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Rite Beneath the Radiance by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Ember & Ice (Audio Drama)
23 Jan 2026
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Shane is well aware of his position. His life revolves around discipline, study, and training. He can’t risk indulgences. His mother is the crown ruler of the Lunare kingdom. A kingdom he will one day rule.
Prince Ilya Rozanov on the other hand has an older brother, and is not next in line for the throne. He can drink and fuck and dance like he has not a care in the world.
Like he has freedom.
Shane would love just a taste.
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The Stars Incline Us, They Do Not Bind Us by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: 富豪刑事 Balance:UNLIMITED | Fugou Keiji: Balance:Unlimited (Anime)
13 Aug 2022
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Haru should never underestimate his father’s capability for cruelty. “I can inform the MCPTF that Haru Kato is an omega and by legal statute cannot work there anymore. I can also inform them that Haru Kato is not actually Haru Kato.” Haru paled as his father continued. “I can ruin your precious fake little life.”
And, the panic began to set in. The panic that had been bubbling in his chest for hours, for months, for years.
He’s been caught. All Haru wanted was to live a simple life, it was an incredibly naive thing to think he could have that.
After striking a deal with his father to keep his life as Haru Kato, Haru struggles to keep both of his identities separate from one another. It isn’t until they both begin to collide due to none other than Kambe Daisuke, that everything starts to go to shit.
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Until It Wasn’t by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: The Flash (TV 2014), The Flash - All Media Types
20 Apr 2018
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“We’re going to be okay, Michael.” He whispers to his son. His son who is terrified and shaking, trying so hard to stifle the sobs that threatened to spill from his lips.
He hears Michael sniffle, “H-how do you know?”
Hurry, Len.
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- Part 2 of ColdFlash Week 2018
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Water Is For Washing. Vino Tinto Is For Drinking. by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandoms: The Flash (TV 2014), The Flash - All Media Types
18 Apr 2018
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“I was a good kid, then I spent two years in Iron Heights,” Barry paused shaking his head and sneered, “I wasn’t a good kid after that.”
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- Part 1 of ColdFlash Week 2018
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Ever since he was a kid, the only way he ever felt better was when there was a blade pressed against his wrist and blood dripping on the floor.
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ColdFlash Week 2018 by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
Fandom The Flash (TV 2014), The Flash - All Media Types
20 Apr 2018
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He’s already in the room, shutting the door behind himself as quietly as he can before he realises that not only is there someone other than Shane in the room, but there are three someones other than Shane.
And, as if he hasn’t already fucked up spectacularly, the someones happen to be the Hollanders and Hayden fucking Pike.
// or; Ilya visits Shane in the hospital and meets his parents. He's traumatized and grieving, everything hurts, and Shane takes after his mother.
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30 Jan 2026
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won't be alone for the rest of my life by daydreamnelson
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
06 Jan 2026
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When Coach Wiebe suggests that Luca Haas should move in with Ilya for a while, as both of them seem lonely, Ilya nearly loses his mind. Not only does this mean he will see Shane even less than before, but it also means that the Centaurs have realised that Ilya's mental health is suffering. The worst part is that when Ilya tells Shane about it, Shane actually supports the idea, saying that it might be good for Ilya and Luca.
Turns out it's the second-best thing that has ever happened to Ilya.
or: ilya basically adopts luca aka the ottawa found family trope we all need.
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30 Jan 2026
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ilyuca81 (otherwise known as lucarozanov) by Anonymous
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
04 Jan 2026
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lucarozanov
if shane hollander gets mad at me reading about him getting blasted in the ass then he can check his bank account. i know ilya would be chill with it though
Luca Haas tries very hard to not let anyone know about his dark (read: embarrassing) past. Unfortunately, the fans are ready to let people know for him.
Or, Luca used to run a tumblr blog for Hollanov and the internet goes wild.
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30 Jan 2026
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I chose you by Justaromanticfool
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
19 Oct 2025
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Ilya let himself soften into it. He’d missed this, the simple camaraderie between teammates. He did feel lonely, but in some ways he felt safer with this team, and Shane had given him that, it was because of Shane that he moved to Ottawa. All the good things in his life curved back to Shane. Looking around, he tried to imagine him here, not Shane Hollander the hockey player, but his Shane, the man who made the darkest rooms feel like home. He felt suddenly certain that they would welcome him with love and respect. And, God help him, he was still hoping like an idiot that Shane would walk through the door.
Ilya tightened his grip on his roasting stick, jaw set, trying to divert his thoughts back to the present, when a ripple went through the group. Conversation dipped, then stopped completely.
“Um… what the fuck,” Dillon muttered, eyes flicking toward the house. “Is that Shane Hollander?”
Or Shane decides to go get his man after seeing Ilya’s instagram post in Chap.23 of TLG.
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30 Jan 2026
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u and me at home by residentrookie
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
23 Jan 2026
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There is no version of Shane that would ever have felt safe and comfortable enough to try recreational drugs before Ilya came along. This is perhaps not the pinnacle of romance to most, but for Shane, it’s a sure sign that he’s a total fucking lost cause.
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Shane gets high again, but this time it's on purpose, at the cottage and with Ilya. aka HIGH!SHANE THE SEQUEL!
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- Part 2 of high on loving you
Bookmarked by Mei_MyselfandI (maymyselfandi)
30 Jan 2026