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    29 Apr 2026

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    After Sochi, Shane Hollander stopped trusting intensity.
    After three Cups, he stopped believing in fulfillment.

    What he finds instead is a voice.

    A man who doesn’t need his face.
    A man who tells him when to breathe.
    When to stop thinking.
    When to let go.

    It’s supposed to be anonymous.

    Ilya Rozanov let him freeze in the snow-bright glare of Sochi.
    Now Dima is teaching him to burn in the dark.

    Phone sex becomes release.
    Control becomes craving.
    Familiarity becomes revelation.
    And forgiveness becomes the most dangerous act of all.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    13/?
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    27 Apr 2026

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    After the failed coup d'état, the wedding, the vows, and the celebrations, Finn keeps waiting to wake up, because surely this bliss is a dream.

    Dane has all night to prove it’s real.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    After the season ended, everything should have been simpler.

    It wasn’t.

    Because love said out loud is still not the same as staying.
    And when a ghost from Shane’s past returns to the ice, Ilya is forced to face the one thing he cannot control:

    the parts of Shane that were never his to begin with.

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    2/?
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    20 Apr 2026

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    At eleven years old Ilya Rozanov's class is given an assignment:

    They will be randomly paired with a student at another school in Canada via email. In order to get full credit on the assignment, they must send at least five emails back and forth and gather enough information to write their project.

    After seven years, Ilya is pretty sure he's done enough for 100%

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    Shane and Ilya sending emails throughout the years. What happens when they meet?

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    67,455
    Chapters:
    21/21
    Comments:
    6,787
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    19 Apr 2026

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    Twenty years after everything fell apart, Shane Hollander is on the cusp of becoming MLH Commissioner when Ilya Rozanov walks into his office and back into his life.

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    Chapters:
    9/13
    Comments:
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    18 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    82/?
    Comments:
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    17 Apr 2026

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    Set around the end of 2023/early 2024, a married Ilya and Shane confront Shane's recurring fantasies by seeking out somewhere to explore watching and being watched, and discover a private club in Ottawa called Le Chaton. They get more than they expected when they find the right audience, and Shane winds up understanding the benefits of being seen.

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    Chapters:
    14/14
    Comments:
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    17 Apr 2026

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    While trying to write to his friend studying abroad in Moscow, Shane Hollander accidentally reaches Ilya Rozanov.

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    Chapters:
    9/9
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    8,316
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    39,588
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    16 Apr 2026

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

    ~

    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    30/30
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    14 Apr 2026

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    Just months after being recruited by the Montreal Metros, Shane Hollander tragically suffers a career-ending injury. Twenty years later, he crosses paths with his one-time rival, the legendary Ilya Rozanov, at a youth hockey game. Why? Because they both have ten year old sons.

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    Chapters:
    11/11
    Comments:
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    14 Apr 2026

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    “Rozanov needs a place to stay. His visa won’t allow him to go home to Russia over the break, and we don’t have the cash to put him in a hotel.”

    Did the Harvard dorms completely shut down over the winter break? What about the dining hall? Shane supposed he didn’t really know. He’d never stuck around to find out, when he was younger. 

    “Okay?” 

    Coach raised his eyebrows. “So, he’s staying with you.” 

    Shane’s eyes went wide. 

    “What?” 

    “Come on, Captain,” Wiebe looked down his nose at Shane. “Try not to look too thrilled.”

     
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    or, Shane's a senior captain with an empty house over winter break. and Ilya's the freshman who will be crashing his Christmas. 

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    Words:
    80,404
    Chapters:
    11/11
    Comments:
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    12,832
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    13 Apr 2026

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    After Ilya's plane crashes in the ocean, no one knows if the hockey star is alive or dead. Shane sets out to find him and reconcile their relationship.

    ***COMPLETE!***

    Language:
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    Words:
    59,873
    Chapters:
    20/20
    Comments:
    825
    Kudos:
    2,667
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    61,404

    10 Apr 2026

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    The first note was recorded at 2:13 a.m. in a Boston kitchen, three nights after Las Vegas. Ilya told himself it was a one-time thing.
    He made a second one the next evening.
    This is the archive of everything Ilya Rozanov said to Shane Hollander in a language Shane doesn't speak, in files Shane was never supposed to hear... and what happens when one of them finally gets sent.

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    English
    Words:
    26,237
    Chapters:
    7/7
    Collections:
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    Comments:
    570
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    1,757
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    515
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    28,105

    10 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander lands his breakout role opposite Ilya Rozanov in a buzzy rivals-to-lovers adaptation. Their on-screen chemistry is electric & their off-screen “practice” is supposed to be no strings attached. When the show airs, the internet starts paying attention & all the lines start to blur.

     

    Or…what if Shane & Ilya were actors who met on the set of an HR-like show, have to deal with fame & semi-unhinged fandom, and are still idiots falling in love.

    (Lots of yearning, some angst but also fluff/HEA.)
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    “Can I ask you something?” Ilya said.
    Shane’s stomach flipped. “Okay.”
    Ilya hesitated, then said, “Have you ever been with a man?”

    “But,” Ilya added, studying him, “I know you, Shane Hollander.”
    “You do?”
    “You want it to be perfect,” Ilya said simply. “You want to be the best one in the room. Every time.”

    “For authenticity,” Shane said, clinging to the word.
    Ilya’s mouth curved. “Exactly,” he said. “If that helps.”
     ...
    “I’m not saying you need to,” Ilya added. Then the smirk slipped back in to place. “But if you ever decide you want to...I’m here and willing.”

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    Chapters:
    17/17
    Comments:
    453
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    57,118

    08 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov have been texting sporadically for fourteen days following their first private session.
    One night, Shane comes home from a road trip and his phone is already in his hand. What follows is not a session. It isn't billed by the hour. It doesn't have a contract. And that, it turns out, is the most dangerous part.

    Set between private sessions one and two of Wolfbird by OpalApparition. Wolfbird Chapter 11 tells us how Shane asked if Ilya was free Friday, and Ilya said yes before checking his schedule. This is that night. The text that started it.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    237
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    880
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    8,741

    06 Apr 2026

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    Ilya's heart shouldn’t be pounding at the prospect of having Shane in his arms once again. And yet, it was.

    When Ilya exited the club, he saw Shane inside a sensible car—a blue Jeep. Seconds later, the car was skirting off the gravel road. Ilya tried his best not to be disappointed, or hurt, but managed neither.

    (Or Alt. post-club scene from Ilya's POV. He finds Shane's car pulled on the side of the road. They talk.)

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    Chapters:
    9/9
    Collections:
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    Comments:
    692
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    3,337
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    05 Apr 2026

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    Immediately following the events of Episode 6, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov return to the cottage and spend the next number of days talking, fucking, and sharing secrets about their relationship the other person doesn't know.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1,155
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    7,185
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    2,188
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    80,358

    05 Apr 2026

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    When you’re going up in flames, sometimes other people can smell the smoke. On the flip side, at least: when you’re on fire, sometimes other people can feel the warmth.

    Or, scenes from Home Economics, told from the perspective of everyone else.

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    Language:
    English
    Words:
    25,161
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
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    Comments:
    1,334
    Kudos:
    8,080
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    1,882
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    98,874

    03 Apr 2026

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