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    In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.

    But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.

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    Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Several years into Rozanov’s career, ESPN hires a reporter fluent in Russian.

    Suddenly able to answer questions fluently and with a wide vocabulary, Rozanov’s interviews go viral. Hockey fans around the world get a new look at what they thought about Boston’s #81. This changes not only his public persona, but his whole life.

    Inspired by the look on NBA star Nikola Jokić’s face when he was asked a question in his native Serbian and my own struggles learning a new language.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

    -

    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    “This is not a negotiation.” Deirta Thelyss’s voice cracked the air like a thunderclap, sharp enough that even her ever-bustling flock of attendants twitched. “You will agree to this marriage, or I will have you cast from Den Thelyss for dereliction of duty. Is that clear?”

    Essek held himself stiffly, his shoulders rising in affront. A dangerous lapse of control, considering the woman standing before him, and one he would berate himself for later in the privacy of his tower, but he couldn’t help it. To be bartered off as—as a diplomatic representative of all things. It was absurd, insulting. Was the prestige his accomplishments brought to the den not enough? The Bright Queen herself had awarded him the title of Shadowhand for the advancements he’d made to the field of dunamancy, advancements that had secured countless victories in the war. Why should he have to upend his entire life to accommodate some human he’d never even met?

    Or: A Shadowgast Arranged Marriage AU in Space~

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    02 Feb 2026

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    Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.

    So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.

    Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

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    31 Jan 2026

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    “I feel really good about this kid, I think he could be great on your wing, he just needs some help settling in. Someone to show him the ropes.”

    “Yes.”

    The line went silent for a moment. Ilya wasn’t really sure why his coach felt the need to run this by him.

    “Rozanov,” his coach said at last. “I want him to live with you.”

    Ilya blinked, then nearly shouted into the phone. “What?”

    * * *

    or, Ilya stays in Boston, gets a rookie, and tries to figure out how to make a secret long distance relationship work while there's a Russian teenager in his house

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    26 Jan 2026

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    He thinks the thing that his father hated more than he did Ilya was his inability to control him.

    But even as the colossal fuck-up that his father saw him as—he was brilliant at hockey. The best that his coaches had ever seen. He thinks it is the only semi-reedamable quality that his father sees in him. But even that had not made Grigori Rozanov want to look at him.
     

    (Or, Ilya Rozanov learns how to be loved.)

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    25 Jan 2026

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    September 2015

    Ilya Rozanov is fine. He comes back from summer in Russia a little worse for the wear, with minor injuries sustained during an argument with his brother. It’s nothing he hasn’t dealt with before. Except someone takes a photo, and suddenly his bruises are all over the internet.

    He just has to get through the first preseason game against Montreal. Once the public sees he can play normally, scrutiny will die down.

    He doesn’t account for a far more private scrutiny: Shane Hollander is on the Voyageurs roster and, against all expectations, determined to get to the bottom of what happened to Ilya in Moscow.

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    25 Jan 2026

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    He wanted to take it back instantly. Wanted to swallow his name down, down, down, shove it back into his heart where he’s been hiding it for - god - years. He wanted to go back in time a few seconds, to just before the moment when he ruined it all. He’d call him Hollander, instead. He’d whisper something sweet in Russian so Shane would never know - so Ilya could speak his feelings into existence without Shane hearing them.

    He’d do anything at all to fix it.

     

    (Or, Shane leaves. Then he comes back.)

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    23 Jan 2026

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    Ilya died, yes, but then the doctors saved him. Cardiopulmonary resuscitation in the ambulance, three electric shocks, two emergency surgeries, twenty-six units of blood. Ilya died, but then he came back.

    If only Shane could get his subconscious to understand that.

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    20 Jan 2026

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    "We're setting you up with a billet situation," Fletcher continued. "It's pretty common for first-year players, especially international guys. Gives you a chance to settle in, learn the city, have someone looking out for you."

    "Okay," Ilya said slowly, not entirely sure what a billet was, but not wanting to admit his ignorance.

     He could guess from the context – he’d heard of rookies being assigned to live with older single players, veterans who could show them the ropes. Maybe that was what Fletcher meant. Connors maybe, he was probably a handful of years older than Ilya. Or perhaps Becker. Ilya just hoped it was someone who–

    "You'll be staying with Nikolai Petrov and his family."

    The words hit Ilya like a punch to the gut. For a moment, he forgot how to breathe.

    "Petrov?" he managed, his voice coming out strangled.
    __________________________________________________________________

    The Bears decide that Ilya should be set up with a billet for his first season. The idea of spending a year living with a man that Ilya is sure hates him is completely terrifying. And yet, it ends up being the best thing to ever happen to him.

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    18 Jan 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov was starting to think about coming out, eventually, sometime in the future. He just never imagined it would come like this. On the morning of his first game after his father’s death, Ilya’s estranged brother makes good on a final act of cruelty, leaking a years-old sex tape and outing him to the world. As the media explodes and his career teeters on the edge, Ilya is left to confront grief, betrayal, and the terrifying reality of being exposed without consent.

    Shane picks up the pieces of Ilya's shattered life.

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    18 Jan 2026

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    For one, singular, blissful moment, nothing is wrong when Ilya wakes up.

    And then the bubble pops.

    With something less like a pinprick and more like a gunshot.

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    After Ilya is outed he has to deal with being the only openly queer player in the league, being Russian, and being in love with Hollander even after he ran away all at once. It sucks. He does it anyway.

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    18 Jan 2026

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    Childhood histories.

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    15 Jan 2026

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    “Alright, the shirt is going to have to come off,” Shane says, sliding back. “I can cut it off you or you can take it off yourself.” 

    After a lengthy pause in which Shane is unprofessionally lost in those glittering eyes, the firefighter grabs the hem of his shirt and begins to lift. He stops almost instantly with his elbows crossed over his face and his chiseled abdomen right there for Shane to gawp at, holy shit

    The pained noise the man makes jars Shane back into motion. “Right, okay. My turn,” he mumbles, smoothing the fireman’s hands back onto his lap.

     

    or, emergency medicine au where they fall in love one small disaster at a time

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    15 Jan 2026

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    Ilya thought he could do this alone: defect from Russia, raise his brother's child, play professional hockey, survive the hits that come every game from players paid to destroy his career. He chose the most secure building in the city and tried to be invisible.

    He didn't count on Shane Hollander living next door. Or on his captain figuring out that the brutal checks aren't just hockey—they're targeted. Or on what it would feel like when someone finally insisted on keeping him safe.

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    14 Jan 2026

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    Forty-eight people boarded the charter flight from Raleigh. Only one woke up in a Savannah hospital.

    Ilya Rozanov is the unbreakable Captain of the Ottawa Centaurs. Now, he is also the sole survivor of a tragedy that the NHL would rather treat as a PR nightmare than a massacre. With a shattered body and a ghost team, Ilya finds himself at the center of a corporate conspiracy fueled by blood money.

    But he isn't alone. Shane Hollander has always been his greatest rival. Now, he’s his only anchor. Because sometimes, the only way out is through.

    Complete!

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    14 Jan 2026

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    Ilya feels like he knows everything and nothing about Shane at once. He's a child of Nike, his team always wins Capture-the-flag, he's still in touch with his biological father, and he's obscenely lucky.

    What he doesn't know, is if Shane is the best or the worst person to quest with.

    //
    Aristotle's qualifications for a Greek tragedy include dianoia (thought and introspection) and opsis (spectacle and performance). Shane and Ilya bring both to the table.

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    12 Jan 2026

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    “Ilya,” he clarified, wincing as he swallowed, his throat feeling like he’d eaten a fistful of glass. “I need to call Ilya.”

    He fumbled around for his phone, desperately needing to hear his fiance’s voice. Together, they could figure this out. They’d make a plan. Ilya could drive with his parents from Ottawa and–

    But Ilya wasn’t in Ottawa. He was in Russia.

    No.

    No.

    They’d kill Ilya in Russia. They’d kill him, or arrest him, or– or–

    Oh god, they’d kill him.
    __________________________________________________________________________

    A family emergency means Ilya is in Russia when Hayden's FanMail video ends up on Twitter, outing them to the entire world. It, predictably, ends horribly.

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    10 Jan 2026

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    Ilya’s spent his whole life hiding. Now he wants to go to Pride — their first as a married couple, in their new city, with their new team.

    Shane’s spent his whole career being careful, being quiet, being private about everything that matters.

    But maybe it’s time to stop being so fucking careful.

    (or the one where Ilya buys too many flags, the team shows up in matching shirts, and Shane learns what it feels like to be proud.)

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    05 Jan 2026

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