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All Dean Winchester knows is repression. At no time in his life has he ever felt safe to explore his attraction to other men. He has all but convinced himself that it doesn't exist--that heterosexuality is the only option. But try to deny it as he might, Castiel's presence in the bunker is a mounting reminder that he will never be the man his father wanted him to be. He doesn't know how much longer he can keep the charade...or even if he wants to anymore.
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30 Jun 2025
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Formerly titled just War. Sequel to Fallen Angel. It's been a month since Cas returned and Team Free Will 3.0 are settling to their new routine. But of course, there is always one more job. And it's never easy.
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- Part 2 of Angels & Hunters
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26 Jun 2025
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From the top of his 29 years-old, Castiel Novak has everything he could ever wish for. His band has been successful enough for the past decade that he's traveled the world several times, can have anyone he wants in bed every night, and can fund his sins without a blink of an eye. On top of that, he has plenty of friends and some resemblance of a family left.
That’s until Castiel’s twin brother dies in a tragic car accident, leaving him the sole legal guardian of Jack, his 2-year-old nephew, and Claire, his 7-year-old niece. Castiel has always been a great uncle, but there’s a difference between being the cool uncle they see once a week, and being a parent. How is he supposed to deal with this, on top of his own grief, and to keep the band and what’s linked to it running?
Enter Dean Winchester, experienced personal assistant who's basically seen it all already. But will he be enough to keep Cas clean, and his new family safe?
Between growing friendships that blossom into something else, maintaining sobriety and making sure the kids are happy and cared for, what could go wrong?
Everything.
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03 Jan 2025
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Slowly, Mystery Man raises his head. And when his eyes meet Dean’s again, they are so full that Dean is nearly leveled by it. Just. There’s love there, affection, fondness, all in that haunted cornflower blue. They’re greedy, too, like they’re consuming every detail. Dean forgets to breathe. “You sure this guy ain’t dead?” he manages. “Cause you’re looking at me like the last time you saw his mug was ten years ago.”
Mystery Man inhales sharply but doesn’t so much as blink. “He’s very much alive. He made pancakes this morning.” No further elaboration.
“Right…” Dean says a little awkwardly. “Well, since this is happening, apparently, what’s your name?”
Now, Mystery Man hesitates, frowns. Finally, he says, “My name is Cas.”
or the one where dean is at a bar in 2005 and he gets a visit from a stranger who feels familiar but he cant figure out why
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14 Dec 2024
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i want to do with you (what spring does with cherry trees) by sobsicles
Fandoms: Supernatural
29 Apr 2021
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Dean keeps going back.
When he arrives, it's always to blooming flowers and a windmill in the background, not too far from a brook, the sun painting the plains.
He likes it there. He likes to stand in front of the makeshift urn and check that it's still where he put it, switching out the flowers when they wilt. He likes to listen to the sound of birds chirping, insects singing, the faint sound of water trickling in the distance. He likes to turn his face up and feel the sun on his skin, wondering if Cas would do the same if he were here, somehow knowing that he would.
He likes to talk.
There's never a response, but Dean feels the breeze rustle through his hair and watches the flowers bob when bees come to them and stares as the windmill keeps turning, turning, turning. And he imagines that Cas is replying—the windmill is the tilted head, the bobbing flowers are a gentle smile, the breeze is whatever words Dean wants to hear at the time.
Sometimes, it's almost like he's there.
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14 Dec 2024
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After a long time spent out of touch, Olivia Benson hears that Rafael Barba is back living in New York. She finds out that he has renovated a brownstone in Brooklyn, where he now resides with his dog, Bruno. Olivia finds her curiosity piqued.
Following a chance encounter at a choir service, Noah seems eager to welcome Rafael back into both of their lives. Amanda and Carisi both offer their support and encouragement, and Olivia soon finds herself reconnecting with Rafael.
Gradually, they become closer and she lets herself begin to imagine a new life they could share together, as a couple. As they grow closer, however, Elliot Stabler makes a reappearance, still carrying a torch for Olivia.
This is a story with a Barba/Benson endgame perspective.
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- Part 1 of Coming Back to You
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25 Nov 2024
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When Captain Benson fails to show up for work, and Noah Benson is absent from school without explanation, friends and colleagues mobilize to find them.
This is a Barson-ish* tale, but one still trying to fit into canon (as of early in season 26), so some repair of the Benson/Barba estrangement is of course necessary before the story gets fully underway. When I wrote my first Barson fic a couple of months ago, I deliberately avoided reading others in that ship so that I wouldn't be accidentally influenced. But now I've read a bunch of them (there's a lot of daaaaammmnnn good writers in this fanverse), and have decided to be a little different from how many of us (including me) have handled the reconciliation. Olivia is not going to apologize in this one for feeling what she feels. Explain, maybe. Apologize? No.
*Forget the “ish.” The later chapters are full-on Barson.
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23 Nov 2024
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"I'm Cas," he says, "Castiel." Dean raises his eyebrows: "Cas? Castiel? Don't think I've met any Castiels before."
Cas smiles and turns back to the door: "Novak. Castiel Novak. Don’t think I've met any Deans before either." He pulls the door open: "Nice to meet you, Dean," and walks inside.
"Winchester. Dean Winchester," Dean says to the closed door.
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23 Nov 2024
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“I felt I had met you in some other life. Known you in some other place. I was compelled to return to you. I don’t have an answer about why..."
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19 Nov 2024
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And Dean drives, past neon church signs and oversized American flags waving from utility poles. He drives to the motel he had checked into this morning, where the woman at the front desk had smiled and said “God bless” as she handed him the key to the one-bed room where Dean is dragging a fallen, ruined angel to anything but redemption.
(Takes place during the nighttime gap in Episode s09e06 Heaven Can't Wait)
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- Part 14 of Toward Despair
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12 Nov 2024
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The Soul Burns Brighter Than The Sun by Wow_thisiswheremylifeis
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
22 Jan 2024
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Dean’s sitting at the kitchen table with Sam when his phone rings. Jody’s name flashes across the screen and he considers not picking up. It’s not like Dean doesn’t want to talk to Jody, it's just that he can’t bear talking to anyone these days.
“Hi, Jody,” Sam says.
“Howdy, boys.” She asks them to take over a case. Something about werewolves. Dean doubts they will, Sam hasn’t let him pick up a gun in months, not since their last hunt.
Jody’s voice cuts through the phone. “Alright, if you boys don’t wanna take the case, I’ll see if Castiel will, but I think he’s helping Claire in Colorado–”
Dean doesn’t hear a damn thing after that, and by the looks of it, Sam doesn’t either. For the first time in days, Dean opens his mouth and speaks. “Cas is alive?”
Jody’s voice is quiet on the other end. “He didn’t tell you?”
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- Part 1 of The Soul Burns
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17 Oct 2024
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Sweet is the Dream that Leads Me to You by Say_It_In_Enochian, vermillionlady
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
16 Sep 2023
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From a crumbling fortress hidden in a deep green wood, Castiel watches a world he is destined never to join. It’s a solitary existence but he is, for the most part, content. The companionship of his friends, the wolf and the crow, is enough.
At least, it has been, for as long as he can remember. Until one night the unthinkable happens and a strange man finds his way into Castiel’s sanctuary. A man whose presence makes his heart seem to beat for the first time…who makes him begin to question everything about his strange secluded world.
As one of King Arthur’s most trusted warriors, Dean’s future was bright and his path clearly laid out for him. He would be knighted, then married, fulfilling his obligation to his father and the destiny John had chosen for him.
It seemed a perfectly good plan, until the night Dean dreams of a young man with full lips and kind eyes….eyes that make him want to cast destiny aside and live in his dreams.
Can Cas convince Dean he’s not just a dream? Can Dean defy his father and choose his own destiny? And can they both solve the mystery of Castiel’s curse before it threatens their love and Camelot’s future?
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- Part 1 of Sweet is the Dream - Verse
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14 Oct 2024
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Dean Winchester has finally made it to the big time in his singing career. But after a break-in at his house and an increasing amount of death threats, his manager puts her foot down and hires a bodyguard. Castiel Novak and his team are some of the best at what they do, but when the demons are closer than expected, things go wrong in the worst of ways…
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03 Sep 2024
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Not everything goes according to plan - that's what Army Rangers Olivia Benson and Rafael Barba have to learn the hard way as they're separated from their units behind the enemy lines.
Collaboration with CUtopia.Bookmarked by JenParis
13 Jul 2024
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Rafael Barba has always fought for the victim, but what will happen when he becomes a victim?
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22 Jun 2024
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Lawyers' Christmas Party (previously "Barisi fic #2") by adrianna_m_scovill
Fandoms: Law & Order: SVU
30 Dec 2017
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Carisi feels a little out of place at his first lawyer/judge Christmas party, and he can't help but notice the way Barba seems to jump to his defense all evening.
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22 May 2024
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The Plot Bunnies of Barba and Benson by georgiamagnolia
Fandom Law & Order, Law & Order: SVU
29 Oct 2023
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03 May 2024
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Stories from my SVU Coffee Shop universe - it all started with ''take a shot of you and me".
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28 Apr 2024
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"Hello young man."
"Hi Santa," Noah grinned brightly.
"What do you want for Christmas?"
"I want Uncle Rafa to be my daddy," he answered seriously.
Would a wish from Noah be the thing that pushes Rafael and Olivia together or would it drive them apart?
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27 Apr 2024
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Rafael finally manages to take Liv out for that dinner, after a long time apart. But that's only the beginning.
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- Part 1 of Locked-down
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07 Apr 2024