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Staring at the Sun by Nerve_Itch
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
31 Mar 2026
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The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating.
The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice.
“I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”
Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.
“Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"
Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little.
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Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.Bookmarked by Monarda
31 Mar 2026
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A Danger to Yourself or Others by onetrueharem
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Mar 2026
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Galina stopped writing to look at Ilya. "Do you think he'd be willing to talk to you next time it happens, even if it's late?"
Ilya's stomach turned over. He didn't even want to consider it, but he knew the answer. "Yes. But he silences his phone at night."
"Most phones these days have an option to let certain numbers ring through, even on Do Not Disturb. Do you think he'd be open to setting that up for you?"
Imagining that conversation made Ilya nauseous. Yes, no fucking doubt, Shane would be open to it if Ilya explained the reason. "I'm not going to ask him to do that."
Set during The Long Game, an alternate version where the plane scene doesn't happen. Instead, there's this: a car crash, a therapist's duty to report, and an urgent reckoning with priorities.
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31 Mar 2026
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Canada Day by frondsanemones
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Mar 2026
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June 2018. Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are about to execute the first step of their ten-year plan, with Ilya signing with the Ottawa Centaurs when free agency begins on July 1.
Except Shane accidentally, drunkenly, outs himself to the Montreal Metros at the end of the season. Who are not as okay with it as Shane would have hoped.
AKA the most eventful Canada Day that the MLH has ever seen.
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29 Mar 2026
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Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.
No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.
When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?
“I thought we could go through the fixtures and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”
“A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.
“It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.
“And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”
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27 Mar 2026
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frequently, secretly fond of each other. by milominderbinder
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Mar 2026
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Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”
“Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.
He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.
Nobody knows why Shane Hollander dropped out of the 2009 draft at the last second, and a year later it stuns the whole hockey world when he's signed by the Boston Raiders. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston - but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.
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26 Mar 2026
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the tricks out of our sleeves by outherenow
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Mar 2026
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“Is Boston even interested.”
Ilya scoffs at him like Shane is an idiot.
“Is sky blue? Is water wet? Is English stupid language? Yes, Hollander, of course we want best player in the league.” Ilya mutters more in disgruntled Russian and Shane gets up off the couch to Google Russian lessons on his ipad while continuing their conversation.
Or, a Shane goes to Boston story.
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22 Mar 2026
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David Hollander never went to the cottage. Ilya and Shane's secret was never discovered, though their plan remained the same. Keeping their relationship secret went well until an accident leaves Yuna stranded and Ilya is the only person Shane knows who is close enough to help her. With a storm raging overhead and phone troubles to stymie the way, Yuna and Ilya wind up stuck together for a night as they wait out the storm. Secrets aren't so easy to hide when you have too little cover.
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20 Mar 2026
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This story has lived in my mind since writing The Quiet Fight and Built to Break—where love made everything simple, and choosing each other was never in question. This time, they aren’t there yet. This time, they want to be everything to each other… but they don’t know how. So yes... I am making the poor guy sick again.
A cancer diagnosis forces Shane and Ilya to stop pretending they have time. They don’t slowly fall into each other—they crash into it, trying to make up for seven years of almosts and what-ifs. But illness doesn’t magically fix who they are. The same walls, fears, and habits that kept them apart are still there—only now they have to face them while fighting something much bigger than themselves.
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18 Mar 2026
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“Man, when did you learn Russian?” Pike asked.
“Did you do that for Viktor?” J.J. said. “You’re too good, Capitaine.”
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Montreal's newest rookie doesn't speak much English. Luckily, Shane has learned enough Russian from Ilya to help. This is the story of their unlikely friendship, told from the rookie's point of view.Bookmarked by Monarda
17 Mar 2026
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who will love a little sparrow by weeb_grass
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Mar 2026
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Spring of 2016: Ilya loses a father.
Summer of 2016: Ilya loses a brother.
Fall of 2016: Ilya gains a daughter, a lover, and a friend.
Or: another "what if Ilya gained custody of his niece" fic.
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15 Mar 2026
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Newly traded to the Ottawa Centaurs, Ilya Rozanov is so close to having everything he’d never thought he was allowed to want. He can see the man he loves more than four times a year, he’s surrounded by a team who supports him through his injury, and Shane’s parents have unhesitatingly accepted him as part of the family.
Except his lingering concussion symptoms have kept him sidelined from hockey, his boyfriend is still two hours away, their schedules are a disaster, and Shane’s team is, well…it’s full of assholes. There must be a way to make this all work out.
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A sequel to a whump fanfiction with more whump…that is also, secretly, a fix-it.
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- Part 2 of Return-to-Play
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- English
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- 50,450
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- 20/20
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12 Mar 2026
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The End of the World As We Know It by darlingofdots
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Mar 2026
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The Voyageurs are playing Oklahoma City at home tonight, and Ilya has been ignoring it, because he has his own game to win. But he looks up on instinct, sees the collision, in slow-motion instant replay, the inexorable crashing of two heavily padded bodies into each other and the boards and the ice, blood seeping out from underneath number 24, and he thinks "that's not the kind of thing you walk away from."
Shane goes down. Ilya tries to help him back up.
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07 Mar 2026
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the best laid plans by Sporkess
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Mar 2026
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When Ilya and Shane decide they want a plan to let them soften the rivalry and (maybe, eventually) come out without it being an NHL emergency, they ask Yuna for help. Yuna's got a 6 stage plan and it is absolutely, definitely going to work.
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- Part 5 of It starts in an elevator
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- 22/22
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04 Mar 2026
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They’d agreed on a plan. It was cautious. Designed to keep them safe. Laying the foundation for a future after hockey. It didn’t include Shane going nuclear one fucking day into pre-season, blowing up his entire life on something he should’ve expected to happen if he was being honest with himself.
Or, when the long game falls apart, Shane and Ilya need a new plan. (Or or, from the ten year plan to the one week speed-run.)
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- Part 1 of all the stars aligned
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03 Mar 2026
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let's make a team (make 'em say my name) by nettlepixie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Mar 2026
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“Haas,” Ilya says. His tone light, conversational. “He had a good game.”
“Are you seriously talking about Haas right now?”
The sting is taken out of Shane’s words by how breathlessly he says them, but he still has that cute scrunched-up frown that Ilya loves so much.
“He’s a good kid,” Ilya says. “Very pretty.”
“Fuck off,” Shane snaps. But Ilya just presses deeper into him, the answering gasp as familiar as if it came from his own lungs.
“You don’t think so? I saw you doing yoga together. Seemed like you were...” Ilya searches for the words. When he finds them, grins. “Admiring his form.”
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Breaking my silence to say that I think Hollanov would have a threesome and they'd have it with Luca Haas. But don't worry, they're obviously jealous and possessive and insane about it the whole time.
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- 3/3
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03 Mar 2026
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G[r]asping at straws by Helianthus_pauciflorus
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 Mar 2026
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Knowing Ilya would be home any minute, Shane hastily splashes water on his face, slapping his cheeks lightly, hoping to wash away some of the weariness and bring some color back to his cheeks. He chokes down two ibuprofen, hoping they’ll blunt the pain enough to keep the night from unraveling.
Then, steeling himself, he heads back downstairs, ready to pretend everything’s fine. Because tonight, it has to be.--
Shane gets hurt during a game, but tries to hide it from Ilya in hopes it won't ruin their precious time together.
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03 Mar 2026
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i know ownership is bad (please put a leash on me anyway) by manget0ut
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
29 Mar 2026
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All he could think about was the fact that the shower was still running.
Ilya Rozanov was in the bathroom.
One single closed door stood between him and them, and there was nothing Shane could do to stop the inevitable from happening. His dad was still talking, still acting like they weren’t seconds from impact, and Shane was having a panic attack. That was the only way to explain it, the sudden weight on his chest, shortness of breath. He went through the motions of flipping open the lid of his suitcase and pulling his charger out of its dedicated pocket, all while his lungs were collapsing.
How was he going to explain this?
or... Yuna and David find out the truth about the boys in their rookie year, it still takes them forever to pull their heads out of their asses
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- 4/?
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03 Mar 2026
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the ten step plan by WriteThroughTheNight
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Mar 2026
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In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.
But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.
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Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.
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- Part 2 of the coast is clear
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- 14/14
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28 Feb 2026
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Could've Been Worse by junevirginia
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Mar 2026
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April 2017: Metros vs. Raiders. Marleau comes out of nowhere, and Shane is busy looking at Ilya. The events are hazy, but Shane remembers the cold ice on his cheek and Ilya's voice.
Shane's injury is worse. Almost the worst it can be, and he feels like his world is crashing down around him. Is his career over? Will he get better? Shane is scared, confused, and in pain, and he all he wants is Ilya.
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- 48,763
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- 12/?
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28 Feb 2026
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When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
____Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.
“Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”
“Mom,” Shane managed.
“Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”
Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.
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Bookmarked by Monarda
24 Feb 2026