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30 feet away is Jaysen Caulfield, right in front of Mickey’s very eyes, and he’s smiling from ear to ear, watching him already as if he’s been doing so for a minute or two. He is here and he is real and Mickey almost trips over his own feet running towards him.
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who could ever leave me, darling? (but who could stay?) by imdeadsirius
Fandoms: Icebreaker - A. L. Graziadei
04 Dec 2025
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I wasn’t fully aware of the time moving in that moment. It was just the four of us sitting on the dock, the same way we did at the start of the year, and I could paint a picture of the moment and slide it in my pocket to keep. There were no deadlines, no reminders. I could just exist and pretend like existing was that simple.
But I think when I got back to my room the feeling was gone. The high had dimmed. It was almost tranquil watching my friends walk in the opposite direction.
And that decline is so much more familiar than anything I’ve ever felt before. -
out of focus, eye to eye, 'til the gravity's too much by imdeadsirius
Fandoms: Icebreaker - A. L. Graziadei
08 Dec 2024
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“You miss me that much?” Jaysen teases.
Mickey exhales into the fabric of Jaysen’s coat. “Unbearably so.”Or: Mickey, Jaysen, and coming home for the holidays.
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- Part 2 of this slope is treacherous
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put your lips close to mine, as long as they don't touch by imdeadsirius
Fandoms: Icebreaker - A. L. Graziadei
01 Nov 2024
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Jaysen wonders if Mickey was birthed for the very purpose of being a muse or if that is just the card fate had dealt him, with his tumbled hair and porcelain stature, chimeric in essence. He wonders whether or not these are conventional thoughts to have on somebody you have only just met.
Or: Jaysen, Mickey, and a chronicle in colour.
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- Part 1 of this slope is treacherous
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you can see it with the lights out by imdeadsirius
Fandoms: Icebreaker - A. L. Graziadei
27 Jun 2024
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5 times Mickey thinks his feelings for Cauler border on something more than casual, and the 1 time he puts a name to it.
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A Micksen Historical AU <333
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haecceity by sonofadream
Fandoms: Raven Cycle - Maggie Stiefvater, Dreamer Trilogy - Maggie Stiefvater
11 Mar 2026
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I miss you: meaning, I am severed from your body—I miss where we meet, your skin on mine, your laughter in my ears—and I am severed from myself. I miss the you in me; the dents you leave inside me, the person you allow me to be. Meaning: I can’t remember who I am when you're gone.
Longing made a dog out of Ronan.
In California, Ronan dreams of Adam.
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19 Mar 2026
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“Are you going to stay there?” Neil asks finally, voice low, suspicious.
Andrew’s posture doesn’t change. “I remain until instructed otherwise.”
“You mean until the king instructs you."
The knight doesn’t answer immediately. Then, without changing his tone: “Correct.”(Or, Neil is forced back into the life he tried to escape—the life of a prince—and Andrew is the knight sworn to “protect” him.)
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11 Mar 2026
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california burns cardinal red on the skyline by moonsteps
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
23 Apr 2025
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“You signed the contract to play for us,” says Jeremy, and he sounds a little helpless. Jean spins around and stares at him.
“I did not know,” he says. “I did not know what Kevin was doing until it was too late. He did not give me a choice. Neil didn’t either, I—I was—” Dying. Breaking. Drowning. Drowning. Drowning. “No. It does not matter. I do not have any other option. I have to play. I will die if I don’t.”
In which Jean and Jeremy dated long distance and broke up before Jean's transfer to the Trojans.
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09 Mar 2026
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The Foxes flame out of playoff contention in a spectacular fashion. Andrew and Neil’s absence from the court for most of season had resulted in a necessary reliance on their chaotic and, frankly, unprepared freshmen, and not even an unbelievable last ditch effort in December from the team had been enough to overcome the growing powerhouses of exy in the SEC.
Kevin calls Jean that very same night.
Only in the aftermath can Jean pinpoint that this is the moment that catalyzes the steep spiral down.
(Or, Jean breaks his promise.)
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18 Dec 2025
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Neil swallows back blood. “Andrew.”
“Abram,” Andrew returns.
“I’m losing my mind. I think I’m losing my mind.”
“You aren’t,” Andrew says, so easy, so certain. “You’re tired. You’re scared. That’s it.”
Neil grits his teeth. “I’m,” he exhales shakily. “I’m – seeing things,” he admits.
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In which Andrew gets into a car accident one week into the off-season, and everything is fine right up until he starts dying every night in Neil’s dreams. Things get worse, and then they get better.
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Or, how trauma and triggers persist even after decades of safety, and how Andrew and Neil navigate them and take care of each other throughout it all.
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30 Jul 2025