Hazel_Love



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    Shane and Ilya already know each other’s bodies, habits, and scars. Yet, there are still things to be discovered in marriage. Music becomes the place where Shane still hides, and where Ilya realizes there are rooms in his husband's mind he hasn’t unlocked, not because Shane kept them secret, but because no one ever asked to listen.

    or; Shane Hollander's music choices and Ilya's discovery of Shane's autism and their shared experiences post-cannon.

    Here is the Spotify Playlist for anyone interested!
    https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2t9O9XqtauF0q0XeB0yVoC?si=xfXmI9OnTXyuoQDRhJDD9A&pi=obZKC4olTduKH

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    Buck had lost-- he was sure of this now. His resolve only lasted a few weeks before his exterior began to crack; he was never a very good actor. He couldn’t keep up the greetings and the asking questions and the easy stroll. He let his shoulders creep up to his ears, let his foot tap incessantly. He did what his Captain told him, but stopped asking for anything more. Stopped following the conversation in the back of the engine on the way to the call; he just stared out the window, thinking about the case to come, preparing for it. When he woke every morning, there was no big recovery milestone to strive for, no big fight for the soul of his career to win. Not even the happy swell of being back on shift -- something so easy to dismiss, that had dominated so much of his life, that he had taken for granted-- that had catalyzed him each morning of his first week back.
    An old habit of his had returned. A bad habit.

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    or: after the lawsuit, buck confronts what it was he wanted all along. he looks and looks and longs for it; the team looks right through him. buck breaks-- right down the middle.

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    06 Aug 2025

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    Spring had officially sprung in Los Angeles, and baby fever infects one of LA’s finest, one firefighter Eddie Diaz.

    He couldn’t stop thinking about having a kid with Buck if he tried, and maybe the universe doesn’t want him to based on the countless cute babies that keep winding up in his big arms.

    Not that he believes in that kinda thing.

    But he can’t tell Buck that, he could never ask him to leave work for nearly a year, so soon after he literally lost his mind. So he does the normal thing and keeps it in the same mental lock box he used to keep his feelings for Buck in.

     

    Meanwhile, somethings up with two out of three of Bobby’s kids and he needs to get to the bottom of it.

    (AKA the 6A rewrite where Buck is pregnant instead of doing that donor storyline, now fully complete + epilogue)

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    16 Jun 2025

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    buck: i’m seventeen and AFRAID of bobby nash

    eddie: What? You’re thirty-two?

    ravi: i’m seventeen and AFRAID of eddie’s internet illiteracy 

    Or: Buck terrorizes the 118's GC.

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    26 Dec 2024

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    Eddie pulls back from him with a half-confused, half-concerned furrow in between his eyebrows. “Buck?”

    Buck sags against the wall. “Sorry,” he says, wiping the back of his forearm against his forehead in a mixture of frustration and newfound exhaustion. “Sorry.”

    A thumb swipes across his cheekbone, searching eyes boring into his. “Buck. What’s wrong?”

    Buck closes his eyes, then blinks them open. “Nothing,” he says, because he doesn’t know how to tell the truth. He doesn’t know what the truth even is. “Everything’s, uh—everything’s fine. I just—” he chews on his lip. “I was just thinking that, uh, maybe we shouldn’t go any further tonight? You know, not with Christopher in the house.”

    in which buck is avoiding having sex with eddie.

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    25 Dec 2024