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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Shane starts a letterboxed. Ilya does too, for some reason.

    From godzllas on twt: hollanov fic where someone forces shane to get letterboxd and fans start questioning what is going on bc ilya and shane keep logging the same movies

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    26 Feb 2026

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    ESPN: Shane Hollander To the Ottawa Centaurs after Tumultuous End to Montreal Metros Career

    @CentaursGirlie1995: obviously i feel very badly for shane but my beautiful failson of a team getting the two best players because of homophobia is perhaps the only good thing homophobia has ever done

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    Or: Shane's first season on the Ottawa Centaurs, as told by everyone else in the world.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    “How did you know that Novikov needed tape earlier?” Ilya asked as he came back up. “He did not say anything himself, yes? Or you would not have texted me about it.”

    I heard him say it in Russian to himself,” Shane replied with a grin, switching to Russian.

    Ilya’s face lit up like a Christmas tree. “You did? And you understood him?

    Yes! I was so happy that I understood what he said. Of course, I had to tell you because nobody knows I can speak Russian.

    Yes, it would be suspicious.

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    A new Russian player, Dimitri Novikov, is drafted onto the Ottawa Centaurs in the same season that Shane Hollander is unceremoniously traded from the Montreal Voyageurs. His reasons for leaving Montreal are unclear, and the reasons he chose Ottawa are even less so. However, as Dimitri begins to suspect that Shane secretly knows Russian, his curiosity ends up getting him wrapped up in a relationship he didn’t even know existed. But perhaps a little turbulence is what Shane and Ilya needed to realize their relationship is strong enough to weather anything that comes their way.

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    25 Feb 2026