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    just a random collection of small moments and ideas

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  1. Rec 29

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    He’d thought, at first, that the pounding adrenaline and the feverish gratifying sensation of being straddled and hurt was bloodlust. The way his entire nervous system would tingle from a crack across the jaw, or an arm around his neck, folding him inwards. Trying to kill him.

    Bloodlust wasn’t the extent of it.

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    12 Nov 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 36

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    “Get it out of your system before Saturday if you don’t want a whole stadium to know what gets you off.”

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    Dress rehearsal before MCR Seattle. Frank has a lot of feelings about the execution hood.

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    28 Jul 2025

  3. Rec 13

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    They’re passing another exit, this one brightly lit and overcrowded with gas stations and fast food joints, and Vic can see the curve of Kellin’s throat illuminated blue and purple by neon lights, see them shift like stage lights as he swallows.

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    There's a two-hour drive between Seattle and Ridgefield. Vic rents a car.

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    17 Jul 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 14

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    Being backstage for somebody else’s set was like sitting in your friend’s kitchen while they cook dinner. Nobody else keeps their shit in exactly the places you do, so the whole operation looks uncanny-valley. Even Sirens had reorganized as the members turned over, and Vic used to be able to navigate their weird-ass setup blindfolded. That wasn’t a metaphor, by the way.

     

    The When We Were Young festival schedule lines up perfectly for Vic and Kellin to carry on their annual tradition of singing King for a Day together behaving like horny twenty-somethings backstage.

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    04 Jun 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 22

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    “Here,” Anthony pulls a cigarette out of the carton and hands it to Frank, who accepts it gladly, then takes another one out for himself, “for your troubles.” He lights Frank’s before his own, feeling Frank’s eyes on him as he breathes in, watches the cherry glow to life, still silent. Trying to find the words. They’re both leaning against the cool metal of the bus, but Frank’s turned towards him, hips canted forward. It’s fucking maddening.

    “So, what’s up, then?” Frank finally asks. “Not gonna ditch you now, ‘cause you let me bum a cig off of you and it’d be an asshole move of me to just leave right after, but, um.” He gestures loosely with his cigarette hand. “What can I do for you?”

    Anthony exhales slowly, tracks the curl of smoke into the air until it dissipates, then mumbles, “I’m gonna tell you something really fucking crazy and you’re just gonna have to believe me.”

    (Anthony falls asleep in 2024 next to the love of his life, and wakes up in a world that might as well have been a lifetime ago. The situation is less than ideal.)

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    08 Mar 2025