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    “I will be quick,” Ilya’s voice was unusually quiet. “I wanted to ask…”
    “What?” Shane imagined all manner of questions. How are you? Will you ever get better? Is this the life you’re living now, really? Shane fucking Hollander, podcaster? Aren’t you ashamed of this pathetic existence?
    “I wanted to ask you out.”
    Shane’s brain stopped. He blinked. He might have swayed. “Out where?”
    “Out on date.”
    “What?”

    Years later, after winning cups that should have gone to Montreal, Ilya hears Shane Hollander's voice again. On the popular podcast Man in the Crease.

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    11 May 2026

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    At first, Ilya was reckless with it.

    He would find an open expanse of skin and scratch with his nails until he drew blood. Find a sharp object and grip it till his hand starts to ooze red down his wrists. Skating more aggressively, hoping to get hit back with so much force he blacked out.

    It started when he was twelve, after his mother died.

    After a few years of getting used to his new team and eventually becoming captain, his cutting morphed into something more punishing and less noticeable, or at least he thought. Drinking himself to the point that no memories of the night before stuck with him. Taking women and men up on their offers to fuck despite feeling disgusted with himself after the deed was done. Entertaining a group of party goers by doing a line with them, although he himself never had an interest in coke.

    However, something did change throughout the years. He took on a more regular hookup. Someone who had the chance to see his body more than once, someone who could remember his body, someone who had the chance to see what Ilya had done to himself.

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  3. Public Bookmark 54

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    Ilya and Shane are outed years earlier, becoming the first queer NHL players when they are 20.

    Somehow, Scott Hunter suffers the most. 

    Featuring: Ilya's gaydar accuracy rate, Scott Hunter's reluctant and mostly unsuccessful mentorship of a nightmare rookie, and said rookie's reluctant and shockingly less unsuccessful mentorship of a nightmare rookie.

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    10 May 2026

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    "Jane" gets added to the Centaures WAGs chat shortly after Ilya moves to Ottawa. Maybe a group of girl friends is exactly what Shane needs in the face of hardship

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    09 May 2026

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