second thought.
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27 Apr 2024
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Rock Wars by WhiteravenGreywolf
Fandoms: Star Wars: Ahsoka (TV), Star Wars - All Media Types
20 Apr 2024
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It is time for this year's Rock Wars! Will the Specters finally make it to the finales? Will their ultimate rivals, the Nightsisters, finally beat them? And most importantly, will the bands' respective bass players stop glaring at each other and kiss already? Or perhaps, they already are...
It's a rock band competition AU with too many Star Wars characters, a lot of fluff, a lot of angst, and a lot of smut!
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20 Apr 2024