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Nothing is Free (A Heated Rivalry Fan Fiction) by pxnsneverland
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
20 Jan 2026
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Ilya Rozanov has learned that nothing is free--not shelter, not food, not kindness. Every favor comes with a price, and his body is the only currency he has. When a brutal night on the streets of Montreal puts him in the path of Shane Hollander, a wealthy stranger who refuses payment for his help, Ilya doesn't trust it. He trusts transactions. He trusts survival. Shane Hollander has spent his life being careful--about his image, his future, and the expectations attached to his last name. As the heir to a powerful corporation, there is no room in his world for scandal, much less for falling in love with someone society would rather pretend doesn't exist. As Shane and Ilya are drawn together, what begins as guarded proximity turns into something neither of them can afford. Ilya and Shane must decide whether love is worth the cost--and whether they're willing to risk everything for it.
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20 Feb 2026
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i’ve watched this scene before, same tragic part by Anonymous
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
03 Feb 2026
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September 2015
Ilya Rozanov is fine. He comes back from summer in Russia a little worse for the wear, with minor injuries sustained during an argument with his brother. It’s nothing he hasn’t dealt with before. Except someone takes a photo, and suddenly his bruises are all over the internet.
He just has to get through the first preseason game against Montreal. Once the public sees he can play normally, scrutiny will die down.
He doesn’t account for a far more private scrutiny: Shane Hollander is on the Voyageurs roster and, against all expectations, determined to get to the bottom of what happened to Ilya in Moscow.
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- Part 1 of call it empty closure
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20 Feb 2026
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know it's for the better / no, it's for the better by selfishambition
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
03 Jan 2026
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Ilya Rozanov has been carrying his mother's ghost since he was twelve years old.
Sochi is where the weight finally breaks him. Russia is eliminated in the most humiliating loss in their history, and their captain sits on a twelfth-floor balcony railing thinking about letting go.
Shane Hollander has a gold medal game in fourteen hours. He comes anyway.
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19 Feb 2026
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"Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."
"You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"
"I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."
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Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.
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- Part 11 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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- English
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- 14,171
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17 Feb 2026
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Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander have hated each other for three seasons. kind of hate where Ilya hit Shane into the boards so hard his ears rang for a week, and where Shane's smile after blocking Ilya's game-winning shot was the most devastating fuck you either had witnessed.
So when Ilya shows up at Shane’s apartment at 2am on a Tuesday, barely standing, blood dried at his hairline and his hands shaking so badly he can barely knock, Shane doesn’t understand what to do at first, or why Ilya is here, of all places.
He opens the door.
Ilya has a split lip, bruises turning dark across his cheekbone, His eyes are hollow in a way Shane’s never seen them before. He tries so hard to hold himself together, there’s something about seeing him like this. Ilya, who’s never been anything but sharp, mean and untouchable, that makes Shane’s chest feel like it’s ready to cave in.
“Jesus Christ” Shane breathes. “Ilya-”
“Didn’t know where else to go.” Ilya’s accent is thicker when he’s barely holding on, all his carefully practiced English slipping. He won’t look at Shane. “I-sorry. This was stupid. I’ll-”
“Who did this to you.”
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13 Feb 2026
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in the middle of the darkest night (in the middle of the hardest fight) by GatheringBlue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Jan 2026
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“Ilya,” he clarified, wincing as he swallowed, his throat feeling like he’d eaten a fistful of glass. “I need to call Ilya.”
He fumbled around for his phone, desperately needing to hear his fiance’s voice. Together, they could figure this out. They’d make a plan. Ilya could drive with his parents from Ottawa and–
But Ilya wasn’t in Ottawa. He was in Russia.
No.
No.
They’d kill Ilya in Russia. They’d kill him, or arrest him, or– or–
Oh god, they’d kill him.
__________________________________________________________________________A family emergency means Ilya is in Russia when Hayden's FanMail video ends up on Twitter, outing them to the entire world. It, predictably, ends horribly.
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- Part 2 of heated rivalry fics
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- English
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13 Feb 2026
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your presence has gone through me (like needle through a thread) by GatheringBlue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Feb 2026
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"We're setting you up with a billet situation," Fletcher continued. "It's pretty common for first-year players, especially international guys. Gives you a chance to settle in, learn the city, have someone looking out for you."
"Okay," Ilya said slowly, not entirely sure what a billet was, but not wanting to admit his ignorance.
He could guess from the context – he’d heard of rookies being assigned to live with older single players, veterans who could show them the ropes. Maybe that was what Fletcher meant. Connors maybe, he was probably a handful of years older than Ilya. Or perhaps Becker. Ilya just hoped it was someone who–
"You'll be staying with Nikolai Petrov and his family."
The words hit Ilya like a punch to the gut. For a moment, he forgot how to breathe.
"Petrov?" he managed, his voice coming out strangled.
__________________________________________________________________The Bears decide that Ilya should be set up with a billet for his first season. The idea of spending a year living with a man that Ilya is sure hates him is completely terrifying. And yet, it ends up being the best thing to ever happen to him.
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- Part 5 of heated rivalry fics
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- English
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- 75,295
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- 8/?
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13 Feb 2026
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you’d been born to bleed, little soldier by justhockey
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
06 Dec 2025
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“Ilya,” he whispers. “I want this. I want to know when you’re hurting and when things are hard, because I want you. I want you when you’re sad, and lonely, and messy-“
“-you hate mess,” Ilya teases, drawing a hard-earned smile out of Shane.
“But I love you.”
(Or the argument in The Long Game, rewritten.)
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13 Feb 2026
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"Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.
And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.
You don’t deserve his last name."
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content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime
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12 Feb 2026
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Sinking While Swimming by CaffeinatedFlumadiddle
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Feb 2026
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“Maybe you don't have to-”
“Uh-uh. No backtracking now.” Hayden pointed a finger at him. “If you tell Shane, fantastic. Would love that, quite frankly, but until you do, I want those goddamn pictures, Rozanov. Am I clear?” Ilya wanted to make some quip about Pike trying to get a different kind of picture out of him, but given the circumstances... He just nodded. “Good. My kids tragically love the fuck out of you, so figure this out.” Ilya nodded again. “Alright then.”
Silence followed. Ilya eventually got up, and Hayden awkwardly walked him to the door.
“Ilya,” he said, surprising him with the first name. “I know what I say doesn’t particularly matter, and I am mainly just a fail-safe for this situation, but…” He opened the front door and clicked his tongue. “For what it’s worth, you’re a good guy and don’t deserve the shit your brain apparently puts you through.”
"I'm a married man, Pike."
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Ilya’s depression shifts into some self-harming tendencies, despite how well he can justify most of it. An unexpected cavalry comes together.
(AKA I found a story filled with sex and decided to hone in on my other favorite things: mental health and complex family dynamics)
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12 Feb 2026
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“Did you like them? My parents?”
Ilya squints at him. “I love them,” he says simply, like it should be obvious. “They’re your parents.”
But, Shane thinks idly, there's a difference, isn't there, between loving them and liking them?
(5 times Shane thinks Ilya doesn't like his parents and 1 time he finds out the truth)
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12 Feb 2026
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Walk Away by multifaulty (Ravenclaws_owl)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Dec 2025
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Shane dialed. It rang… and rang… and rang again. With each passing ring the pit gnawing its way through Shane's stomach was growing. Just as he felt like it was about to stop ringing and go to voicemail, it picked up. Shane breathed out a sigh of relief.
“Thank God, I was getting worried. Where are you?”
There was an unsettling beat of silence before someone answered, “Hollander?”
It was not Ilya’s voice. Shane’s stomach dropped. He did his best to keep his voice steady as he answered. “Yeah? Uh, who is this? Can you give Ilya back his phone please?”
Another beat of silence.
“Hollander… God, um, something’s happened-”
After the events of The Long Game, Shane and Ilya play their first All-Star Weekend. Things are going great, until they go truly and horribly sideways. Ilya is left hospitalized following an attack off the ice, and Shane is left to pick up the pieces and wonder why.
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03 Feb 2026
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there I saw you standing (must have been a holy light) by nobodyknows11
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Jan 2026
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There’s a sudden cacophony of yells. As Shane turns to find the source of the noise, the only thing he can see is red splattered across the ice and a #81 jersey.
For an absurd moment, all he can think is “my parents are at this game. Hayden and Jackie are in the stands. Thank god the kids aren’t here.”
He doesn’t remember moving, but the next thing he knows, he’s kneeling in a pool of blood with his hands on Ilya’s neck, certain that he was about to die.
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03 Feb 2026
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hit me where it hurts by residentrookie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Dec 2025
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Ilya takes a nasty hit on the ice, but it's nothing he hasn't brushed off before. Or at least, that's what he thought.
Off the ice, Shane finds himself overwhelmed with the unexpected complications of Ilya's injury.
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- English
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03 Feb 2026
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from the cold by stammiviktor
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Dec 2025
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It’s winter in Ottawa and Ilya has hunkered down in his big, empty mansion to weather a nasty flu. Then his phone buzzes.
— Guardian™ Security Alert: Movement detected at front door
— (1) Missed Call: Yuna HollanderOr: The Hollanders have a new son to take care of. Ilya has no idea what’s going on.
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03 Feb 2026
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God-/Stepmother's awful new exhibition brings Fleabag and the priest back together and she discovers that he's left the church. But why? And how in the world is she going to survive this week's event marathon at the cafe?
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20 Oct 2025
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A year and a bit after the end of series two, the Priest gets news that sends him flying through the streets of London to a nearby hospital. Or, my take on Fleabag series three.
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- 8/8
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20 Oct 2025
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holy ghosts with their split tongues out by skvadern
Fandoms: Interview with the Vampire (TV 2022)
12 Jul 2025
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"Breathe, Louis," he thinks he can make out now, "just breathe with me, can you do that?"
Louis wakes up haunted, and Lestat helps to hold him together.
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17 Sep 2025
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For all my bad things happen bingo stories!
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30 Aug 2025
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Louis thinks of hunger, travels to Sausalito to remember, and makes a few purchases. Lestat provides entertainment.
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11 Jul 2025