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Ilya Rozanov does not come pre-installed with good communication or healthy coping skills. Is he going to seek out help on his own? Hell no! But when a family member kills himself, fellow Boston Raider and friend Cliff Marleau decides that Ilya is going to therapy come hell or high water. And Ilya... well, Ilya is just playing along to keep the peace. Right? He doesn't need therapy. But if it helps his friend be less worried, so be it.
OR: What if Ilya came into the tuna meltdown with slightly upgraded social skills and no one actually ran away before they had a conversation?
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27 Feb 2026
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Shane doesn’t realize he’s braced for silent eyes until he feels the absence of it — the weight of teammates immediately finding him and going quiet, waiting for him to fuck up, to say the wrong thing, to exist wrong. He expects the chatter of a room to drop when he enters and its disconcerting to find it doesn't yet in Ottawa.
He stands at the entrance a beat too long.
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It’s the start of Shane Hollander’s first season in Ottawa and he should be settled. The Centaurs are friendly, the room is easy, and Ilya is finally close enough to touch. But, as Shane is intimately aware of, old habits learned the hard way will linger.
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25 Feb 2026
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i'm fine, and you? by doorway (glossedmouth)
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
22 Jan 2026
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"Where is your family from in Japan?"
Shane's face split into a sweet smile. Why had Ilya not fucking asked this question before in all these years of knowing, dating and now being married to Shane Hollander? His husband was blooming like a flower, happy that Ilya was showing so much interest in his heritage culture. Ilya had to do better by this man. He was going to do better.
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Shane and Yuna shut down whenever Ilya tries to ask anything about Japanese culture. So Ilya keeps trying.
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24 Feb 2026
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Drowning Tide by Quarry19
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Jan 2026
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Shane has dealt with anxiety his whole life, he's pretty sure he was born this way. Unfortunately, that doesn't mean he always deals with it in the best way. He doesn't do it often, less since he and Ilya started whatever it is they were doing for the last decade. After all its harder to hide with Ilya's wandering hands. That doesn't mean it isn't inevitable, the control, the strict ritual, of it is unmatched. It's just been a hard week and anxiety has been buzzing beneath his skin too long and there's a box in his closet he can't stop thinking about. Ilya isn't here to stop him. Its inevitable.
This is me projecting my own experience of anxiety onto Shane Hollander.
Trigger Warning: Self-Harm. This was written as a way to prevent my own self-harm relapse and is based off my own experience with anxiety-driven self harm. I don't want to trigger anyone else into hurting themselves so please be aware and take care of yourselves. Be kind to yourself.
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24 Feb 2026
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How to Build a Legacy by kmart1885
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Feb 2026
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Shane knows the plan to wait to come out until they retire isn't ideal, but he doesn't have a better one. He thinks that he and Ilya can make it work, until his mom points out how long they will have to live their lives in the shadows.
But once he realizes that, he immediately knows that he can't come out. It would ruin his legacy.
He's pretty sure that's why he doesn't want to come out. No other reason. Right?
He is sure that's all it is until Ilya asks him if he would be safe if he came out. And he can't answer.
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or Yuna does the math on the retirement plan and when she points this out it opens Shane's eyes.
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also known as this author had (1) idea for a scene and had to reverse engineer a multi-chapter fic to make it happen.
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23 Feb 2026
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a sound is still a sound around no one by dykeries
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Feb 2026
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Shane lifts one eyelid again to look at Rozanov. His eyes are red-rimmed. Like he’s been crying. “Why…why aren’t you in Boston?”
Rozanov’s brow furrows. “Why would I be in Boston?”
“You, you’re captain. Raiders. Boston.”
The room is silent except for the beeping of monitors.
In 2023, Shane takes a bad hit on the ice. When he wakes up, the last thing he remembers is a tuna melt.
There’s a lot to get used to.
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20 Feb 2026
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Three messages come through from Hayden:
I'm so fucking sorry Mnan
Are you OK????
CALL ME!!!!'Which is concerning enough that Shane does.
Or: Hayden accidentally publishes a FanMail video that outs Shane. (No, not that one.)
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16 Feb 2026
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Uncomfortable Firsts by Rhythm_of_Yaoism (Rhythm_of_Lesbianism)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
30 Jan 2026
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Shane internally grapples with what it might mean to have overlapping marginalized identities.
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16 Feb 2026
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Someone’s posted a shaky video from the stands, just behind the whole altercation. It’s close enough to catch the snarl on Rozanov’s face as he charges up the steps. He’s so pretty, Shane thinks faintly. The video starts too late to show what set him off, but it catches the tail end of what the man is yelling, the things he's saying about Shane, before pivoting to calling Rozanov a cunt and bitch and a pussy instead.
Rozanov drops his gloves for Shane. He wishes he could just be grateful, but it feels a little bit like the end of the world.
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16 Feb 2026
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terminal uniqueness by blossominribcage
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 Jan 2026
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Shane didn’t have an eating disorder— he wasn’t some teenage girl who saw a fat reflection staring back at her in the mirror. He just had a strict, nutritionist-monitored, macrobiotic diet that helped him maintain control when life felt unmanageable, which caused him enormous amounts of shame and distress whenever he broke it. That was totally different, and he really did not appreciate Ilya’s insinuations to the contrary.
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- Part 5 of ilya and shane’s silly adventures
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12 Feb 2026
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One for the Road by PastyPirate
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Jan 2026
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“You can’t go two weeks without fucking me anyways,” Shane heard himself saying, and instantly felt like he’d chosen the wrong dialogue option. He should’ve said something like I’d like to see all the ways you can figure it out or maybe not sharing a room has never stopped us before.
Ilya let out a laugh, “Please, you beg for me all the time.”
“I’m not the one who can’t go more than a day without jerking off —” shut up Hollander, SHUT UP “I can totally go two weeks without fucking.”
The Centaurs do a rotational room program for their first road trip of the season. Which would be fine if Ilya and Shane could be professionals.
Shane starts a fight and gets a Dick Trick, Ilya is a mastermind, Bood becomes an Queer Icon, Troy has no idea what's going on, Hayes is having the time of his life, and no one wants to talk about the showers thing anymore.
Now with Prequel, but stands alone.
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- Part 2 of On The Road Again
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11 Feb 2026
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a secret to yourself by rhodenia
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
07 Feb 2026
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When you’re in love with someone as beautiful as Shane Hollander, you get used to being jealous.
God, do you ever.
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08 Feb 2026
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Shane finds a new family in Ottawa. It just takes him a bit.
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- Part 2 of like a bright new dream
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08 Feb 2026
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Support by Eye_of_the_Dragon
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
29 Dec 2025
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In which Shane struggles after the events of the Long Game, and life doesn't get as easy as everyone hoped , and years of secrecy and fear do not go away overnight.
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07 Feb 2026
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Worst Proposal Ever by RayByAnotherName
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Jan 2026
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A locked folder from Shane's phone ends up on the internet for everyone to see, including his teammates. It certainly undercuts their victory against the Bears, but it'll all turn out right. Eventually.
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06 Feb 2026
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baby, put some faith in me (i want you to violate me) by sargeantwoof
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Jan 2026
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The thing about sex with Ilya Rozanov is that Shane can’t chill out about it.
The predator that lurks under his skin is unable to settle, fighting endlessly against his hands, his touch, the feeling of his fingers curling at the nape of his neck. It's always a fight, even when Shane tries to be good, some sharp-tongued creature stirring in his chest, his instincts fired up and honed on the ice.
Ilya, he thinks, enjoys it.
OR: Shane's rut arrives. So does his bloodthirstiness. And, even worse, his honesty.
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- Part 12 of heated rivalry masterlist
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05 Feb 2026
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lone star by intertwingular
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
17 Jan 2026
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Could you mourn something you never wanted?
Shane and Ilya are figuring that out.
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29 Jan 2026
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Shane Hollander knows he’s not a small guy. Years of hockey and workouts have built up his muscles, and lucky genetics from his father’s side places him just shy of six feet. He’s checked hockey players half a foot and several pounds more than him, knocked Scott Hunter into the ice in the one fight he’s ever actually thrown hands in. But as much as Shane loves the game, the fast movements, passes, and team camaraderie, there were times where he could only feel regret at following the path of athletic fame. He puts on the media smile he practices in the mirror as he brushes his hair each day, uses the bright lights of press conferences to erase his view of the audience, and keeps his answers simple and focused on hockey.
The number of people outside the arena still makes him feel crushed in on all sides, small. Eyes trained on his face, cameras flashing, pens and cell phones being passed into his hands. The itch of it all settles under his skin.
@OttawaPoliceDispatch: Police have been dispatched to a house alarm in Galetta, On. Possible break in, destruction of property.
@OttawaOfficialPoliceDepartment: Recent Missing Persons Report filed for Shane William Hollander at 9:25 pm
Epilogue: 3/1
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29 Jan 2026
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there I saw you standing (must have been a holy light) by nobodyknows11
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Jan 2026
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There’s a sudden cacophony of yells. As Shane turns to find the source of the noise, the only thing he can see is red splattered across the ice and a #81 jersey.
For an absurd moment, all he can think is “my parents are at this game. Hayden and Jackie are in the stands. Thank god the kids aren’t here.”
He doesn’t remember moving, but the next thing he knows, he’s kneeling in a pool of blood with his hands on Ilya’s neck, certain that he was about to die.
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21 Jan 2026
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Being a beta has always meant safety for Shane Hollander. No expectations, no instincts, no distractions from hockey.
Unfortunately, he meets Ilya Rozanov.
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- Part 1 of alpha/beta hollanov
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17 Jan 2026