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    Shane and Ilya broke up. It was the adult, mature decision they made together and moved on from. Except Shane is still Ilya's emergency contact and Ilya's coach just called.

    Ilya had a seizure. Well, seizures. Multiple. He is in the hospital, in the operation block and suddenly Shane is met with the possibility that last words Ilya Rozanov ever heard from him were "Maybe love isn't enough."

    And then complications occur. And Ilya is not waking up.

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    They’d sat on a perfectly ordinary Wednesday afternoon in their perfectly ordinary kitchen, with coffee that had gone cold on the table between them, and calmly dismantled the life they’d built together. One sentence at a time.

    “Maybe we need space.” “Maybe we’re just hurting each other.” “Maybe love isn’t enough.”

    He wants to go back and shove that version of himself against the wall. Shake him until his teeth rattle.

    Love is the only thing that matters when someone is under general anaesthesia and a stranger is touching their brain, Shane thinks wildly. Love is literally the only currency worth anything in a room like this.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander loved Ilya Rozanov, so much that it was going to kill him. He has to make the most of the time he has left after the Olympics, before the roots really take hold.

    AKA your basic Hanahaki Disease fic, full of pining, mild body horror, sex, and eventually some well-earned comfort.

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    29 Jan 2026

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    Hayden cuts himself off at the sound of something he hears so rarely, he’s almost sure he’s imagining it. He scans the room, looking for the source, and sure enough, his eyes land on his target. 

    There, nestled in between two of his teammates on the couch, is Shane Hollander. 

    Laughing. Out loud. Audibly. 

    Like, he’s actually fucking laughing, not the fake laughs he forces out to make other people more comfortable. In fact, he’s laughing so hard, he looks like he might cry, and Hayden would be delighted by the sight of it if he weren’t so fucking concerned. Shane Hollander doesn’t laugh at parties. Shane Hollander barely laughs when he’s actually happy, and he’s never happy at parties. So what gives? 

    Or:

    Shane Hollander accidentally gets very high. That's it, that's the fic.

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    23 Jan 2026

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    “Can you believe it? How the hell did he end up bagging her?” 

    Ilya stared, brain not comprehending what his body already seemed to, that Hollander was dating-

    “Rose fuckin’ Landry! How does the lamest guy in the League-”

    He knew that smile. He thought it was for him, just for him. But it wasn't. 

    “No,” he whispered. His stomach spasmed. 

    “You good, Roz?”

    Why would he- How could he- 

    They were holding hands…

    “Rozanov? What the fuck?”

    He jumped up from the table and stumbled for the front door, just barely making it through before the first mass of petals came up. He heaved as he ran, trying desperately to get away from the pavement, somewhere he could hide what was happening. 

    Unfortunately, his teammates had followed, because of course they would. He saw a photo of Shane Hollander holding hands with a movie star and promptly threw up.

    Who wouldn't be curious?

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    03 Jan 2026

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    Ilya thinks about the last night they spent together, thinks about Shane splayed out on a hotel mattress pleading for his touch, thinks about how they hadn’t even kissed, and it starts as a strange little tickle in the back of his throat. Barely-there. He could ignore it if he wanted.

    Then the intensity grows, flourishes into full-blow irritation, and suddenly he’s sputtering on his Coke and attracting the attention of the woman in the first-class seat across the aisle from him. He thinks it’s just some odd coughing fit, or that he inhaled his soda on accident, so he’s shocked when he feels something soft and smooth and triangular against his tongue.

    It’s not until he spits the object into the napkin he’d received with his drink that he can see what it is: a long, thin, green leaf. A sepal.

    As soon as Ilya realizes what he’s looking at, he’s flooded with dread.

    Ilya's known these feelings were doomed from the start. He never thought they'd literally kill him.

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    02 Jan 2026

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    There had been a tragedy. The Ottawa Centaurs' plane had crashed in northern Georgia, during the course of their flight from Carolina to Tampa. They didn't know much else yet. All NHL activities were suspended for the next seven days.

    Wait, what?

    At seventeen, Shane Hollander met the love of his life. At twenty-nine, gravity took him away.

    Shane wishes he’d died, too.

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    25 Dec 2025

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    What if Ilya's depression got worse before it got better?

    Set after Shane and Ilya's fight in The Long Game.

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    25 Dec 2025

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have conquered the NHL, but their biggest challenge yet is waiting for them at home: a four-month-old named Wyatt who has Ilya’s eyes and Shane’s nose.

    From the terrifying ordeal of six-month vaccinations to the heartache of missing first words over FaceTime, Shane and Ilya navigate the messy, exhausting, and perfect reality of fatherhood. But as the season wears on and the milestones fly by, Ilya realizes that being a legend on the ice is no longer enough.

    The "Long Game" is over, and Ilya is finally ready to claim his prize—not a trophy, but the life waiting for him when the buzzer sounds.

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    22 Dec 2025

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    When Soap takes a bullet mid mission, the effect it has on Ghost isn't what he expected....

    Sure the man would be worried, come to his rescue....

    But to loose himself to his inner Alpha?

    And then scent him?!

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    05 Dec 2025

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    They were warned about what will happen when the honeymoon phase ends -- but they were never warned about how badly they would want to hurt each other.

    They especially weren't warned about how much they'll love it when they do.

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    05 Dec 2025

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    “Simon?”

    Simon slides a book into place before turning around. The man in front of him is lean, worn thin, with bags like dusky thumbprints beneath his eyes. He’s swallowed by the massive black hoodie he’s wearing, his hands wedged deep into his pockets and his shoulders hunched.

    For reasons he cannot begin to understand, Simon wants to crush this man into a tiny ball and then shove him into the mouth that gapes, screaming, around his own starved heart.

    He doesn’t do that, obviously. He’s on the clock.

    Or: Ghost loses his memories and falls in love with his husband, again.

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    01 Dec 2025

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    Morning coffee with Price. Evening food runs with Gaz. Ghost at night. Like clockwork. Like… they’d planned it.

    “You’re takin’ shifts,” Soap said, staring.

    Price didn’t look up. “Aye.”

    “You—what?”

    “Making sure you’re following orders.” He flicked the paper to a new page, as if this was the most mundane admission in the world. “And that you’ve got what you need.”

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    Post-mission downtime turns into a slow unravelling of boundaries, as Soap recovers from a busted knee, and fails to keep his mouth shut. Or: the Poly141 fic I've been promising (re: threatening)

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    30 Nov 2025

  13. Public Bookmark 70

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    It's just two old retired geezers. Easy pickings, right?

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    28 Nov 2025

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    “Aye, I just- fuck, it sounds so stupid-” Soap cut himself off, holding his head in his hands.

    “Nothing you have to say is stupid, Johnny.”

    The Scot peeked out from behind his fingers, another wave of tears welling against his waterline. “Please don’t say I told you so.”

    Ghost blinked and tilted his head. “Never.”

    Soap took a deep breath and straightened up. “Found out Mac cheated on me.”

    Ghost stiffened.

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    Ghost and Soap have been fuck buddies for a while. Soap finds himself a boyfriend. Then a girlfriend. Then a couple more boyfriends after that. Ghost is over it, but he wouldn't dare say anything, not when doing so could take away the time he gets with Johnny between relationships.

    AKA- Ghost is devastated that Soap keeps getting into relationships when Ghost is RIGHT THERE for the taking. Cue emotional constipation and the rest of the Task Force being so sick of their shit.

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    26 Nov 2025

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    Being told to shut up always hurt. More than he suspected it should. Soap once had drunkenly apologized to Gaz for being such a loudmouth, and when Gaz insisted that everyone liked his friendly chattiness, Soap had literally flopped over him in relief and confessed that being told to shut up was like being kicked. No other insult or fight had the same effect on him.

    Except, perhaps, being called useless.

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    25 Nov 2025

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    Soap comes back from surgery high on anesthesia and hits on Ghost thinking he's the most gorgeous thing he's ever seen
    He doesn't remember that Ghost is very much already his husband
    He loses it when he finds out

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    20 Oct 2025

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    “Oh, god. Oh, god, no. Gaz, tell me I didn’t,” Soap whispered, horrified.

    Gaz at least had the good grace to cover his mouth to muffle his laughter. “You absolutely fucking did, mate. Right above your ass,” Gaz informed him, his shoulders shaking with laughter.

    In absolute horror, Soap dashed back to the mirror and turned his back to it. It would be fine. When he looked back at his skin in the mirror, it’d be fine. Nothing would be out of place. There would be absolutely nothing wrong with anything.

    Soap’s jaw fell to the ground with a panicked whimper when he’d turned his head over his shoulder.

    Because, right above his fucking ass like Gaz had said, the name “Simon Riley” was tattooed in neat, mediumly thick letters. Bleeding fucking Christ. He’d gotten a tattoo of Ghost’s name. Above his ass.

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    18 Oct 2025

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    Soap was used to being the odd man out. As the only human on an otherwise entirely-werewolf task force, he’d adjusted to the idea that he wasn’t always in on the joke. Mostly, anyway. There had still been some nasty surprises. But on the whole, he hadn’t been blindsided much by their eccentricities. Sure, they were werewolves, but they were loyal and ruthless and understanding and plain good company. He’d overlook a lot of things for far less.
    This latest, though? This, he wasn’t so sure he could forgive.

    Ghost courts Soap with werewolf mating rituals, and Soap doesn’t notice.

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    17 Oct 2025

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    Soap survives a horrific injury but isn’t sure he wants to.

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    14 Oct 2025

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    John MacTavish thought he was doing decently well in life. Despite giving up his dreams as a professional wrestler due to a knee injury, he was still able to stay close to the sport through his job. He had good coworkers, made enough money to afford a decent place to live, and even got to see his own celebrity crush, Simon "Ghost" Riley, live in the ring.

    Ghost was a wrestling legend, with one of the most impressive track records in recent history, but he was hard to catch. Refused interviews and media press, never attended social athlete events, and never stuck around.

    So, imagine Soap's surprise when he received a call one day, saying that The Ghost was willing to do an interview if Soap was the one conducting it.

    He didn't even do interviews normally!

    Nevertheless, he sure as hell wasn't going to pass on an opportunity like this.

    Little did he know, this decision would change his life drastically.

     

    AKA - A cute, mostly fluffy story of Soap getting with his celebrity crush <3

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    13 Oct 2025

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