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It has been three weeks and two nights since they first spoke, if one could call whatever that was a conversation. Two weeks and six days since they first exchanged punches.
About twelve minutes and fifty-seven seconds since they undressed down to nothing and surrendered to the lukewarm water.
There is only one pair of eyes boring holes into him now.id est - musings on inhibition, rumination; melancholy and loathing and other things that love company.
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- Part 1 of the blade you gave me that day
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09 Feb 2026
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“Your freak,” Luka begins, as Till’s face reddens at the realisation of his slip-up, “Is right there, in the sink you keep glaring daggers into,”
“Hah,” Till deadpans, “That’s funny. So funny. Wow, Ivan, you got me. You’re so funny. Quit modelling, pursue a stand-up career,” He fake laughs extra hard for emphasis.
The room stays silent. The child sneezes. It’s fucking adorable.
Ivan inexplicably turns into a five-year-old. Till deals with this better than he deals with his feelings for the child's fully grown counterpart.
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08 Feb 2026
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before this ends up as another memory by ysalaysay (sincerelysamedt)
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
30 Oct 2025
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"Are you ill?" Ivan says instead of Mizi switched pillows with Sua this morning, Till's cheek nestled on his shoulder. It must be grave. Life-threatening, even.
"Are you sick?" Till answers without looking, still sketching, sharp, precise lines. Far be it for Ivan to question the genius artist, creative re-interpretations were never his strongsuit, but even Ivan knows Mizi's glasses are not triangular. "You're the one who got warm all over."
Till is being... unusually clingy. For Ivan, it's a problem.
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02 Feb 2026
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Don’t Go Wa(i)sting Your Devotion by fflyhigher for pinecow, nemoys
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
24 Jan 2026
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‘Tiiiiiiiill,’ Ivan sends, and Till already knows he’s fucked. ‘I get a free day next week!! Let’s meet up!’ he says, then forwards a pathetic gif of a puppy with the wettest eyes ever looking up at Till’s perplexed stare.
This is a trick. Till should say no. Till should acknowledge that he’s been acting really weird about his best friend lately and that he has to get normal before they see each other again. Till should tell Ivan to spend his once-in-a-blue-moon free day relaxing at a spa—a spa? Till frowns. People would get so fucking weird about that. He should go somewhere else where clothes are involved. Skiing sounds better—and not slouching at Till’s ass dorm. Till should get a grip.
‘Please? :((’
Goddammit.
Five times Till loses his mind over Ivan's waist, and one time he does something about it.
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25 Jan 2026
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tried and tested methods for effectively handling a haunting by anumone_7
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
20 Dec 2025
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Initially, your ghost may still be dressed in the well-ironed suit from the day of their burial, with a few specks of dirt here and there. You might have imagined him dressed like this in a different setting. A dance or a wedding. You placing his hand in someone else's, giving him away. Giving him away, you say, as if he were ever yours. Still, you would have liked to do your part, telling the story about the flower crowns, smiling in all the right places. He, soft-eyed in the crowd, hair parted to the side. Looking every bit like someone's handsome, loving son.
In the end, when you gave him away, he still looked as handsome. Perhaps it is a good thing that best man speeches can be made into eulogies with only a few edits.
(Or: There is a ghost at Ivan's doorstep, and it has a familiar face.)
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- Part 3 of etymology
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25 Dec 2025
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The Devil at Your Doorstep
★★★★
The film wants the audience to be well-acquainted with Baek-ssi's gentle nature. In one shot, taken off the railing of the cruise, Baek-ssi is shown staring intensely at the sea. The camera zooms in so far on his eyelashes, I can only imagine the purpose is to make the viewers count them. I got to seventy-six before the camera rudely panned out. I think the film should give poor, slow bastards like us a second chance.
This review has been partially censored because it might contain spoilers.
(Or: Actor Ivan reviews his boyfriend's films)
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18 Dec 2025
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In the locker room after practice, the boys jostle each other, slinging their sweaty jerseys over their bare backs.
They laugh, discussing the obscene ways the body can twist and turn. How to suck a hickey along the column on another’s throat. How to cup a breast with the right amount of pressure. How to kiss between the thighs. But no one, no one talks about how to best pluck an eyelash from underneath the bruised eye of a boy one has revolved around their whole life. How to catch and bear the heaviness of a wish never made.
(Or: After a rough encounter with Urak, Till calls Ivan over. They sit together in the water and let it carry them through.)
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14 Dec 2025
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“Okay,” Ivan repeats, finally raising his fingers to the back of his neck. He gives a few pitiful scratches, then shrugs. “I admit that I was a little… affected. But now the matter has been resolved. You were right. For once. Congratulations”
This time, Till can’t keep his laugh in. “What is that?” He shakes his head. Ivan can be so strange. Till’s heart is growing a little estranged from the rest of his body, too. It keeps tumbling in his chest for no reason. He must be overheating from all this back-and-forth. “That’s not going to do anything. Turn around. I’ll get it for you.”
Ivan’s hand drops away from his neck. The pen falls onto the grass. “What?”
(or: Ivan, Till, and the strange intimacy of having someone scratch the itch on your back)
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02 Dec 2025
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Not for the first time, Ivan wondered why he could feel pain, yet so little of other emotion. It hurt when he picked at this wound, it hurt when he came across Till beaten and bound, and it hurt when he saw Till’s shy smile that only appeared when Mizi praised him. But it was a pain he couldn’t get enough of.
Well, he’d always known he was twisted.
Ivan obsesses over the mark Till left on him.
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02 Oct 2025
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His father is aghast at the new rasp in his voice. At his first evaluation after the surgical suite, they rear up so viciously at the sound that for a moment, he expects to be struck. It's a novel thought — that's just not their style. The worst parts of his life, now knotted together. The rotten parts still there, only jumbled. Faulty reassembly.
Or: this is not a story about a phoenix.
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28 Sep 2025
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One day Sua looked at Mizi, pink hair getting in her eyes as she giggled about something she’d just said, and realized that losing her would be more devastating than getting shattered to never be put whole again.
There’s no meaning to her existence, no reason for her to keep on living if Mizi is no longer there with her. What use is a doll without an owner? If nobody is there to marvel at its beauty, at the fine way she was sculpted, what is it if not a dust-covered ornament?
Sua has always been prone to breaking.
Bookmarked by pinecow
01 Sep 2025
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(Mizi never asks, and Sua pretends she still gets to keep her secret.)
very cool metaphors to explain sua’s psyche and how it develops throughout her life
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"You want to be my ashtray so badly?” he asks, voice low and almost mocking.
Wordlessly, Ivan nods with vigor.
Till hums. “Ivan, open your mouth.”
Ivan holds an unhealthy fascination for Till's smoking habit.
Bookmarked by pinecow
01 Sep 2025
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(Till is frozen, too afraid to speak up, too afraid to find out what more Ivan could ask and how much Till would be actually willing to give him.)
more pathetic freak4freakness from my favorite otr and angstmaxxer.. it’s a fun read with a lot of underlying emotions to it, some of the best romantic tension i’ve read
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carousel soul by unseriouscucumber (AngieWritesStuff) for santatin
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
03 Nov 2024
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Oils and creams aren’t affordable this far from the aliens, so they make do with thin, transparent gel that smells faintly like rice and drips slippery in small bright lines. When it pricks over his skin and he reacts, Till murmurs a harsh apology. His palm cuts the exclamation mark-shaped puddle at the top of Ivan’s spine, spreads it across the cords of his shoulders and up his neck, thumbs pressing hesitantly with a force that can’t be effective.
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30 Aug 2025
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common characteristics of phylum arthropoda (and other related creatures) by anumone_7
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
23 Aug 2025
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Leeches. That's what the people in the slums called those who came to sit by their fires without offering bread or potatoes in return. A creature that attached itself to another creature for sustenance.
Ivan, following Till around during playtime. Sliding down the hill right after him, skipping the queue of children waiting for their turn. Sticking to his side after they landed at the bottom. Asking him all sorts of questions: Loser? What does that word mean? Why did you laugh at what Eri said during dinner? Was it funny? How did you draw the lines so straight? How did you color the sky without getting any blue in the clouds? Bit by bit, filling his own hollow frame with parts of Till, so he could pass as another human.
(Or: Insects come in many shapes and forms. All equally pitiable, but extremely difficult to kill. Ivan's love for Till is such a constant, changing thing).
Bookmarked by pinecow
26 Aug 2025
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(Till, get up. There’s somewhere we have to go Even now, he can recall the warm muzzle of the rifle against his forehead. Is that not where they’re all headed anyway?)
incredible fic from anu as always, such a good look into ivan’s psyche and his connection with insects
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Till’s gotten better at hallucinating, lately.
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26 Aug 2025
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when they talk but don’t really talk but they’re talking… y’know.. ooh this is so freaking good. loved the progression of till’s “madness,” seriously seriously recommend
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It’s going to start raining soon. The rain here is just short of poison. Acid, Isaac says, not something our skin is designed to endure. None of this place is designed for humans to endure. Something about the acid rain making his flesh turn pink with exertion makes Till feel violently alive.
He’s always been especially good at enduring.
Seven years on from the Alien Stage disaster, Luka is back on stage, Mizi is missing and Till has finally found his place in the world.
Then, a dead man appears on a broadcast.
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14 Aug 2025
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SUPER cool canon divergent au! very intricate take on the rebellion factions, 4NAKT, their cloned children, and till’s grief
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How to Lose At Chess With a Dog Except The Dog Is Actually Pretty Good and He Is Also a (Dirty and Lying) Thief by fflyhigher
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
04 Aug 2025
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It should be stated again, just for the record of Till's quickly burning down with rage and also sleep-addled mind, that Ivan is a fucking dick and a terrible friend. Till hates Ivan. Till is also going, due to horrible and unjust circumstances, to let Ivan into his bed. Because he's a bastard.
Ivan knocks at Till's door in the middle of the night. Till shouldn't have opened the door because Ivan is an asshole.
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05 Aug 2025
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this is so sweet. younger ivantill having their weird hissy fits and finding a home in each other despite everything they have to endure.. sharing a bed in canonverse truly is so special to me
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'I'm Going to Put It In Now' and Other Incriminating Sentences Uttered by Renowed Star Till by fflyhigher for pinecow
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
16 Jul 2025
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“Though I have a rule,” then Till abruptly says, brusquely interrupting his dreams of a spring wedding and three kids that look exactly like his sunbae running around a house in the woods, "I don't pierce virgins.”
Ivan opens his mouth. Closes it.
Opens it again, but before he can blurt out that he'd gladly lose his hardly fought for (by his management) virginity for him, Till seems to realize how his words came out.“I mean!” he rushes in to explain, ears quickly turning red. So cute. Here it is again, that urge to bite chunks of his skin off.
“Piercing virginity. Like. Of being pierced. God. You know what I mean-” he groans.Or, how Ivan first walked on set with a puppy crush and a dream and ended up getting a piercing and a maybe sorta kinda boyfriend along the way.
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02 Aug 2025
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pathetic pathetic otr fluffiness my everything… Ivan’s Special Brand of Strangeness. till sunbae who is trying to hit SO hard. i roll around and giggle every time i read this fic. holds it in my hands and gives it kisses
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let me feel your neck on my hands, darling by melpomeniee
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
19 Jun 2025
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Till hates the way Ivan looks at him.
For a boy so ridiculously expressionless towards other people, there’s something unnerving about the glint in his eyes when he lays down facing him and smiles. It makes his skin crawl, and Till thinks the boy wouldn’t be so friendless if only his fleeting warmth escaped these moments, with them alone together in the grass. Something akin to intimacy hangs heavy in the air. Till does not recognise it; so he chooses to ignore it. He turns away towards the sky.
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01 Aug 2025
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Ivan’s body weight is pinning him to the hospital bed.
“Isn’t it so romantic,” the offender croons, batting his eyelashes like a blushing school-girl,
“That you were the last thing I saw, before I died?”
Parasites take haste and burrow deep into their host’s flesh. Parasites consume all that is good and all that is warm – but only what is necessary – so as to keep their host half-alive.
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22 Jul 2025