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“He didn’t deserve to keep you.” Eddie whispers into his ear. “Fuck him for not telling you his intentions in the first place. Fuck him for not caring about what you love. And fuck him for never treating you the way you deserved.”
Buck lets out a singular sob, his fingers clutching the back of Eddie’s pink button up. “I don’t even know what I deserve anymore,” he whispers wetly.
"I do."
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Eddie’s breath hitches on the other end, not like a laugh, like something different. Sort of like pain. Buck feels one of the tears make its way in a line down to his chin.
“Bad thinking?” Eddie whispers. Like he understands, like the bad thinking has afflicted him recently too.
“Yeah, bad thinking, y’know, the uh…” he lets out a rough laugh, a spurt of an ugly thing, “the whole me being an unlovable, horrible, annoying burden who doesn’t deserve anything good and probably won’t ever get it.”
or: Buck can't sleep, but Eddie can't either.
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“Eds, we don’t have to unpack this stuff right now. We can take a break. We’re off for a few more days, let’s slow down, okay?”
Eddie grimaces. He moves quietly, pulling out a chair at the kitchen table like he doesn’t want to make any noise, doesn’t want to bother anyone. Buck’s heart aches for him.
Or: Buck lends his loft to Bobby and Athena after the fire, subsequently moving in with Eddie in the aftermath of Christopher leaving for Texas. Healing begins, emotions are felt, and codependency rears its sweet, sweet head.
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Jack is selfish.
Or maybe he’s not, but he definitely feels like he is.
He wants to be a good friend to Eric. He really does. But nowadays selfishness comes so easily to Jack; It’s like breathing.
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or: Jack is sick, and Eric takes care of him.
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i wonder if they bore it long (or did it just begin) by asimile
Fandoms: Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Spider-Man - All Media Types, Marvel Cinematic Universe
28 Dec 2021
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Peter was still in awe of the two men in front of him. They were him, but not him, all at the same time. Now that the stakes were gone and the battle was over, he had time to just look at them. These two selfless guys, just sitting in front of him in his room. They had been through things, lost people, lived their lives similar to his. He scrubbed a hand over his face.
“Gah, that’s really-” he sighed, “that’s really nice of you. I don’t know, um. You guys can crash here since you need a place to stay. I can take the floor. Or something.”
Peter 2 drew his mouth in another tight line. “We’ll make it work. Thanks, kid.”
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Mike pushes into his hands, but Will keeps him still.
"Ask again," he says. Because he's greedy, and he wants Mike to want him.
He stares at Will's mouth. "Please."
"Again."
El is gone.
Will tries to figure out how to move on in New York, and Mike follows him. Their apartment is haunted not by ghosts, but by the two of them.
Or: Catastrophically traumatized boys cling to each other and accidentally figure out how to be close—too close—while moving through their grief.
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17 Mar 2026
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"You have no idea what you deserve. You’re terrible at judging."
"Who else," Eddie says, tiredly. "Who else will do it."
"Me," Buck says.
Self-denial won't save you, but there are other solutions out there.
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13 Mar 2026
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Eddie finds a box of Buck's sex toys and cannot cope. Cue a sexuality crisis, experimentation, a Christmas surprise gone wrong, and hot sex at a drive-in movie. The Jeep must be christened. <3
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13 Mar 2026
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“You fucked him,” Buck says, easy as two plus two.
“I mean—” and Eddie cuts himself off immediately. He doesn’t know if correcting Buck and saying he fucked me is the best course of action at this point.
Buck stares, almost hopeful, as if expecting Eddie to follow it up with a negative on the accusation. I mean, that’s not what happened or, I mean, that’s clearly lotion on the bed, dumbass. Buck stares and stares, and the hope withers and dies, and he finally lets out a short, disbelieving laugh that doesn’t quite reach his eyes.
“Jesus, Eddie. So what— what, you fuck men now? Were you even gonna tell me?”
Or, Eddie sleeps with the Boston firefighter, and Buck takes it about as well as you'd expect. What's a little roughhousing between friends, anyway?
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13 Mar 2026
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He wanted Eddie’s anger. His rage, every ounce of his pain. Because he was the one Eddie was mad at. He was the one that deserved to be punished. The beast in his head, in his chest, the one waiting just behind his teeth, wanted the feeling of Eddie’s fists against his jaw, his spit against his cheeks, their shared blood mingling.
The hideous side of Buck wanted Eddie to break his ribs and beat him black and blue and cut him to pieces, because it would feel like salvation. Like being whole. It’s like a slap in the face, the way a thought notched in the base of Buck’s brain stem screams that it would’ve felt like love. Because then, Buck realizes with startling clarity, he would’ve had something of Eddie. Something more than what he had previously allowed himself to want.
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13 Mar 2026