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  1. Public Bookmark 52

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    “I climb twenty flights to show you the solar eclipse, and it’s, oh, bye, I must return to my boring book about—

    “Eclipse? You said—“

    “I said there is a reward at the top. What did you think I mean?”

    Maybe Ilya’s hands and mouth on him? Maybe his dirty words printed at Shane’s navel and a smile before they took a risk? Shane blushes.


     
    or: Shane is passionate. He just doesn’t know what about.

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    31 Jan 2026

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    After a mix-up leaves Hayden with the wrong phone for three days, he ends up learning more about Ilya Rozanov and his secret girlfriend, Jane.

    Another Hayden-Finds-Out, because we can't have too many.

    *now with the extra continuing Hayden-Rozanov friendship text threads*

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    31 Jan 2026

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    Shane and Ilya grow up and grow older in hockey locker rooms, where communal showers and homophobia are simple facts of life. This is a love letter to the experience of closeted queer puberty, and to all the weird parts about growing up as an athlete.

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    22 Jan 2026

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    Shane is still learning that he doesn't have to be perfect in his own relationship. Ilya is still learning the rules of Shane's bad days. So when Shane tries to push him away after a crushing loss, it leads to a tense argument. But ten years of rivalry are no match for Shane’s tears; the second he starts to cry, Ilya folds like a house of cards.

    Or: Shane tries to starve himself as punishment for losing, Ilya tries to feed him, and it turns into a very soft night of pampering because Ilya is legally incapable of staying angry at a crying Shane.

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    20 Jan 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    Nobody knows why Shane Hollander dropped out of the 2009 draft at the last second, and a year later it stuns the whole hockey world when he's signed by the Boston Raiders. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston - but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    09 Jan 2026