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    “I feel really good about this kid, I think he could be great on your wing, he just needs some help settling in. Someone to show him the ropes.”

    “Yes.”

    The line went silent for a moment. Ilya wasn’t really sure why his coach felt the need to run this by him.

    “Rozanov,” his coach said at last. “I want him to live with you.”

    Ilya blinked, then nearly shouted into the phone. “What?”

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    or, Ilya stays in Boston, gets a rookie, and tries to figure out how to make a secret long distance relationship work while there's a Russian teenager in his house

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane doesn’t realize he’s braced for silent eyes until he feels the absence of it — the weight of teammates immediately finding him and going quiet, waiting for him to fuck up, to say the wrong thing, to exist wrong. He expects the chatter of a room to drop when he enters and its disconcerting to find it doesn't yet in Ottawa.

    He stands at the entrance a beat too long.

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    It’s the start of Shane Hollander’s first season in Ottawa and he should be settled. The Centaurs are friendly, the room is easy, and Ilya is finally close enough to touch. But, as Shane is intimately aware of, old habits learned the hard way will linger.

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    18 May 2026

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    Shane heard a strangled shout tear free from his mouth, and then his body was moving without his brain’s input. He flew across the ice, ripping his gloves off and reaching for Ilya’s throat. He wrapped his fingers around the warm skin, feeling the flow of blood pulse harder with each beat of Ilya’s heart. His eyes raced across Ilya’s face, desperately looking for a sign that his boyfriend was still with him. Ilya’s eyes were wide and glazed, staring past Shane instead of at him. His face was losing color rapidly, turning a sickly shade of white that mirrored the ice beneath him. His mouth was open, loose and slack, mouthguard still jammed into his upper jaw. Shane watched in terror as Ilya grew limper in his arms.
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    During a Boston-Montreal game, Ilya's neck is cut by a skate, and Shane is forced to witness the love of his life bleeding out on the ice in front of him. All of the plans they have made seem to be slipping away before his eyes, right when they were so close to finalizing Ilya's transfer to Ottawa. As they race against the clock to save Ilya's life, Shane reckons with the secrets they have been forced to keep and fears that they might never get to live their truth out in the open.

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    09 May 2026

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    a collection of "fuck the montreal voyageurs" fics with a side of shane hollander being shane motherfucking hollander

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    08 May 2026

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    “I’ve always been kind of weak in relationships.”

    “Troy— ”

    “I need someone stronger than me. Dallas and Adrian were. But they weren’t people I could trust — and I never trusted Dallas, really.”

    Troy thinks Harris has an inkling about what he needs. That he needs a master. That he needs someone to guide him. Harris is so sweet about it that it looks almost nothing like how it looked with Dallas and Adrian — but it’s the same principle.

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    Excerpts from Troy's life aged eleven to twenty-six years old, focusing on his relationships with Adrian Dela Cruz and Dallas Kent during his time with Toronto.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    Everyone in the Guardians knows that Troy’s only hookup is in Ottawa, with a girl named Maris. 

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    25 Apr 2026

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    Troy Barrett is traded to the Ottawa Centaurs after bringing up the assault allegations against Dallas Kent and attacking the star-centre at practice. After years of being treated poorly by the Toronto Guardians, he struggles to adapt to the Centaurs' more accepting nature. Over the course of his first year with the Centaurs, he faces repercussions for speaking out against Dallas, deals with threats from the league, navigates a whole new team that is primed to hate him, and faces several media scandals.

    This is pre Troy/Harris, and Shane/Ilya is not mentioned, but I picture it being in the background.

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    19 Apr 2026

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    It figures that even half-way across the world Ilya's dick manages to ruin Cliff's day. The real surprise is that it isn't the only dick involved in this mess.

    Featuring an ill-timed outing, a supportive but clueless team trying its best, panicking over Russia's LGBTQ laws, too many group chats, an unhinged 3am brainstorming session on how to get your captain a new citizenship (asking for a friend) and Roz' inability to answer his fucking phone.

    Or: Ilya disappears in Sochi. Half-way across the world his team does its best to help. Their best is more than anyone could have foreseen.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is having a very good night. He’s scored a goal, his edges are perfect, and his chirping of the Vegas Golden Knights’ roster is reaching art-form levels of arrogance. But hockey is a game of physics and ruts in the ice, and it only takes one meaningless check in the third period for Ilya’s season to shatter in a single, sickening crack.

    Three hundred miles away, Shane Hollander is forced to watch the replay in a silent equipment room.

    When Shane finally breaks and calls Boston forward Cliff Marlow, he expects to be met with confusion or hostility. Instead, he finds that the Boston Bears have been keeping a secret for years— and Shane starts to realize the differences between Montreal and Boston span further than he was ever ready for.

    What follows is meddling teammates who insist on doing laundry, PT that involves more sitting and standing reps than really feels necessary, and a boyfriend who is one research paper away from a medical degree. Plus, so much kale.

    Or: The one where Ilya breaks his leg, the Bears decide they love Shane Hollander, and everyone argues over who gets to be who in NHL 18.

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    10 Apr 2026

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    Shane never flinched on the ice. Not at chirps, even when the words other players used hit too close to home. Not at hits, even if his whole body had been flattened to the boards and protested against each movement onwards. Not at the lights overhead, nor the flash of cameras around him. Not at the cheers and boos of the crowd, nor the discordant scream of a whistle blowing. It didn’t fade to the background, didn’t quiet when he had the puck, but he got through it. He lived in it. He made it his home. But that was hockey. That bad was so interwoven with the good of it that Shane could hardly call it that anymore. This…this was a different kind of bad.

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    After his talk and breakup with Rose, Shane decided that he wanted to explore his sexuality with someone who wasn’t Ilya for a change. He went to a man’s apartment in Montreal and left feeling different. He wasn’t sure how, or why, or what to call it. All he knew was that it wasn’t good, and that he didn’t want to look at it. Fortunately or unfortunately for him, he had people in his life who wouldn’t let him disappear, no matter how hard he tried.

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    30 Mar 2026

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    Refusing to let Ilya ruin his career by signing with Ottawa, Shane chooses to really give their relationship a try and moves to Boston to live with Ilya and become a Raider. What follows is enough public scrutiny and backlash from his team that it has him questioning if he made the right decision. Until moments with Ilya and the Raiders show him exactly why he chose correctly.

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    Hayden’s eyes flickered to Shane as he sat on the bench, chewing on the edge of his mouth guard.

    “Don’t fucking look at him,” Ilya insisted as he bent down for the faceoff.

    “Excuse me?” Hayden mumbled, eyes darting back to him.

    “You heard me,” he retorted, his tone clipped. “He’s not your teammate anymore; he’s mine. If you think Marlow is a problem to your game, wait until you see what I will do to your team if you hurt anyone on mine again.”

    Hayden scoffed, dipping his head as he tried to focus on the game. Something about Ilya’s words still rang through his head though, sounding so definitive that he didn’t want to risk seeing what he was actually referring to when he said that.

    The puck dropped again, and Ilya stole it before he could comprehend how quickly it happened.

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    29 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov returns from the 2017 All Stars different from how he left for them.

    Then his father dies, and he takes the call in their locker room after a game, and Cliff Marleau sees more than people think.

    And then Shane Hollander goes down, and Ilya Rozanov fucking loses it - not to the untrained eye, no, but Cliff Marleau has lived out of the locker next to this kid for the past seven years.

    He’s also not a fucking idiot.

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    Missing moments from Boston

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    How Cliff Marleau figures it out

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    29 Mar 2026

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    Kent’s arm slams against a locker, body angling until he’s blocking the exit. “What, you’re suddenly too good for us?”

    Shane is fucking tired. It was bad enough dealing with snide remarks all game and his shoulder still twinges from a suspect slam into the boards. The last thing he wants to deal with is a belligerent Dallas Kent. “Try scoring a goal next time and I might change my mind.”

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    The world ends. Somehow, Shane has to keep going.

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    05 Mar 2026

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    The house where his mother killed herself is nothing but a pile of ash. It should satisfy him, maybe, that the building that was once her prison is gone. It was his prison too, for years. But something about the way the charred brick has crumbled in on itself makes him feel empty.

    Suddenly, Ilya Rozanov is a single parent to his orphaned niece. Suddenly, he has a whole lot more to lose.
    The only way to keep his love safe, is to keep it secret.
    (Its not like he doesn't have enough of those already)

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    03 Mar 2026

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    “Hayden I’m gay.”

    It’s said so suddenly and so fiercely it takes Hayden a second to register what he’s heard.

    “Oh.”

    “Yeah.” Shane replies

    Or

    How Hayden finds out.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this entire series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here:

    https://www.instagram.com/p/DWhgjfuFsVr/?igsh=MTlmbDBvbDBmMG55bQ==

    (fic binding is only ever acceptable for personal use! do not attempt to sell or monetize fanfiction!)

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    13 Feb 2026

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    lucarozanov

    if shane hollander gets mad at me reading about him getting blasted in the ass then he can check his bank account. i know ilya would be chill with it though

    Luca Haas tries very hard to not let anyone know about his dark (read: embarrassing) past. Unfortunately, the fans are ready to let people know for him.

    Or, Luca used to run a tumblr blog for Hollanov and the internet goes wild.

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    22 Jan 2026

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    Honestly, it was a miracle they had won the Cup this past season, with how divided the team had become. And it was no one’s fault but his own, Shane thought.

    That’s why he had been so determined to win. To prove himself. To earn back his teammates' respect. To fix the divide. If that meant more pressure on himself, stricter dieting, more workouts, more time spent at the rink, ignoring quips and small acts of defiance against him, playing through any pain or illness, then he had decided that’s what he would do.

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    19 Jan 2026

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    “What’s his deal?” Wyatt asked, appearing beside Shane. He was looking at Ilya with an amused expression, something Shane saw from Wyatt a lot. Actually, he'd never seen Wyatt look negative at all.

    “This.” Shane turned his phone on, putting the screen in Wyatt's view so he could see a post from some sports reporter.

    Adam Müller ✅ @AMullerNHL
    The #OttawaCentaurs have traded for Left Wing Hayden Pike.
    More information on this trade below.

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    hayden gets traded to the centaurs after a lot of deliberating, and his first season in ottawa proves why the change was worth it (plus the summer after)

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    17 Jan 2026

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