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“You were drunk. I know it didn’t mean anything. Everything’s alright.”
Buck visibly winces. “That’s not — Eddie.”
There’s a suspended moment where Buck looks torn, standing on the edge of something, eyes fixed on the horizon to avoid looking at the drop, the precipitous canyon below. But then Buck, who can’t lie, who would tear his own chest open to a complete stranger on the street because the truth of him spills so loudly out of every jagged edge, sighs out:
“It meant something.”
There’s a ringing sound somewhere in the distance, getting closer. “What are you…” Eddie trails off.
“I wasn’t — well, I was drunk. But that wasn’t what. Wasn’t why. Not entirely, or — god.” Buck shudders in a breath, steeling himself. “I have feelings for you.” He closes his eyes. “I’m so sorry.”
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Buck confesses his feelings. Eddie’s straight. If he spends all his time thinking about Buck and looking at Buck and wanting to be around Buck, well, that’s just being a good friend, isn’t it? He’s being so normal about this, actually.
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13 May 2026
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Shannon Diaz née Garrett had a high tolerance for bullshit. You don’t get married at eighteen, become a mom at nineteen, and survive living under the omnipresent gaze of the world’s most… particular in-laws without developing many, many strategies for self-preservation. Every snide remark about Chris’ CP, every passive aggressive comment from Helena Diaz, every vertebra of Eddie’s liquid spine, Shannon took right on the chin with a smile on her face.
But there was no corner of Shannon’s life that she tested her extreme tolerance for bullshit more than whatever the Samwise-and-Frodo, Bert-and-Ernie, Crockett-and-Tubbs hell was going on between her ex-husband and his best friend.
(In which Shannon Diaz née Garrett lives, gets divorced, and helps her ex-husband realize that he’s in love with his best friend)
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11 May 2026
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Sometimes you have to break things to fix them. Chris would break his relationship with Buck, but Buck's already done that.
Chris can finish the job, though.
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10 May 2026
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“I think maybe Pepa's setting you up with the wrong people,” Buck blurts out.
“I did like him, he just–”
“I mean–” Buck huffs, and then he really gets going, “he’s basically just some–some emotionally unavailable douche who dragged you all the way out to Studio City fully intending to ditch you until he realized he had a chance to get in your pants, which–where, in some restroom? And don’t even get me started on–like, you said you sucked his dick, but what about you? Did he even get you off? That doesn’t sound very considerate! Frankly, he sounds like a terrible guy, and you should let me set you up with someone!”
Eddie’s brain isn’t going remotely as fast as Buck’s, because he’s still slowly making his way from his first thought (did I ever tell him I was meeting Matt in Studio City?) to his second one (has he been thinking about if and how I got off this whole time?) when Buck says that last part, and then it takes another moment to sink in. He blinks at the table. He blinks at Buck. “I’m sorry, what was that?”
Or: Eddie comes out, Pepa takes the initiative, and Buck follows her lead.
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30 Apr 2026
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“Hey,” Buck says, in the hospital room after it’s all over. “Just so you know, I’m in love with you.”
His voice is raspy, his smile a little self-deprecating. His eyes, when Eddie stares at him in surprise, are steady and blue. He doesn't sound like he’s blurting something out, or getting something off his chest, or confessing something he’s embarrassed of. He just sounds like he’s telling Eddie about the weather, something mundane. The sun is hot in the sky, they’re in New Mexico, and Buck is, apparently, in love with him.
Buck confesses to Eddie after the kidnapping. Eddie, in a fit of madness, accepts his confession. It'll be fine - just because Eddie isn't in love with Buck, doesn't mean he can't be his boyfriend.
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28 Apr 2026
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it all breaks down, it always does (it all works out, it always does) by Elgney
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
23 Apr 2026
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“I have no idea what’s going on.” He was embarrassed at the whiny note in his voice, but he couldn’t swallow it away. “I mean, the last thing I remember, I was telling my parents that I was leaving Texas. And then all of the sudden I wake up and it’s like—”
Like some stranger named Buck had infiltrated every corner of his life. That’s what it felt like.
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Amnesiac Eddie tries really hard to hate Buck. It doesn’t stick.
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23 Apr 2026
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Months after Shane experienced his own horrible 81 Tuesdays, Ilya is stuck repeating the worst day of his life: watching Scott Hunter win the cup for the Admirals.
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- Part 2 of HR Time Loop
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03 Apr 2026
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Christopher Diaz doesn’t believe in hell, but if he did, he thinks it might resemble back-to-school shopping at Westfield Mall with his Dad and Buck.
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Or, a trip to the mall goes disastrously wrong, when Eddie goes missing beneath the rubble, and Chris finds out something he should have been told years ago.Series
- Part 1 of i can reap, must mean i can sew
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30 Mar 2026
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"So what's up?"
Chris inhales, like he was holding his breath. "I have this friend," he says, and Buck thinks for a second that they're going to have to do a whole Thing where they pretend Chris is talking about a friend instead of himself. But no, he's actually talking about a friend. “And I got her -- she's pregnant. There was this party. Anyway, she can't tell her parents because they're crazy conservative, but she doesn't want to take an Uber to the clinic because she's heard horror stories. and I don't have a car. So I said I would call you."
Buck blinks several times. He's really glad, suddenly, that they're not on Facetime.
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30 Mar 2026
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Eddie Diaz is from El Paso, Texas; a fact which accounts for both more and less than he ever expected it to.
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- Part 1 of 9-1-1
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29 Mar 2026
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Margaret says, every inch the interfering grandmother, “Maddie, dear, are you thinking you’ll have another after this little one?”
"Maybe let her get through this one first,” Buck says.
Philip says, "We always thought two was the perfect number of children, you know. That way there’s always a parent available to drive each one around."
And Buck snaps, "Well that worked out for you, didn't it."
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Parents, forgiving but not forgetting, and what it means to earn a second chance.Series
- Part 2 of author's favorites
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27 Mar 2026
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“So where do you want to start?” asks Frank, and god, even the simplest questions are tough. How to even begin explaining the details of how you methodically destroyed every aspect of your own life. How do you explain chasing your own son out of the state? How do you explain burning your life down in pursuit of the ghost of your late wife?
“Buck got a boyfriend,” Eddie hears himself say, and then pauses, frowning in confusion at himself. “That’s not actually– I didn’t–” He lets himself take a breath under the heavy weight of Frank’s unwavering gaze, “It actually started with Pepa.”
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While Chris is in El Paso, it’s Eddie’s summer of Realizing Things, such as comphet, what Buck means to him, and how to let himself be happy.
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25 Mar 2026
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When Maddie comes home for winter break her sophomore year of college, she's expecting to leave to live with Doug and follow him to med school when he goes. Instead, she leaves with her brother.
In which Maddie raises a child, Evan spends time traveling and goes through El Paso on his way, Eddie gets a divorce and builds a family, and Buck comes to terms with everything that came before.
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23 Mar 2026
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The heart of it is this: there’s always some dead boy Buck should be living up to, and he never even knows until it’s too late to succeed.
Buck finds out he wasn't the first man Bonnie kidnapped to play Derek and spirals about it.
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22 Mar 2026
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Buck’s expression crumples. “They thought we were a couple,” he says. It’s not what Eddie was expecting, and he feels wrong-footed and on the defensive all over again. It had rubbed him wrong for a lot of reasons in the diner, in front of the sheriff, but he could take it from them. He can take it from someone, anyone else, and simmer over it later, but he can let it go, put it out of his mind. But he discovers now he can’t, he can’t, take it from Buck.
Eddie isn’t sure what about it is worse. The fact that Buck wouldn’t have blinked an eye at this before, the nebulous before something went wrong, or that—
If he was brave, he would say, Is it really that awful to you? Am I really that awful?
“Yeah,” he says instead, voice as steady as he can get it, ignoring the deep, terrible feeling in his stomach, “so?”
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20 Mar 2026
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Wyatt was not, like, nosy. For sure, he was interested. He was curious. He engaged with people, obviously, because most people were interesting and engaging and had cool thoughts and said neat stuff if you asked.
So, no. Wyatt wasn’t nosy, but he wasn’t stupid, either.
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Or: The Ballad of Wyatt and Ilya- Language:
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11 Mar 2026
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Ilya’s been muzzled his whole life.
He’s been told to sit, to stay, to stand and smile. When to be quiet, and when to speak. He’s been dressed up and paraded around with a high collar tight around his throat. He’s been kicked in the ribs and patted on the head by the same cruel master. Total obedience expected, and enforced by discipline when adoration failed. He was torn from his mother too early, stunted forever, given over to strangers when his limbs were still gangly and he still whimpered in his sleep.
Shane is the first person who’s ever loved him like a human, and not like a beast.
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09 Mar 2026
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the best person to be stuck in an elevator with by Sporkess
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Jan 2026
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There's no good way to be stuck in an elevator. Not when you're stuck in an elevator with someone who treats being annoying as an art form he wants to perfect, and definitely not when that person is your son's rival who you've hated for years.
But, when Yuna finds herself stuck in an elevator with Ilya Rozanov, she realises there's more to the story than she'd seen.
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- Part 1 of It starts in an elevator
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08 Mar 2026
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i've been stuck now so long (we just got the start wrong) by beagoldfish
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
18 Feb 2026
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The second time Shane Hollander wakes up on November 16th, he has a panic attack.
The problem is — he tries to explain through gasped breaths after Hayden basically knocks down his door, shouting that they’re going to miss their flight — the thing is, Shane’s already woken up on November 16th. He’s already flown to Boston. He’s already been to practice, and he’s checked into the hotel, and he has lived this day before.
He doesn’t mention that he’s also already fucked Ilya Rozanov twice and had a fucking tuna melt that Rozanov made and drank the ginger ale that Rozanov bought specifically for him. He doesn’t mention that they’d snuggled on the couch watching TV like some kind of couple, like boyfriends.
He doesn’t mention that he fell asleep thinking about how Ilya — fuck, no, thinking about how Rozanov had called him sweetheart and Shane, and that, even now, he can’t quite get the cadence of Ilya’s voice out of his head.
Or: After the tuna melt fiasco, Shane Hollander wakes up in a time loop.
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07 Mar 2026
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Public Bookmark 2516
Mystery Work
Part of underconstruction_ma
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This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!
Bookmarked by grison
06 Mar 2026