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  1. Public Bookmark 48

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    Shane had made so much progress in the past year and a half. Between therapy and playing for Ottawa, he was in a much better place mentally.

    And yet.

    Yet, today, he felt like his body wasn’t his own, like his bones weren’t fit together quite right, like his muscle and flesh and all the bits underneath were just wrong.

    “It’s the,” he started again, squeezing his eyes shut to block out the knowing look in Ilya’s. “It’s the idea of putting it on my plate, in my mouth. It’s not good… For me.”

    Shane and Ilya host Christmas dinner for the first time, and Shane struggles with the sweet potato casserole.

    Takes place following the events of The Long Game

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    14 Jan 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 29

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    "What I am trying to say is that I’m worried about you.”

    “Worried about me,” Shane repeated slowly, “Worried I’ll get hurt playing?”

    Ilya shrugged, not meeting his eyes. “Sort of. A little. That’s part of it, I guess.”

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    14 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 73

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    Ilya isn't used to having someone worrying about him. His mother died when he was so young and his father was... his father. He doesn't know how to handle someone suddenly showing up for him and checking up on him.

    Aka : Yuna Hollander takes Ilya under her mothering wing and mothers him, whether he likes it or not.

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    13 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 33

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    Ilya didn't talk about missing his mother a lot, held the sadness and grief close to his heart.
    Shane tells his mother about the choices Ilya made, about how he will never be able to visit his mother's grave again.
    Yuna is a mother, through and through, and Ilya is her adopted son now, so she sets out to make room for his grief, because that's what family is for, after all.

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    13 Jan 2026

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    “So why are you out here? Did old man leave you all alone at party?” Ilya said, grabbing a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and holding them out towards Kip. The other man shook his head, so Ilya took out one for himself. 

    “No, no. I just got a bit overwhelmed myself and stepped out for a minute,” Kip said, facing back towards the night sky. 

    “And boring,” Ilya added. 

    Kip laughed. “Yeah. . . The endless stream of old, straight men giving me weird looks doesn’t help.” 

    Ilya barked out a laugh at that. “I cannot imagine. This your first party with NHL, yes? As a couple?” Kip nodded. Ilya took a slow drag of his cigarette. “Now I understand why is overwhelming for you.” 

    //

    or: Ilya and Kip have a chat on the rooftop during an NHL party

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    12 Jan 2026

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    When Ilya gets a text from Shane in the hospital that just says “I’m so sorry,” he has no idea what to think. He expects the worst, except he doesn’t know what the worst possibly is.

    Ten minutes later Ilya receives a text from a phone number without a contact. His heart seems to stop as he opens it.

    “Ilya Rozanov,” it reads, and then on another line, “this is Yuna Hollander, Shane Hollander’s mother. I’m inviting you to dinner at Montoya's at 5:30pm tonight. It is private and quiet. Please be there.”

    Shane accidentally spills the beans to his parents while high on pain meds and Ilya has to have dinner with them alone.

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    12 Jan 2026

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    He will never tire of this, Ilya realizes. However the world may shape and change around them, for Ilya, there will always be this: Shane Hollander, open and kind, sweet and yet impossibly filthy, and giving himself over with so much ease.

    So of course this is the moment when Hayden Pike ruins everything.

    Or: Hayden walks in on them at the cottage and absolutely no one’s happy about it. Good thing Ilya brought weed.

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    12 Jan 2026

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    11 Jan 2026

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    “Game is over,” he says. “You won. I lost. I was annoying. Normal.”

    “That’s not—” Shane starts, then stops, because he actually doesn't know how to finish that thought without sounding like an idiot. His jaw works, teeth grinding together.

    That's not what I meant. That's not the point. You said I was boring and you were right and I need you to say it again so I know where I stand, so I know what you think of me, so I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop.

    He settles for: “You were kind of an asshole.”

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    11 Jan 2026

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    Scott doesn’t think he wants to be in some secret gay group chat with Hollander and Rozanov, but honestly, it would be kind of nice to speak to guys who got it, like really got it—the pressure to excel, the claustrophobia of locker room culture, the unending scrutiny of the press.

    Or, Scott clocks Hollanov at the 2017 All-Stars Weekend, just like he did in 2011, and this time he tries reaching out to connect with Shane.

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    11 Jan 2026

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    Ilya knows there is a thing about himself he has to always keep hidden in the deepest recesses of his body, behind his molars and in his core. He thinks Shane Hollander might be the same, except the thing about him he cannot hide.

    Ilya Rozanov is the biggest hockey talent of his generation. So is Shane Hollander.

    But over the years Ilya notices that the vicious media and the clamouring fans and some of his more foul-mouthed teammates treat Hollander differently than any other hockey player.

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    10 Jan 2026

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    A drunken night after the NHL awards in Vegas leads to unexpected consequences for Shane and Ilya.

    A married in Vegas fic.

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    10 Jan 2026

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    “And you’ve done amazing things for the Cen…. You’re thinking Ottawa. You’re thinking the two of us on the Centaurs together.” Shane felt startled.

    “You are not?”

    “It’s… Oh my god. It could be. We could be amazing together.”

    Ilya’s eyebrows both lifted. “Could be? We definitely are. And on the ice, too.”

     

    In which Ilya and Shane announce their relationship on their own timeline, even though it gets a little accelerated by events.

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    10 Jan 2026

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    “Ilya Rozanov,” Shane repeats slowly, letting himself taste the words. He grins. “Wow. You’re, like, a really good player. How come you’re in Canada for summer camp? Is that weird to ask? Sorry if that’s weird. I just meant-”

    Shane is cut off by a hand on his mouth. He flushes.

    “Too fast,” Ilya says. “My English… not good.”

    “Sorry,” Shane mumbles into Ilya’s hand. Ilya grins and shakes his head, curls dancing, as he pulls his hand away.

    “Is okay. Slow words. Okay?”

    This year marks thirteen year Shane Hollander's third summer at Coach Marakov's elite hockey training camp. In attendance for the first time: Ilya Rozanov, visiting from Russia. Shane isn't the most sociable, and Ilya's English isn't the greatest, yet the unlikely duo soon become the best of friends.

    It's just one summer, but it makes a world of difference.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Cliff Marlow has been on Boston’s team with Ilya Rozanov for the last seven years.
    Last week, he figured out the Shane Hollander thing.

    *** Now with a 2nd Chapter of Shane's *slightly* more serious POV***

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

    +++

    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

    “Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

    “No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

    “Go fuck yourself.”

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    Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

    And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

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    08 Jan 2026

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    08 Jan 2026

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    He's seen a few other guys get their bell rung. Has seen a couple of them get to their knees almost immediately; has seen them struggle to their feet, then almost wipe themselves out again. Has seen them kneeling with a dazed expression, trying to figure out where they are.

    And has seen a couple of them lie there. He's been one of them before.

    Swallowing down bile, he asks, "How long did I take to get up?"

    Please have tried. Please, please, have been one of those guys kneeling almost immediately. Please have been moving. Please have let Ilya seen that.

    A couple of years into playing on the same team together, Shane gets concussed. It's a little bit different this time.

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    07 Jan 2026

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