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    Sam's chest tightened, his own guilt gnawing at him. He couldn't shake Riley's death, or the countless others—friends and allies who had died because he hadn't been fast enough, hadn't been strong enough, hadn't been there.

    The memories were sharp, like a blade pressed against his ribs—the ‘what ifs ' that haunted him every time he thought of those people gone because he hadn't been fast enough, hadn't done enough. The slow ache as friends drifted away, leaving him with fragments of himself to piece back together alone. He couldn't let that happen to Bucky. Not after everything he’d endured. Not when Sam has survived everything only to witness his friends leave him behind.

    ‘I can't lose you, too,’ Sam whispered, voice breaking just slightly. ‘I couldn't... not again. You think you're alone in this, Bucky? You’re not. I'm right here, I'm not leaving. I won't leave. You've been through hell, I've seen it, and... and I've failed before. I won't fail you.’

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    If Bucky had known that he was going to end up in some cheesy 80's crossover between Sam's time in the Falcon program and the movie Top Gun, he would've asked Sam some questions beforehand, like:

    Were you into guys or did young Sam really just flirt with everyone like that? Nobody, like, died horribly during the training part of this program, did they? Because these seem very unstable. And was it normal for the "Take My Breath Away" guitar riff to play every time we made eye contact?

    He hadn't known, though, that Scarlet Witch from SHEIN would look into their heads and pull this horrible storyline out, so he just had to keep his head above the water long enough to get out of there.

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    Steve was relaxing in a soft blue armchair by the window, sipping some tea with copious amounts of honey as he watched the sun set. It was how he preferred to spend his evenings, especially after stressful days, and with a tower full of traumatized superheroes (of whom he was somehow the most sane- him, the one who tried to go to war with about a million chronic illnesses? Him, the one who’s sixty years ahead of his time? Him? -he was often helping someone, somewhere, feel a little more safe.

    And he didn’t mind. Of course he didn’t! These people were family to him. But sometimes it was nice to just sit and watch something that hadn’t changed, that would always be beautiful, while drinking the one brand of tea that hadn’t gone out of business while he was in the ice.

    **

    In which Steve, the man sixty years ahead of his time, is somehow the most sane in the tower, the one who helps everyone else to cope. When his team- his family -is struggling with their past, he's there, with whatever they need. Of course he is. He loves them. But who's there for him when he needs help? (Everyone. They love him too.)

    *Please mind the tags and the notes.*

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    Sam had always wanted to fly. Something about soaring above everything, free with the wind and the sun and the sky, had always appealed to him. Putting on those wings was everything Sam had ever dreamed of. Flight, real flight, not blocked by a helicopter or jet or anything. Plus Riley- not just his bunkmate, not just his partner, but his best friend. His wingman.
    ...
    But then another missile whistled towards them, and Riley must not have seen it, this time.
    Sam dodged.
    Riley didn’t.
    Riley fell.
    ...
    Rhodes fell.
    ...
    Joaquín fell.
    ...
    Sam was too late.

     

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    In other words, a look at Sam's relationship with flight and the people who flew beside him.

    (Basically I realized there's a lot of parallels between Riley and Joaquín and then realized he saw Rhodes get shot down too and went 'hmmm he's witnessed a lot of people die/get critically injured with no way to save them despite his best efforts... wouldn't it be a shame if someone were to... write about that')

    I don't own the characters, I just cry about them. Title from "Tightrope" by The Score. Please mind the tags!

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    Bidding to clear his throat, Bucky fails and ends up quietly hoarsely speaking, “Sam.”

    Taking a deep breath, Sam lifts his head. His gaze is open, searching for something on his best friend and partner's face.

    “What do you need?” Bucky decides to inquire, the rest of the dark room irrelevant. It's ludicrous and would be a mockery of himself for Bucky to wish Sam would respond by saying him. But the truth of that matter can be stored inside him under an invincible lock and key.

     

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    ft. five times Bucky thought of Sam as an angel and the one time he told him

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    A [mostly] modern Veteran AU of John Walker/Bucky Barnes that is an on going roleplay between myself and a friend. I got permission to post this.

    I will say Olivia is villianized just for the sake of the RP/fic. I love her character and she absolutely deserves better.

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    For a brief instant, Sam had thought that Bucky would be okay. That he would be fine, that this would be nothing. Bucky fell all the time: he had always hurled himself from planes like a madman during the missions they used to run together. He would be fine, right?

    And then Bucky had hit the ground, and all Sam could do was watch.

    When Bucky is badly injured on a mission with the so-called New Avengers, despite everything, Sam shows up.

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    And that's just how it is for a long time. Sam staring at the Winter Soldier while he drinks Sam's drink and Sam debates whether the man poisoned his burger.

    When the straw makes an awful scraping sound at the bottom of the cup, Barnes puts the cup down and stares some more. "You don't..." a squeak erupts and he clears his throat before continuing, "you don't have to be scared of me. I'm not going to hurt you."

    Sam snorts. "My broken wing and the shoe print on my chest say otherwise."

     

    Or Sam Wilson's tour around Europe is more eventful than it should be.

    5 + 1 Acts of love.

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    Barely five minutes passed before there was a knock on the door. Bucky padded across the apartment and met his boyfriend who he hadn’t called waiting on the other side. Sam was wearing the wings and he was slightly out of breath, signaling that this was a last minute trip. Before Bucky could react, Sam had him crushed in his arms. He could feel him shaking.

    “I saw you walk into that darkness,” Sam whispered, his voice light and frail. Bucky had never heard him sound so…breakable. “I thought you were dead.”

    Bucky hugged him back, reveling in the comforting weight of his lover. “I’m not dead, doll. I’m right here.”

     

    OR immediately following Valentina's announcement, Bucky leaves to get his wits together. Of course, his boyfriend finds him.

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    A slow burn fic steeped in grief, guilt, and the ache of healing about Sam Wilson and Bucky Barnes, two men scarred by war and haunted by ghosts, slowly begin to realize that the one person who might understand their pain is the one standing beside them. It's not easy. It's not clean. But maybe, in each other’s arms, they’ll finally find something that feels like peace. Maybe, just maybe… they’re enough.

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    After the events of Brave New World, Sam is dealing with resurfacing trauma after watching Joaquin fall. Bucky's there to help him through it.

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    Bucky celebrates the Fourth of July for the first time in 80 years with his favorite person.

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    He’s met by a genuine laugh. “Well, that son of a bitch really got us, didn’t he? He almost made me like you.”
    “Aw. I knew you had a soft spot for me, Buck. I could read it in those icy eyes of yours.”

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    Sam and Bucky go on a road trip, share music, food, a bed. And eventually fall in love.

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    The Wilsons brought Bucky into their fold, and for the first time in a long time, he's found peace. Messy, warm, and healing, they're building a life together. He's part of a family now. Life is moving forward.

    And then-
    Bucky wakes up.

    ...

    He needed… Bucky scrubbed his flushed face, filtering in a slow breath. He needed to call Sam.

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    “I hate you.”

    Bucky chuckled, low and tired.

    “I know. But you still caught me.”

    The weary captain sighed into his partner’s shoulder.

    “I caught you.”
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    Sam Wilson has a partner. He wasn't sure how far he wanted the meaning of that word to extend anymore.

    Bucky Barnes is always going through something. It's not too bad to go through something nice for once.

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    After the events of Brave New World, Sam just needs a moment to catch his breath and heal, so he attends a veteran’s support group and talks about his feelings.
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    Joaquín is a goofball and Sam realizes he’s in love with said goofball.

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    Bucky put one of his hands– well, the only one he currently had– to his chest with some sarcastic flair. “I’ll have you know, Cap, that white chocolate wasn’t even a thing until I was in my twenties,” he huffed, “Brush up on your history.”
    “Why would I do that when I have a walking primary source to bother?”
    -
    Sam and Bucky are not the kind of partners who play 20 questions on their way to beat up bad guys. They get to know each other by taking life as it comes.

    (Drabbles of Sam and Bucky getting closer between TFATWS and CABNW.)

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    How Bucky discovered that there is beauty in scary things.

    (Free Space on my Vacation sbsummer2024 card)

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    “You..wanna talk about that?” Bucky asks awkwardly. Sam knows he’s not good at this part, even when Sam’s the one having the panic attack or nightmare or flashback.

    Sam shakes his head. “Just..stupid thoughts. I know none of it’s realistic or anything. Dumb shit.”

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    "He's only short and bitter because he doesn't want them all to see through his mask. He's only mean to Sam because the constant squabbling keeps him on his toes and makes him feel alive. He's only like this because that's the way the army, then HYDRA, trained him to be."

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    Bucky struggles with dealing with everything the war, then HYDRA, threw at him.

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