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cruel shangri-la by desiderate for devo_rak (rapowstner)
Fandoms: 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Manga), 呪術廻戦 | Jujutsu Kaisen (Anime)
03 Jan 2022
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yuuji's friends would call him desperate for a good fuck. yuuji would merely say he didn't want to be alone on christmas this year. except a simple hunt for a bdsm partner turns out to be more complicated than he expected when he meets a mysterious man named sukuna, and later, a gentleman named nanami.
or, the story of how yuuji starts the season with sukuna, spends a night with satoru, and rings in christmas with nanami.
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single dad geonhak meets kindergarten teacher hwanwoong, and promptly decides to pursue him.
he couldn't have anticipated the bad flirting and utter obliviousness that would ensue.or, the one in which geonhak is seonyul's dad and hwanwoong is something called amazing.
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yang jeongin lives in the Outside with his mother, and has never known any different. he's oblivious to the troubles of the Inside, until the day he's accused of practicing magic... which he hadn't even known existed. everything after that seems to be a constant downward spiral for jeongin, but he'll endure it until the day he finds happiness again.
which might just show up in the form of seven other boys, and in particular one named bang chan.
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Minseok went to a friend's one night, and came back late.
Came back late covered in bruises, hurt.
Despondent and struggling, Sehun is the only one awake to help Minseok.
But even after that first night, how long will it take Minseok to regain his sense of self?At the same time, Sehun, young and used to being taken care of, learns to take care of his hyung.
And learns that he wants to continue to take care of his hyung, in more than just a friendly way.
But Minseok has a long way to go before Sehun can even consider making a move.
And Sehun will help him get there, as much as he can. -
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pain is the best escape from reality. sicheng doesn’t like the pain, but he needs it.
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“So as long as it’s not the face, it’s fine, huh?” Reed says. His free hand is suddenly on Connor’s neck, fingers soft against the line of his jaw, and the press of skin is hot. He lets it trail down the front of the CyberLife coat, and Connor can’t stop the shiver of his plates as they respond to the light pressure. “I’ve heard that before.”
(Connor is forced to work with Gavin on the deviancy case when Hank is injured and relegated to two weeks of desk duty.)
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- Part 1 of Dirty Computer
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24 May 2026
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MI6 employed a broad variety of people with an equally broad array of sexual proclivities - no surprise in a place that trained and equipped international spies. Despite this openminded work environment, however, assumptions were made: obviously 007 was a hypersexual womanizer and the mild-mannered Quartermaster was asexual.
When the reality turns out to be that 007 is ace and Q is actually into submission, life is bound to get more interesting.
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14 Oct 2025
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first read this in feb 2016–was keeping up while it updated but i think i got busy with school and never finished. it’s one of the first long fics i remember LOVING, and looking back, this was probably toward the start of my questioning baby ace era 🥹 crazy that it’s almost 10 years ago!
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(The end is never the end. There's too much blood on too many hands and too many unhappy endings. Six years is a long wait for a grieving mother and a damning curse. It's time for more desperate measures. Perhaps resourcing one of the counselors - as she had watched so many do before - will prove benign. Looks like it's time to save the sole survivor.)
Dylan wakes up in a blind panic, kicking out and falling backward off of the log bench he's sitting on. Maybe it's a bit dramatic, but in his defense, he was just being pinned down in the kitchen, about to get his throat torn out by a goddamn werewolf. Sue him for startling.
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- Part 1 of take me back & back again
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04 Oct 2025
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It's Called: Freefall by Antimonicacid
Fandoms: Fire Emblem: Fuukasetsugetsu | Fire Emblem: Three Houses
06 Apr 2020
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Sylvain is six years old and in his small body he already contains a multitude of identities. Sylvain is a friend and Sylvain is a brother and Sylvain is a son and Sylvain is a fighter. Sylvain is a grin that catches on the edges and Sylvain is the sound of laughter bouncing against the walls of a room. Sylvain is sunburned freckles and Sylvain is the drop in your gut when you leap into a pond for the first time that summer.
Sylvain is many things, some more real than others, but there is one thing he is not.
Sylvain is not a child.
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- Part 1 of Sylvain's Therapy Log
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09 Sep 2025
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There were signs, Tommy knows this now. The hastily tied boots next to a dead man's exposed feet, a too-small uniform that barely kept him warm, especially as it shrunk with cold saltwater, giving him rigid posture and a small but noticeable limp on those last days. The sort of vulpine cunning as he silently directed Tommy to make sure they both looked like soldiers cast off in the first aid ship sunk at the mole, pulling themselves underwater to join the rest of the survivors. Anxious looks that said "if we look the part, we get to go home." Who knows how long he’d been trying to escape this.
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07 Sep 2025